His Slave

24. Surrender

All two hundred and fifty questions take me forever to get through and when I finally reach the end, I stare at the 'finish' button, unable to click on it. I am frozen with fear.

What am I going to do if James was right about everything?

And if he was wrong, what is he going to do?

I'm terrified of both scenarios.

The results of this test are going to change my life. I shouldn't have agreed to this. At first I thought for sure that James couldn't be right.

But now I can't help but wonder. It would explain all the fucked up feelings I've been having.

I stare at the screen, knowing that so many answers to so many questions are on the other side of that 'finish' button.

Am I ready to confront the truth?

I'm so tired of feeling conflicted, tired of wondering exactly what I want and why James can make me feel the way he does just with his words. It's driving me insane!

I click the button.

The screen changes to a long brick of text and with a heavy sigh, I begin to read. It starts out by telling me about my personality.

People with your personality type tend to be more introverted, but you specifically require social interaction on a regular basis or else your feelings of loneliness threaten to overwhelm you.

You're generally a fairly trusting individual who keeps up a strong, independent facade most of the time for fear of being hurt or being viewed as weak or vulnerable.

In all actuality you crave being taken care of. If a person gains your absolute trust and respect, you will let your guard down for them. You ultimately become more dependent and softer towards this individual, able to express your honest feelings to them as well as your needs and wants.

Well.

You have a strong sense of justice and when you see something dubious happening you usually speak up about it. But your explosive temper prevents you from bringing problems up in a respectful way and you often lash out, causing yourself unnecessary consequences.

You know what, weird Persona test? Fuck you!

I keep reading.

You tend to live life on the indulgent side. You often have very little or no self-control and you generally have a hard time knowing when to quit.

Well, that was startlingly accurate.

There's more information about my personality and I skim through it, not caring to be met with any more uncomfortable truths.

The damn test knows about all my hobbies, likes and dislikes, it even mentions my sugar addiction and basically tells me that I swear too much. God, it's like James wrote this himself.

It tells me everything about myself and what I like. How the hell can it get someone's entire personality so completely accurate? And I wasn't expecting the test to be so blatant and forward with the answers.

When it gets to the last part before the conclusion I freeze. It's labeled 'romance and sex life' and I almost close the whole program down but I stop myself, taking a deep breath. No. I need answers. I begin to read.

Sexuality: straight

I roll my eyes. No, I definitely didn't know that!

Preferences: you tend to like men with dark hair and chiseled features. The trait you admire from someone the most is their eyes.