waves

chapter 18

Stella was very happy after changing her religion, she felt a peace of mind. All night she learned about her new religion. Her first step was to learn kalma, then wudu and then namaz. And for that purpose Fatima suggested her to join the Islamic center. So she can learn her religion from there. Stella joined Islamic center very next day. In morning, she used to go to university and then evening she started to go to Islamic center. Stella learned basics within a week and she was really glad about it. She started to wear some lose clothes which she had, and always wore the hijab which Mustafa gave her. She planned that after her semester will be over, she will go for a shopping to buy new clothes and hijabs as she has to appear for interviews too.
One day, Stella was as usual preparing for her exam when a thought strike her busy mind. She immediately stood up and took out the hijab which Mustafa gave her. It was tea pink colored georgette hijab. Old memories took over Stella and she remembered when Mustafa proposed her back then. She remembered that he asked her to change her religion, and now she was a already a Muslim. She grew happier as she thought that now she can marry him. And she satisfied her mind by telling, ‘that he gave me this hijab as a gift because he still wants to marry me’. Stella pulled the hijab to her chest and face, and then smelled her lovingly. She was very excited about the thought, and new love started to appear in her head. And her desires grew strong.
Next day, Stella as usual went to university for her last exam. She was very glad that the days to her success are even more near. After exam she went to the Islamic center. Today it was a very important topic, for which Stella tried her best to reach on time and attend the lecture.
It said “Muslim women should cover their bodies from head to toe. Their no body part should be revealing to any men, arousing his desires for you. And every women especially an Muslim women always ensures that no ‘Na-Mehram’  men should ever touch her. Living in an non-Muslim country every one of you should take care that you especially stay away from non-Muslim men. Don’t ever let them touch you, because Muslim women only belongs to their Muslim husbands, and only they have the right to touch you. Letting yourself touch by any men other than your husband is a sin, which god never like. May he has his mercy upon us. But those women are not likable and will be punished on the day of judgement who don’t protect their bodies and let random men touch them or show their bodies, wearing revealing clothes, arousing desires among men”
Stella listened to the lecture very carefully and then a dreadful memory appeared in front of her eyes. She remembered Steven Joseph!
As she went to home she started to cry. Lying on her bed, she cried loudly until her eyes sore. She regretted that why she never protected her body. Why she lose her virginity to man who was not even worth. Then she remembered that she should ask for forgiveness from Allah. She has done a sin and only Allah will forgive her. She instantly ran to washroom and did wudu like she learned. And after wudu, she wrap a scarf on her head and stood for her namaz-e-Isha. She correctly recited all the suras and duas, as she learned from the Islamic center. After completing namaz she raised her hand for dua. With wretched heart, and tears rolling down her cheeks she Allah for forgiveness. She kept asking for forgiveness, until her heart got satisfied and a peace arose in her mind. Then she laid down on bed for sleep, and closed her eyes.
“Fatima, how do we get to know, that Allah has forgiven us?” next day in she asked Fatima curiously
“when your heart is at peace” she replied.
That Stella decided that she will not intermingle anymore with her male friends. Her friends including Clara were very shocked to see that Stella accepted Islam. Everybody thought that Fatima has did something to her, that’s why she’s like this. But Stella ensured everyone that she has accepted Islam with her own choice and she has decided to lead her life on right path.
Although Stella find it difficult in some matters, but still she encouraged herself that only Allah will be happy from her.
After exams, Stella started to go to library everyday until she starts applying for jobs. Everyday she went to library, and read Islamic books to know more. Her curiosity lead her to learn everything more quickly then she ever expected.
It was a weekend, and Stella was in library, reading the translation of Quran when Mustafa from nowhere appeared and sat in front of her with his laptop…….