Forever and Always

Six

Savannah's POV:

I walked into Tommy's on Friday night to prepare for my set. It's been 3 days since I heard from Connor and I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me. I know he's mad that he didn't know about Hazel and I just want to explain everything to him. Maybe Angie was right and I should let him in Hazels life.

I walked to the small set up in Tommy's where I would play. There was only a few people here because almost everyone was at the football game. I left the game early and Hazel was with Miley and Michael so I didn't have to worry about her.

They were coming later on with my mom and Jackson. I knew a lot of people were probably gonna be coming here because Tommy's was the place everyone went on Friday nights. Especially if our football team wins the game. 

I checked the time after setting everything up and the game would be ending any time within the next half hour. 

I was right. An hour later and the whole place was packed. I heard the familiar sound of the bell ringing and looked up to see Connor walking in with a couple of his old friends. I looked back down at my guitar but I could feel his eyes on me.

The next group of people was of course my family and friends. Miley walked in carrying Hazel on her hip and I smiled when my little girl looked over and saw me. She started squealing and clapping trying to get to me. I laughed when my mom shushed her because people were looking. 

I looked over at Connor and saw that his gaze was now on Hazel. I could see the regret in his eyes and I knew that he was upset with himself. I think I might try to talk to him after but I don't think he even wants to be near me so we'll have to see.

I was broken out of my thoughts by Thomas banging two cups together to get everyone's attention. I rolled my eyes when he announced that I would be playing. He looked over at me and winked making me laugh.

I started strumming the cords before taking a deep breath.

(This is the song she's playing. I'm not gonna write out all the lyrics but this song fits perfectly with what's going on. If you don't listen to it then you might not understand things a little later in the chapter.)

"I could never say we could go back and be how it used to. But every time I think back to late summer in July I still miss you"

I looked up as I played and saw my family listening and watching with smiles on their faces. Hazel was actually watching me while sucking on her pacifier and I couldn't help the smile on my face as I looked at her.

"But that was before all the pain you caused me, and all the lies you told. It's haunting.

I still see your face when I go to sleep, I'll always love you will you always love me? I hate that all these memories are so persistent but now I know

I know how hard it is to move on with my life, when all of these daydreams come back to me at night. I hate that it'll take time to forget this, but now I know, it's better to love you from a distance.

To love you from a distance"

I knew what this song was about. I wrote it a while ago but it still hurts to think about. When I was alone the lyrics just flowed, you know? It was easier to put my feelings into the lyrics to a song than to explain it to someone. I do feel uncomfortable though because Connor is here and well, this song is about him. 

When my eyes connected with his, I felt this whole rush of feelings come back to me. I do still love him and I really miss him. But things might not work out again. I sang the lyrics and the emotion was evident in my voice. If Connor hadn't come back then it would have been easier to sing this but I didn't know he would be here and I don't have another song to play.

"I hate that I still miss you, I wish I could forget you."

It was like I couldn't tear my gaze from his as I kept going.

"I hate that I still miss you, I wish I could forget you."

I saw him look down at his drink and then back up to me.

"I still see your face when I go to sleep, I'll always love you will you always love me, I hate that all these memories are so persistent but now I know, I knoooow,

How hard it is to move on with my life, when all of these daydreams come back to me at night, I hate that it'll take time to forget this, but now I know, 

It's better to love you from a distance.

To love you from a distance."

I strummed the last few cords before finishing the song. Tommy's erupted into claps and cheers and I smiled. I didn't even realize I had tears in my eyes but I wiped at my face as best I could.

I looked over at my family and saw Miley clapping Hazels hand while she giggled happily. I laughed and stepped down from the platform. They walked over to me as I set my guitar down.

"Hi baby!" I cooed as I lifted Hazel up and showered her face with kisses. She giggled and kicked her little legs. She put her hands on my cheeks and gave me a kiss making my family aww and making me smile.

"mama, mama." she babbled out adorably making everyone smile. I kissed her tiny nose and she giggled before hiding her face in my neck.

"You did so good!" my mom told me.

"Thanks mom." she kissed my forehead and all my siblings and Miley hugged me.

I looked past them and saw Connor sitting on a stool at the bar with his friends. They were all talking happily and having a good time but he was just sitting there silently drinking from his cup.

"Can you um, hold Hazel for a bit?" I asked Miley. 

"Of course." she took Hazel from my arms which resulted in Hazel pouting. I kissed her nose and she laid her head on Miley's chest.

I took a deep breath and made my way towards Connor.

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