~24 hours ago~ ..... *beep beep beep* .
I angrily hit the alarm clock beside my bed.
" fuck" I hate getting up at 5 in the morning for work .
"You would think since I'm doing 20 I would have my own fucking place "I grumbled.
I pull the heavy covers off of my warm body , As the cold air from the air conditioner hit my back making goosebumps form on my chocolate skin .
My feet hit the cold tile floor as lazily walked the bathroom. I splashed cold water on my face trying to wake myself up .
As I looked in the mirror my eyes came into contact with my reflection. My once Fresh Afro was now matted down on the side from laying on it , my skin , now pale from dehydration and lack of eating .
My Eyes ,once beautiful dark brown ones filled with life are now dull and filled with tiredness . I turned on the hot shower and pulled off my clothes making sure not to look in the mirror not wanting to see myself.
I stepped into the shower and let the boiling hot water wash over my body , burning my skin " at least the pain distracts me " I mumbled .
My life isn't exactly what you call a good one , but I don't have time to complain so I just suck it up .
I finish in the shower and dry off, I never forget to put coco butter on because it keeps my skin hydrated then I put on my outfit for today .
I pick out my Afro and put it in a high puff on my head, I do my edges and get my purse
. I head downstairs into the kitchen grabbing a pop tart rushing out the door before my dad gets up and starts yelling at me . I get into my worn out car and headed to work.
~TIME SKIP~
" hi , my name is aurora. I'll be your waitress today, what can I start you off to drink ?" .... rudeness is what I got back ." I DON'T WANT HER KIND TO SERVE ME " The old white man screamed.
I live in a small neighborhood, where everybody's racists. You may ask *why am I here then ?* well I was adopted by a white couple and turns out they racist too.
. Numbness , that's what I felt . It happens almost everyday , I break my back trying make these people happy and what do I get back ? !. "
hey luv don't worry about it " my Bestfriend jasmine said . "I'm not , but just because I'm used to it doesn't mean it hurts less" . I put on my straight face and walked off.
~TIME SKIP~
I clock out tired of today's mess . I walk out of the small restaurant and to my car on other side of the parking lot .As I got closer to my car I saw a note in which said "I know where you live you bitch and if you don't quit I'm coming for you " I crumbled the note and threw it in the trash .
As I opened my door a truck came speeding past me and a bucket of ice water splashed on me . " GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM " someone shouted from the speeding truck .
I stared off into space as my clothes were dripping wet from the cold water . I took a long breath as I look into the now cloudy sky
" god , what did I do to deserve this huh? , was I not good enough? " I sighed and stepped into my car and drove off heading home . As I'm driving thousands of thoughts swam in my head .
" your not good enough, you'll never be good enough "
, " your ugly and always will be "
, " no matter how hard you try it wouldn't amount to nothing "
. I shook my head trying to discard these thoughts from my head and pulled to my drive way .
I sat in the car not wanting to go in the toxic home I live in but I get out anyways.
I walk into the dark house and up to my room and everything is trashed , I sat down on the floor and looked around." Clean this dirty ass room up or your gonna be out on the fucking street" my mother spat.
" I don't know why I didn't leave yo good for nothing ass" she mumbled as she walked away.
Tired from the long day I had, I decided to just take a shower and put on some comfy clothes and go to my special spot.
~TIME SKIP~
As I stood on the cliff , and looked out on the ocean and I thought of how beautiful everything seemed from down there .So peaceful and calm
The longer I stood there the more unbearable my thoughts became .
I reached up to touch my cheek and my hand was wet ..........................
Was I crying? I chuckled bitterly " I haven't cried in months so this must be bad " I looked back at the ocean and thought of how peaceful everything was .Peace, is what I crave the most ,Peace was all I ever wanted . The ocean is the thing that brings me the most peace .
I would always swim to get on mind off of everything, staying in the water for hours at a time .
As I stared back at the ocean contemplating is this the right Choice. " do I really wanna commit subside?" I said out loud.
All of a sudden a rude awakening hit me NOBODY CARE ENOUGH TO STOP ME. That was the last push I needed. I walked to the edge of the cliff and looked over my shoulder to the world behind me , I laughed bitterly one last time and wiped my tears . I turned backwards and fell, plummeting to my death. Falling....................Falling.........................falling and SPLASH. Drowning.
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