Thanks For Nothing

The Monster Inside Is Coming Out

I'm scared. I don't know what to do, I can't breathe. I can't see. I'm losing my mind, and it's going to show soon. I don't want to hurt anyone so i hurt myself. I can never let my girl friend know this side of me. I hope it's just another mood swing. I dont wanna go back to that hospital, i'd go crazy. I'm scared, I'm going insane and no one can know. I'm holding all these emotions in so i can be strong for the people I care about. These emotions and feelings are going to be the death of me. I'm either gonna get myself killed or kill myself. I-I need some release and i can't fight anymore. I JUST CANT I'LL DIE IF I TRY. but I'd rather die trying then not try at all. I'm so fucking confused right now, am I crazy?!, am i insane?!, what is wrong with me GOD. WHY AM I EVEN HERE WHATS MY PURPOSE FOR LIVING CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME BECAUSE I DONT KNOW. I DONT KNOW WHO I EVEN AM ANYMORE. INSANITY, BLOOD, MURDER, RAPE, A BROKEN HEART, AND A SHATTERED SOUL. THATS ALL YOU FUCKING SEE IN MY EYES. I WANNA GIVE UP, BUT I DONT. IM SO FUCKING TIRED IM DONE, I DONT CARE ANYMORE. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. i'm done.