I've been gone, haven't I? It wasn't on purpose, I promise. 2023...2023 ROCKED me. Aye! It did ROCK me! Financially, academically, emotionally, mentally -- Spiritually?? Can I just say S P I R I T U A L L Y as well??? I -- I have no words, literally. I have lost so much and got into my head equally as much. I fell in love with writing not for the recognition but rather to read books I haven't come across yet. I write because I'm tired of cringing when a book becomes predictable or cliches appear so I always want to challenge that. However, this year I was so much in my head that it felt as though everything was throwing HANDS, including a lot of self-doubt around my writing. I got sick, school became a wow and I am currently undergoing a gruelling journey that sometimes feels as though I am left to fend for myself ALL the time. Not everything has been bad though. I don't know if I can cite my prefrontal cortex being at an 89% download level but recently, I've just been doing, get me? Doing. Planning is amazing and all but sometimes planning is comfortable, leading us to plan even more and eventually be consumed by the mental picture of what we want to do. I want minimal planning and extensive execution. I have such amazing plans that didn't get to materialize but just because the year is over doesn't mean my life is over haha. Also, I want to stop talking so much and falling in love with the idea as opposed to executing it. . I really went ghost for months lmao and I apologize immensely. I am so happy that you have stuck with me thus far. I love you all, thank you for being the fire underneath my butt in realizing a lot.