At some point in my life
I used to wish that I could disappear from this world
The whole world seemed so dark
I cried every night
Will my mind feel at ease
If I just disappeared
I was so afraid
Of everyone's eyes on me
During those beautifully beautiful days
I was in pain
I hated myself
For not being able to receive love
The saying that time is medicine
Was really true for me
As the days went by
I really did get better
But sometimes when I'm too happy
I'm afraid I'll be in pain again
I'm afraid that someone
Will take away my happiness
Those beautifully beautiful memories
Were so painful
I hurt to the point where I could hurt no more
But the pain wouldn't go away
My friends all these people
They're only looking at me
This is not how I really am
But I keep getting further away
But still maybe I could be
A bright light
In this world
Maybe after all of that pain
I could shine a light
Even if it's short
So I couldn't give up
The me that couldn't fall asleep peacefully for a single night
Because if I keep trying to stand up like this
I might be able to find myself
Following
