Akumu Akuma (seperatly means Nightmare Demon)

Hi I am Akuma! Well thats what everyone calls me anyway. That or C, maybe Kat or Ketsueki. I am a female and I don't talk a lot, and don't have many people I consider a friend. I live in the US in a small town. I know Japanese, and I only watch two anime. I am a descriptive author and try to be as grammatically correct as possible, but you know, humans will be humans and we all have flaws and mistakes. I usually don't associate with people. I have extreme anxiety and multiple fears; failing, big crowds of people or people in general, spiders, closterphobia, glossophobia and fear of heights. I can't stand it when people claim they know all about you when you don't even really know yourself. I hate my body so I get really happy if someone says I'm pretty. I don't like being in a classroom with other people, but the people in my chorus class make me feel happy and relaxed. I'm usually on guard or paranoid, and that doesn't help my anxiety much. I get used to it but there are days that I will end up breaking down into a panic attack which doesn't happen often but often enough to make me fearful of having one in public. Usually I end up in a corner silently crying, and since I see crying as a weakness it gets to me. So yeah. That's pretty much all about me...