A prequel oneshot to We love you (so please don't go) where Essie wakes up to see the diary of her great-aunt on her nightstand. This is set both in 20th century Russia (albeit with probably a lot of discrepancies) and a couple months before the other fics in this series. You'll understand once u read this:) This is inspired by a oneshot by Gojifan1962 on ao3, so shoutout to him. A/N: I own nothing except for Essie, Alyona, and the storyline. Everything else belongs to their respective owners. If you're interested, this work is part of a series. Here's a link to the other fics of this series: https://www.wattpad.com/list/1418716607-we-love-you-so-please-dont-go