The story follows Lana's healing journey of finding her real self through big events of life. she starts to learn that she needed to be satisfied with herself before trying to satisfy anyone else and how to really enjoy life doing little things and making small achievements that make her proud. TW: the story carries deep and raw emotions, especially very low self-esteem and thoughts about self-harm. slight self -harm is present besides depression and mood swings. I am writing this because I need to write it down. It's somehow based on different true stories. I wanted to share. Thank you in advance if you took time to read this.