A carterXmatt Fic. Boyxboy. Carter Reynolds and Matt Espinosa Numbness. That’s all matt could feel. He knew this would happen eventually. He refused to admit it, but he knew. He knew that one day, carter wouldn’t need him like he needed carter. He knew that the countless days spent laughing until they couldn't breathe were over. He knew that he would not be the one carter would drag along at 2 am for a walk at night. He knew. He just wasn't ready.