The two got ready for their little walk. It was cold outside but there wasn't going to be snow until later so they put on a jacket and some booties and left the house for a bit.
The two walked around the neighborhood talking about their childhood and other things. But the thing was, was that JJ already knew everything Emily told her, but it was still nice that Emily opened up to her because she knew that she was not the kind of person who would do that with someone she barely knew.
As JJ led the way, she unconsciously walked them in into a small wooded area where the two of them use to go. They sat on a bench and sipped their coffee as they just watched the cars go by through the trees. JJ's hands were freezing because she forgot her gloves and Emily could see that so she gave JJ hers.
"Won't you get cold too?"
"If anything I'll stick them in my pockets. You're still sick so I think you need them more."
They sat there for a little while and Emily looked all around curious about this spot. Her eyes wandered around until they stopped on particular tree. She got up and slowly walked over to see what was carved into it.
"Hey JJ, look at this. Isn't it cute?" She said as she traced over it with her finger.
The carving wasn't something that would usually be carved on a tree. Usually it's initials or a heart but this was two little birds kissing.
"Yeah, you like it?"
"Did you do that? It's really good. What does it mean?"
"Oh it's nothing, just something I did when I came here with a friend," JJ lied.
"Ohh, a friend. What's he like?" Emily said bumping JJ's shoulders.
JJ's heart sunk when she asked that because it wasn't a he, it was Emily and JJ thought that bringing her here would've help but it didn't. It just tore up JJ's heart. But she continued with the lie.
"Oh he's tall and dirty blonde with blue eyes," She describe that last guy she was on a date with. Will.
"Tell me more!" Emily said eagerly.
JJ looked at her and her stomach dropped because Emily looked so into the idea of JJ and Will. It made her sick, literally. Suddenly her eyes opened wide as she turned around and felt her breakfast coming back up.
JJ's POV:
As suspended myself on my knees, I could feel everything coming up. I didn't think I had anything to come up I was seriously wrong. I heard Emily getting off her side of the bench and running over to me. But she didn't freak out. She knew exactly what to do, like she had done it before... She climbed up and sat on the table with her legs on either side of me as she rubbed my back. She waited until I was done then took her soft hand and leaned it against my forehead. She gently pulled me back into her while she kept he other hand on my back to calm me down.
"We should go back inside, you're freezing."
"In a minute, please. Can we stay for another minute?" I felt her looking down at me but she let us stay a little while longer.
She pulled me closer to her body to keep me warm. And as we sat there, she rest her head on mine and I could feel her pressing kissed into my hair as her hand ran up and down my back. I just wanted to stay here forever. In this moment, I didn't care that she didn't remember because her body remembered me. Subconsciously she knew exactly what to do, the way to calm down, the way to make me laugh. She knew, even if she didn't know. These past two days I could see it in her eyes and everything that she did, the part of her that was, is my girlfriend... I don't even know what to call her, my ex girlfriend? Whatever it is I should call her, my first love, I could see that she was still there. I need her to come back to me. It's killing me from the inside, it really is.
After a few minutes of sitting, JJ finally got up and helped Emily off today the table. As they began to walk back home, the wind picked up and JJ's jacket was a a lot thinner than Emily's so she opened hers up and wrapped it around her as they walked back. Then it started snowing and Emily's face lit up. JJ laughed knowing how much Emily loved any type weather that wasn't the sun. She watched Emily's head lift up a bit feeling the snow gently hit her face.
They finally made it back home but Emily wanted to stay outside in the snow so JJ went in. 10 minutes later, JJ came back out with two mugs of hot chocolate and a blanket. She saw Emily sitting on the porch with her hand out catching snowflakes. She put the mugs on the banister and draped the blanket around Emily.
"Hey," JJ said quietly as she sat down under the blanket with Emily.
"What are you doing out here again? You need to rest..."
"I am resting," she said reaching up to grab the mugs.
"I mean in the house, where it's warm and you won't get more sick."
"But I'm warm now. And plus, I don't get to do this all time."
"Fine we can stay here until the hot chocolate isn't hot anymore then you're going inside for a bath."
"Fine. Deal."
Emily could feel JJ shaking under there so she rubbed her hands up and down her thighs to warm her up. JJ playfully nudged Emily as they sat there they just laughed.
They finished their drinks and Emily got up pulling JJ with her.
"Let's go, come on Jayje."
"JJ hopped up and ran inside with Emily and straight into the kitchen they went. They set their mugs on the counter and JJ went up to go take a shower.
Emily came up after washing the mugs and went upstairs to wait for JJ and as she walked through halls, she could hear her singing in the shower. Curious, she went closer to leaned her ear towards the wall. At first Emily didn't recognized the song but she stood there pressed against the door, she heard a song that only she knew. She was confused at first but then she started humming along. Then out of nowhere JJ calls out for Emily.
"Em?"
Emily backed away from the door then answered because she didn't want it to seem like she was just standing right at the door waiting for her or listening in.
"Yeah JJ, what is it?"
"I forgot to grab a towel, can you get please. It's hanging on the closet door," she yelled out.
"Alright hold on, give me one second," she quickly went into her room to grab it.
JJ heard a knock on the door but she was dripping wet so she couldn't step out of the shower.
"You can come in Em, I can't get out," she told her.
Emily walked in as if JJ had clothes on but right when she turned to look at JJ her head turned away so quick that her neck could've snapped.
"It's alright, you're good Emily. It's not like you've never seen me before," and like that JJ realized what she just said. Her hand slapped her mouth so hard as she stood there laughing.
"I'm kidding, Emily it's a joke," Jj tried to save herself.
"Right! Of course... Well I'll meet you in your room," Emily walked with her head still looking down at the floor.
JJ came in to see Emily laying on her bed with her eyes shut. She quickly got dressed in the closet and grabbed a towel, a new t-shirt and a pair of underwear, even though she didn't know it was hers, and walked over to the bed. She threw the clothes on the bed and jumped on Emily, sitting on her stomach.
"Hey JJ, your wet hair is dripping all over me..." She said with her eyes still closed.
"It's a good thing I just got for you a change of clothes. The bikini new, I just bought them but you can have them," She said giving her the shirt and bottoms.
"No, you don't have to do that," Emily said opening her eyes to look at JJ.
"Emily, you've been here for two day, go shower then go change, it's fine," JJ said putting the shirt on Emily's chest.
"Thank you," Emily smiled looking into JJ's baby blue eyes.
JJ hopped off Emily so she could go shower and change and she waited for her outside the bathroom the whole time, but Emily didn't know that.
When Emily came out she looked down to find JJ looking up at her.
"Hey?"
"Hi," JJ smiled.
"Did you wait for me on the floor this entire time?"
"No." JJ stared right into her eyes. Emily looked down at her giving her that "yea right" look and JJ looked away quickly to keep form laughing.
"Mmhm, that's what I thought."
"Ok fine, whatever. Can we go make food now? I'm starving," JJ said reaching for Emily's hand.
Emily pulled her right up and wrapped her arm around her neck as they walked down the stairs.
"So, what are you feeling? Take out or actually make food?"
"Mm, We could always make pasta, since Rossi likes to give us free lessons anyways," JJ laughed.
"But do you actually remember anything he said?" Emily asked.
"Not really no, but we can wing it..."
"Rossi wouldn't be proud now would he?"
"But is he here?"
The two jokingly looked around the house and smirked as soon as their eyes met.
"You do the pasta, I'll do the sauce," JJ said running to the fridge.
While they waited for the pasta to finish, they sat on the couch and JJ wanted to watch Young and Hungry so they did. They laid on the couch a lot closer than earlier. Maybe like 50 times closer than they did. JJ rested her head on Emily's shoulder and threw her legs on the coffee table. Emily put her head on JJ's and put her legs between hers. They draped the blanket over them and they cuddled while they waited. JJ started doing some risky things but she missed it so she didn't care. And it seemed like Emily didn't either. She enjoyed. After the show was over, Emily turned off the TV and started picking at her nails as she thought of ways to bring up the song from earlier.
"Jayje, I have a question."
"Go ahead Em, I'm listening."
"So when I was coming upstairs while you were in the bathroom, I heard you singing. And no I wasn't being a creep and standing there, wait actually I kinda was but besides the point..."
"Emily, are you going to ask the question anytime soon, we might burn the pasta," JJ giggled.
"JJ, wai- just give me a second jeez," Emily laughed.
"I'm waiting..." JJ made the clock sounds mocking Emily.
"Maybe I don't want to anymore." Emily pouted.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry, go on I'll stop," JJ nudged her.
"Where'd you hear that song?"
JJ's eyes wandered as she tried to think of an excuse but she couldn't. So she told the truth, but only half.
"Umm, I heard you sing it."
"You did? When?"
"Oh you know, a little while back, before you know..."
"But I only sing that song when I'm sad or stressed, and I never sing it in front of people."
"Well, you did to me... when I- you know what, never mind," JJ panicked. She jumped off the couch and went to check on the pasta.
"JJ, you can't expect me to not be curious after you just said that. When did I sing this to you? What happened?"
"I- Emily I can't tell you," Jj said stirring the pot trying to avoid eye contact.
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want to rush you. Do you know how hard I have been trying to not tell you everything? So hard! But because I love you, I can't because that could ruin any chance of me getting you back!"
"JJ?" Emily said in a soft tone.
But before she could say anything else, the front door flew open and in came Elle and Penelope.