𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐚 (𝐧.) : 𝐚 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐨𝐧𝐞'𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐧, 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐬 𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞.
so this chapter might piss of some people, don't kill me .
+ the song helps the mood tbh.
Enjoy ! getting pissed off
This morning i woke up with so much happiness i felt like i'm high or sm.
they call it love or idk. i smiled to myself remembering last nights events.
i got up from my bed and headed to the bathroom to take a shower, brush my teeth, and wash my face. after i finished all that i wore an all white outfit for school under my robes. i put my hair in a messy bun and went to have breakfast.
i saw Hermione at the Gryffindor table and sat with her.
" good morning 'mione " i said and gave her a hug from behind
" morning Venus" she replied smiling
we ate in comfortable silence until she turned around to look behind her and then turned to me.
" vee, dont turn around just yet, but Pansy is clinging on to Draco and he looks fine with it" she told me
"what ? does he look like he's enjoying it ?" i asked stressed
" dont freak out but he smiled at her and she kissed his cheek" she said slowly
i looked from the corner of my eye and saw everything she was talking about, he looked like he was actually happy with her, he didn't even notice that i entered the hall.
at this same moment i saw Jaxon and cee looking at me with sorrowful looks, was conflicted they didnt even tell him to stop. but why?
in a minute an owl dropped a letter in front of me and i quickly opened it and read the following to Hermione because she knows everything about me so i couldn't care less:
Dear Venus,
the following things you will read may upset you heavily. but i want you to know we tried to stop this from happening. the choice was made by a force stronger than any of us.
The Malfoy's are known for their Slytherin bloodline. it has been going on for generations, so when the Malfoy's leader knew about the contract through using occlumency, he ordered this to be done to continue the Slytherin pureblood line with the Malfoys.
He ordered Draco lucuis Malfoy to have Pansy Parkinson as his mistress so the Slytherin bloodline is assured. they were scared that your kids may not be Slytherin because your a Gryffindor.
I promise you my baby that we tried to stop this from happening. we did our best but they all are stronger than us. than all of us. we hope that you haven't gotten attached with Draco so this wont effect you.
we love you my Venus, we will always be with you.
Love,
your parents who love you dearly.
the letter dropped from my hand. and a silent tears escaped my eyes. Hermione was also crying beside me, she was hugging me from the side. she was the only one who heard what i read.
" Venus, venus look at me please. breath vee " she said but i didnt care
i stood up with so much anger in me. i headed for the Slytherin table, with my eyes white as ice.
" Venus come back we know your in there" jaxon stooped me and tried to calm me down, but i couldn't control this, it was my wolf who was in control,
" you knew didn't you ?" i asked him and cee
" i am sorry we just figured out last night and we couldn't tell you " he said with tears brimming
" how could you ? how could they? you all broke me. every single one of you, from grand pa to this stranger there" i said pointing at draco
" your a liar you know, a filthy lair, you dont deserve love, you dont deserve me for all i care !" i screamed at him
" what your mouth bloodtraitor" pansy said
" am i that easy to let go ?" i said with tears streaming down my face
" am i that easy to replace? so easy that you didnt even put up a fight for me " i said
" i am tired of fighting. i wanna be fought for. " i said
" he was never mine pansy, but losing him broke me" i directed my words towards her
" you wont know what true love is, you can live your fake life. fake happiness, i wont be there for you anymore " i said
" you dont understand vee, i cant do anything about this" he told me
" your a liar Draco malfoy, a liar and a fraud, your heart is as non-existent as your love for me " i said
" thats what happens, you let people in and they destroy you. " i said
" your a weak person rose wood leave us alone." pansy said
at this point i couldnt handle it anymore, all i saw was darkness. all i could do was hear sounds
" she isnt breathing, help me"
" call madam pomfrey"
" get away malfoy"
" she stopped moving"
" shes dying jaxon !!"
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i opened my eyes to darkness, my eyes adjusted to it and realized i'm in the hospital wing.
i started crying really hard.
no body knew how much i cried that day. i felt my eyes losing all the tears they had.
i was officially broken. i couldn't handle anything anymore.
all i saw was darkness again.
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my eyes opened to the sound of people talking. they landed on the one person i would burn to ashes.
" get out. get out or your a dead body. get out if you value your life." i raised my voice at draco
" Venus let me explain. please" he begged
My eyes turned red and i said " i sit here broken because of you, get out if you want to live" i warned him one last time
" get out malfoy right now we dont want to see you around her ." harry screamed at him
draco left.
" Hermione ? where is she" i asked
" i am here vee" i hugged her
" i am broken again, it hurts more this time"
" i cant handle it, i want it to go away, i want to feel numb, "
" please make it go away" i cried
" vee you cant do that, you have to fight it" she said
" your a strong girl. you will go through his and find happiness, you dont need his love. you have our love, were your family " she said
" heyy ! we are her family !" jaxon said
i laughed with tears " you guys i am sorry i got mad at you" i said and hugged jaxon and cee
" all i see in him is a stranger now. " i said
" thank god for your wolf. she saved you again. your heart stopped beating and she covered you in a protection spell on her own command. " cee said
" thats the thing. she is helping me, last time i coudnt even control her, but now i can and she can even help me." i said smiling with a bit of hope
" i am broken." i said
" no your not. your stronger than any of us. " ron said
i smiled at his words
" i dont need him. all i need is you guys" i said
" ok then that settles it ! your coming to the match today !" harry said
" you sound like oliver harry" i said laughing we all laughed it was like a wave of happiness passed by us. it was almost like magic.
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i arrived at my dorm and i got hugs from everyone, they really cared for me. even people i didnt know gave me hugs. it felt like the love i never realized i already had.
i may be broken. but i am healing faster than any normal human.
( her outfit)
it was cold outside so i had to wear something warm, i chose a sweater with boots .
i arrived at the quidditch pitch and by now i forgot everything that happened.
it was Ron's first time playing as keeper so we had to cheer him on since it was versus Slytherin, luna was even wearing a lion costume. Hermione told me that harry gave Ron felix felicis . i laughed hard at that.
the match was going great and we started singing the modified version of 'Weasley is our king', i used my music powers to amplify the song and add tunes to it so it cheered Ron even more
Weasley is our King,
Weasley is our King, He didn't let the Quaffle ,in Weasley is our King.
Weasley can save anything, He never leaves a single ring, That's why Gryffindors all sing:
Weasley is our King.
we had an amazing time, and to our luck We Won ! we cheered Ron and had a party at the common room, we all chanted together
" weasley is our king !"
" weasley! weasley! weasley !"
and as we were chanting, dancing, partying and enjoying our time, Ms. stupid ass Lavender my dorm mate grabbed Ron and shoved her face into his and they started making out.
i was completely shocked. i looked over to Hermione who was looking broken. she ran out of the common room and i followed her.
i found her crying on while sitting on the stairs. i hugged her and sat beside her.
" vee?" she said
" yeah mione?" i answered
" how does it feel when you see Malfoy with Pansy ?" she said
" nothing hurts more than watching him love another girl." i said
" you love him dont you ?" she asked me
" yeah. more than i care to admit, i will always love him. but he broke me"
" you love ron dont you ?" i asked
" yes, i never admitted, not even to myself. and he broke me now too" she answered with tears in her eyes
" well were two broken bestfriends" we laughed at this
we heard giggling and foot steps until lavender and Ron appeared in front of us holding hands
"oops looks like this room is taken" lavender giggled
" whats with the birds" ron asked
" uppongno" hemione jinxed ron by using the birds that were flying around her to attack ron.
ron left and she sat beside me crying.
" it feels like this hermione" i told her
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little did i know the person who i still loved was crying in the astronomy tower.
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i chose to go to slughorn's christmas party alone, just to take my mind of off things.
i got ready with Hermione, who stupidly asked Cormac to go with her. poor girl.
she wore a beautiful pink dress and i chose to wear a simple white one. i straightened my hair and she styled hers. we both put on simple make up. however Hermione had to leave before me so i left with Luna and harry.
we where on our way to slughorns office.
" i've never been to this part of the castle at least not awake." luna said
i laughed, and while we were walking i noticed a some one sitting behind the arcs of the hallway.
" you guys go i'm going to walk for a bit" and they nodded and left
i sniffled a tear, and came in front of him.
" hey." i said
he looked up at me shocked and tried to speak but i stopped him
" dont. i just wanted to give you this. i thought it would be a nice addition to your collection" i handed him his Christmas present that i bought months ago.
" i just want you to know that no matter what happens, i will still care for you, even if you've killed me from the inside." i turned around and left to slughorns party.
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the party was over all boring as shit. where was the music? but the drinks were okay, i mean i 'm a sucker for food. the entire time Hermione was hiding from Cormac, harry was sucking up to slughorn, and Venus was wandering around thinking about one thing.
when i think about it, draco wasn't the one that chose this. maybe he too didn't want this. maybe he cares for me and the pansy thing is all an act to please his parents and noseless voldy.
but no. he didn't even care to explain to me until after i figured out. if he really cared or me he wouldn't let me break that way, specially when he knows how much i care for him and what i have been through.
one of the perks of having my wolf is being loyal to the people i love & care about, so no matter what they do to me i will still care about them and breakdown if they got hurt. it also reminds me of the good times i have had with them, thats why i couldn't stay sad and depressed for long, but i feel the pain, i feel broken and vulnerable.
i snapped out of my thoughts when i heard a familiar voice
" get your hands of me you filthy squib"
i went to check out what the commotion was about. turns out Draco tried to crash this party for whatever reason.
we locked eyes for a moment. he looked at me with admiration and love and also regret. my heart fluttered at his sad smile, i mouthed a 'why?' and he shook his head. after that Snape escorted Draco outside, obviously because he had to protect him, just because of the vow. he made sure to look back at me and smile then he turned back to Snape and left. if he didn't really care, why would Draco Malfoy one of the most heartless people look at me like i am the only person in his world?
all he left me doing the entire night was thinking about him, whether i should hate him or forgive him. but when the image of him and pug-face came into my head, i realized i will never have a stable, normal, happy family of my own. maybe its my fate..?
but i have cheated fate, death and pain many times so why not now? i can find love, the same way he can live his own life, i can live mine. but i would never do that to him, i would never break him like he did to me. i'm gonna love him forever. that's just my curse but its fine, maybe its a blessing not a curse, but only time can reveal it.
the night dragged on, till i chose to go back to my dorm. when i got to my bed, i saw an envelope lying on it, and it read:
Dear Venus,
i know you may never read this, or believe what you'll read, but its worth a try, i ve got nothing to lose after i lost you.
you were mine, and in one nightfall, i was a stranger to you, but i dont blame you, you were broken and hurt so many times before, and i had to break you like that.
believe me when i say that if i didnt accept what was asked for me i would be killed, but thats not my issue. my problem is that if i died, you would too. and i cant handle knowing you died because of me, even if i am already dead, you see thats love, its everlasting.
the night you came to our date, that i happened to trick you into coming to, you looked so beautiful like you always do. i mean how did fate send such an amazing, talented, strong, smart and beautiful person to my life ? the answer to that, i will never know.
but one thing i know is that my connection towards you will always be strong. you accepted me and loved me even when i was a broken boy without any choice, you supported me and made sure i smiled even though was tasked to do horrible things.
i really dont deserve you.
but like you said, its my job to protect you, so thats what i am doing.
i will protect you till my last dying breath.
because i love you with every ounce of my being.
and i hope you love me back.
Love always,
Draco.
i started tearing up after i read this. not tears of sadness, but happiness, because i too realized i love Draco as much as he does. and i will fight for my love and protect it.
i picked up a piece of parchment and sent it to Draco via snickers my owl, and it read 14 words:
I Love You Too Ferret.
I Always Will.
we must fight for our love.
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3000 words !
i hope you liked this mixed feeling chapter.
she has a bond with draco- that's why she cant stop loving him. due to her wolf ....
dont come for me !! shes not bipolar.
- byeee