“No they don't little girl”
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Diana July Laurier
The triwizard tournament is a week from now but today it's Hogsmeade day, almost everyone went to the village except for me, I didn't want to go, I just want to stay at my dorm and sleep all day. I wasn't really in a great mood after recent events.
The snow's been falling, covering the whole school, making our dorms colder. I curled myself in my blankets, my eyes facing my bedside table. Clarette went to a date with Nott, Luna was with Neville and Ginny, and so I am left alone. I really had no energy, I haven't been eating, because... Well.. I do think that I'm fat.
Why am I so fucking sensitive? I've never been so sensitive like this before? Why the fuck am I letting Draco Malfoy's words get the best of me? I should be unbothered, but I'm not. I am totally bothered, I kept looking at myself last night in the mirror.
I can't help but think that, maybe I do look fat and maybe I do resemble Trelawney. I sighed then shut my eyes. I tried to drift to sleep until....
“Alohomora”
I quickly jolted my head and sat right up, the door flew open and came in—Draco fucking Malfoy. Again.
He slammed the door shut and leaned his back against it, looking at me with a dangerous smirk plastered in his face.
I furrowed my eyebrows, eyes shooting daggers at him. “What the fuck are you doing here?” I snarled, gripping my blankets tighter.
He lick his lips then run a hand through his hair, then he looked around my room and when he noticed that I was alone, he pushed himself off the door. “Be quiet, Laurier” he rose an eyebrow.
I scoff, I took the blankets off then stood from my bed “You're not allowed here! Get out!” I commanded. My nose flaring out of anger.
He rolled his eyes then his mouth parted, swiping his tongue across his upper teeth then he smirk. “I said be quiet” he said, but this time more softly. However, his voice was still authoritive and full of demand.
I raised an eyebrow at him “I won't stay quiet unless you get your filthy feet out of my dorm”
He took a step closer, swishing his wans around his fingers, I suddenly grew anxious, scared. My heart beater fast, every time he comes close to me I can't help but feel, small, like he was going to dominate me, however I wasn't going to allow that.
He eyed me up and down then took another step closer, and I back away. “Everyone is in Hogsmeade” he stated.
With each step, I back away. His pace was slow but dangerous, his eyes shows a different kind of darkness that I couldn't comprehend what it was. “Why is a pretty girl like you alone in the dorms?”
I crossed my arms over my chest “Pretty girl? You called me a fattie and now you're calling me pretty? Where's Astoria? Did she mend up with Pucey? Is that why you're here? Because you can't have her again?”
I guess I hit a spot because now, Malfoy advance towards me and I quickly back away until my arse bumped into the bedside table. I gasp as I was sandwiched between Malfoy and the small desk. I uncross my arm, gripping the edge of the table as I feel Malfoy's hard torso on my body. My breath hitched.
He looked down on me, and I quickly tore my eyes from his intense gaze, he placed his hands on both the edge of the desk, pinning me. I tried as hard as I can to distance my face from his, but I couldn't back up any further. “Why do you always talk about Astoria you fucking virgin?”
His face is inches away from mine that I can almost smell his minty breath, intoxicating my mind, making me weak to the knees. I gulp, dominance screamed through him and I can't help but feel a little bit... Intimidated.
In a faint voice I replied “Because I know you like her and you can't have her”
The smirk, the sly dangerous evil smirk crept up his lips. He leaned in on my ear, lips brushing it lightly, sending shivers down my spine. “Yeah but I can have you, Laurier”
I stood my ground, I wasn't going to let him treat me like this. “You wish Malfoy, you will never have me” I snarled.
He pulled away and I gasped when he lifted me up and sat me right on top of the small desk, with him on the edge of it in between my legs and his arms on either side of my body. I had my arms placed on his shoulder, shock that he did that.
I collected all rational thoughts and gritted my teeth “We're enemies Malfoy, incase you forgot”
Then he stared directly at my eyes, the greyness of his eyes became even more prominent, over shadowing the tinge of blue, I didn't know that could happen.
“You know what people say, keep your friends close, but keep your enemy closer, And I'm doing just that” And with that he crashed his lips against mine.
I need to push him away, I need to put a stop to this but it isn't what I want. I need to push him away but I don't want to push him away. His tantalizing lips passionately move against mine and his hair tickled my forehead. I found myself going weak, I was melting, The Draco Malfoy is kissing me.
And maybe I was lying to myself, maybe I still do like him.
I found myself clinging my arms around his neck, deepening the kiss. Until I realize what I was doing, I shouldn't allow him to do this, he was only using me, and I know he will go back to his rude and disrespectful self after this, and so I pulled away, I remove my arms from around his neck and draw my face from his.
He stared at me with frustration. We both panted, our chests rising up and down from the intense kiss. I look down on my lap and shut my eyes briefly, regretting my decisions. God I shouldn't have let it happen.
“I know you want me Laurier” he whispered, I lifted my head up and glare at him.
With every anger I seethed through gritted teeth “Fuck you Malfoy”
“Gladly, Ravenclaw” He smirked.
He was about to kiss me again, he dived down but I placed my hands on his chest pushing him away, stopping him from closing the distance between our faces although he barely budge which is embarrassing.
He just took my first kiss, my ENEMY took my first kiss, The guy whom I should loathed took my first kiss however, Why am I feeling butterflies in my stomach? I don't understand myself.
Before he could even protest, I asked “What are you doing Malfoy? One day ago you just let one of your cronies to attack me and now you're here kissing me!”
He shake his head lightly then yank my hands from his chest, he was still in between my legs when suddenly he gripped my thighs. “I never told them to do that, I ordered them to pull you inside the room and make you sit on your chair before Snape arrives but I don't know why Goyle did that”
What?
So he didn't order them to attack me?
Wait. What?
My brows knitted at him, his hands went higher on my thighs so I yanked them away and pointed my finger at him “Don't you dare touch me”
He smirk so widely then lick his lips “We both know you crave for me, Laurier you pathetic virgin”
“Go and fuck Astoria Malfoy, I'm guessing your sluts became tired of you, where's Parkinson? There's a lot of girls who would drop on their knees to suck your dick so leave me alone!” I yelled.
His large veiny hand found my throat, his eyes flaring with anger with a mix of lust. “Okay, fine. I don't want to fuck a filthy nerd virgin anyways”
And with that he stormed out of my room, leaving me speechless. I sighed. I just let my first kiss be ruined like that.
I didn't even feel like crying, I was just so down. I stayed sitting in my small desk, and run a hand through my hair. He was really going to shag Astoria after he kiss me.
I thought I wouldn't get hurt but I did. Imagine someone taking your first kiss only to shag another girl after. I mean, it was also my fault, maybe I shouldn't have told him to go and fuck her, God I have so many confusing thoughts.
Look, Diana, Forget this, forget everything, clear your thoughts, go to the Great Hall, eat and then start over. Act like Malfoy doesn't exist and focus on your studies, you can't let him affect you like this. Okay?
And with that I peeled myself from the desk and went to my dresser, I grab a tennis skirt and a high knee sock then I topped it with a pink sweater. I'm a filthy virgin? Fine, I'm a fattie? Fine. I don't care about dress codes it's fucking Hogsmeade day, no one is gonna put me in detention.
I fixed my hair, brushing it straight then I grab my wand and flounced out of my dorms and out of the Ravenclaw chambers..
I quickly made my way to the Great Hall, there weren't many students, just a few hufflepuffs throwing food at one another. I sat on the Ravenclaw row, and it was empty, I guess all of them went to Hogsmeade. I crossed my leg underneath the table. There were many foods in silver trays piled on top, making my mouth drool. I hadn't ate anything since yesterday, because of my insecurities, But I don't give a fuck anymore, I'll eat if I want to.
I took the mug of chocolate cocoa drink then slowly took a sip, the coldness I felt soon withered and my stomach warmed up as I drank the chocolate drink. I took one banana muffin from the silver tray filled with all sorts of baked goods then I took a bite out of it, savoring the taste.
God I love food. As I continued eating silently, I felt a hand on my shoulder, I whirled my head around only to see Axel.
Oh, he's here?
“Diana” he beamed, he was wearing grey sweatpants and a black hoodie. I placed my banana muffin down at my plate then smiled at him.
“I thought you went to Hogsmeade” I said cheerily, he sat down next to me then took a chocolate muffin from the silver tray I took the banana muffin.
He stared at me as he eats his muffin then shook his head “Hogmeade trips are not my thing, unless I've got a girl to go with, however, I don't”
I pressed my lips in a thin line then nod my head, understanding what he said. “Then find yourself a girlfriend, Axel. Surely it won't be that hard, you're pretty popular among girls”
He laughed lightly and I continued “I can help you with that, that's the least I could do after you save me from Malfoy last time”
He chuckled lowly then bit his lip, eyes not leaving mine. “You sure you can help me?” he queried.
I finished my cocoa drink then grinned, reaching ear to ear. “Of course, anything”
His brows rose at my statement, he lick his lips then smiled widely “Anything?”
I nodded my head to reassured him.
“Would you—” he briefly stopped, I can see hesitation in his eyes, as if he's having a battle in his mind.
“Would you say yes if I ask you out to be my girlfriend?”
What?
I stared at him, looking for any signs of mockingness however, his expression was serious, he was anticipating for my answer, I didn't know what to say. I was speechless, I always had a hunch that Axel like me however, I set aside those thoughts because why would he? I'm unattractive.
“Axel, don't kid around” I stated, but it came out more as a leer.
He took his hand then tucked in a few strands of my hair behind my ear, afterwards he caressed my cheek with his thumb. “I wasn't”
I was lost in his eyes, my heart raced fast that I thought it was going out of my chest, his big brown eyes twinkled, showing the warmth of everlasting heart, his gaze was piercing through my soul.
The Great Hall suddenly feel hot instead of cold.
“Axel I—”
“Finally someone finds you alluring Laurier!” A voice errupted behind our back.
We both turn our heads around and I saw Malfoy, with an arm around Astoria's waist. He had an amuse expression on his face and I was starting to get annoyed.
“Aw look how cute Draco, he was asking her out” Astoria femininely sneered and I was so near to lunging towards her however, I had way more self-control than that.
“Greengrass why don't you study some basic enchantments and maybe it'll help broaden your pea size brain?” I snap at her and she gasp.
I heard Axel let out a suppressed laugh next to me, and I quickly shot Astoria a Smirk.
“Shut up Virgin” Malfoy retorted, sending me looks of daggers.
I eyed him up and down then scoffed “Who said I was a Virgin?” I lied.
Astoria let out a chortle “Laurier everyone in the whole damn school knows you're a virgin, All you Ravenclaws are waiting until marriage” then she laughed.
“Really?” I queried softly then smirked.
I whip my head to Axel and a wave of confidenand washed through me, I bit my lip then brushed it against Axel's gently, afterwards I mumbled “They don't know babe”
Axel got the hint that I was acting out and so his shock expression shifted into a flirty one, he took the opportunity to sneak his hand behind my neck and pulled me for a complete kiss that lasted seconds then he pulled away “No they don't, little girl” Axel mumbled against my lips in a low husky voice.
I felt my cheeks turning hot however, Axel looked so relax. He released his hand from the back of my neck and I turned around to see Astoria with her mouth wide open and Malfoy—his eyes were dark, showing hues of black that looked dead scary. His arm is no longer around Astoria's waist but rather he was clenching his fists so tightly that his knuckles became white.
“Oh you're still there?” I feign innocence, I was a bit cowering however I masked it. I put on a façade that I wasn't slightly intimidated by the look on Malfoy's face.
“No way you're not a virgin!” Astoria loudly exclaimed.
I rolled my eyes. God why does my virginity matters so much.
“Laurier” I heard Malfoy called me, anger drip down his voice and I instantly felt shivers run down my spine. I uncrossed my legs from the discomfort I felt.
“I must be mistaken” he smirked devilishly, his grey eyes bore into mine.
“You weren't a virgin? So you must be a pathetic fucking slut” he spat.
My faint smile dissipated, shifted into a frown. I want nothing but to bash his head onto the fucking table and tell him he was the slut. However, I remained silent.
“Malfoy shut your mouth!” Axel condemned, glaring at the blonde boy.
Malfoy ignored him, his eyes never leaving mine. He was mad, and I don't know why he's so mad. God he's so bipolar.
“You fucking slut Is that why you wear mini tennis skirts like that? Were you desperate for it?” He jeered, and Astoria crossed her arms sending me a sarcastic smile.
I completely turned around, not just my head but my entire body then showed my tennis skirt, lifting it even higher up to my thighs “Oh these?” I asked.
I saw him silently suck in a breath as he looks down on my legs.
“I wore it for me and myself only” I stated. Then rose my eyebrows at him. “And if men found it distracting, then it's their fucking problem”
“No” Malfoy seethed through gritted teeth. “You're just desperate” he insisted.
I raised my middle finger up, showing it to him. “Suck my dick” I spat.
His eyes widened at my words and his breathing became unsteady, I watch him as anger overshadowed his eyes.
And with that, I held Axel's hand and pulled him to stand up. We pushed past Malfoy and Astoria and the moment we were out of sight, I let out a huge sigh of relief. “God that was great!” I beamed
When my eyes met Axel's, he wasn't laughing nor smiling instead he was just staring at me with longing. My smile withered, I stared back at him.
He took a step closer and another, until there were no space left for Merlin, he placed a hand on my waist while the other one tuck my hair from behind my ear, he watch me closely as I stare at with confusion.
“Would you say yes?” He continued the question, and I didn't know what to answer, because I like Draco fucking Malfoy.
Which is bloody stupid.
“A yes is all it needs for you to make me happy, Diana” he spoke so soft and lowly, My mouth parted open in shock.
I don't want to lead him on, I don't want to hurt him and so I confessed “Axel, I like Draco Malfoy”
He gulped.
He shut his eyes.
I could tell he was disappointed.
I've been disappointing everyone lately.
But he smiled “I understand, but—” he trailed off.
He lick his lips and tension grew between us, not sexual tension but rather anxiety “I will always be here if you need someone to... you know, act like we did earlier”
I giggled. He wasn't mad. He was understanding. Why don't I like him? He's literally the most respectful man in this planet.
“Of course, Axel”
“Can I kiss you one more time?” Hesitantly he asked.
I nodded my head and soon enough, I felt his lips against mine. It wasn't agressive or rough, it was soft, gentle, before we could progress any further, he pulled away. He knows his boundaries.
“God Laurier, you're such a heart breaker”