i see a puff of cigarette smoke
let me absorb it in my lungs
stab your dagger through the mirror
you can't trust my bitten tongues
sit in the shatters of what was
let the glass cut your knees
i can't ignore the past, it made me
we can't hold onto fallen leaves
you ask me why i'm afraid
i don't expect you to understand
because for you, i removed my mask
the one i painted in wonderland
but without the rose-gold cheeks
i'm now faced with someone real
and i've never seen her in my life
i don't know what or how to feel
and now that i lost my precious crown
i'm left without a place to start
because as soon as i see her in the mirror
i fight the urge to tear her apart