"Hi Grade 12-ABM. I'm Mr. Tolentino, I will be your Philosophy teacher this semester. I hope we can get along greatly" a man in early thirties introduced himself
We all respond with a big smile on our faces. Isang buwan nalang pala ang itatagal ko dito sa school. Parang kailan lang ay malditang Grade 7 pa ako na walang ibang ginawa kundi magtaray sa mga taong di nya nagugustuhan.
I looked around and observed the whole school through the window. Ang malawak na soccer field, ang maliit na pasilyo at ang covered court na minsan kong ginawang hintayan tuwing hapon.
The wind is gently caressing my cheeks as if it's tying to vibe with the drama in my mind. I breathed in and just focus on the class.
"Graduate na pala tayo next year ano?" Si Lycy na kaparehas ko rin pala ang iniisip
"Tsk, kakasimula palang natin sa second semester girl" balik naman ni Rox
"E bakit? Masama bang maisip agad ang graduation? Panira ka ng mood"
Inilingan ko nalang sila dahil sa pag gigirian. It's amazing how these two manage to build up their friendship that was once lost. Bihira ang mga magkakaibigan na nagkakabati pa, madalas mas pinipili nalang na itapon ang pinagsamahan kesa sa buuin pa. And these two have an amazing heart, marunong silang magpatawad at magpakumbaba.
"Jowa mo na ba yung si Ty?" Tanong ni Lycy
"Medyo" nakangising balik naman ni Rox itinaas pa ang kilay ng dalawang beses
Lycy rolled her eyes and slap Rox's arm in respond. Mas nagpalakas sa pagtawa ni Rox ang paghampas sa kanya ni Lycy.
"Ano nga? Ang gwapo no'n no. Feel ko di ka non type, babae ang gusto no'n" nang aasar na bawi ni Lycy na nagpasimangot kay Rox
"Alam mo sana di ka na inire ni Tita Maggy" sarkastikong bwelta ni Rox
Lycy just laughed and giggle. Mukang mas ginanahan pang mang asar ang gaga.
Throughout Mr. Tolentino's class the two of them did nothing but to pissed each other. Nariyang bigla nalang silang naghahampasan ng notebook pag nakatalikod si Sir. Ilang beses rin silang nagmumurahan tapos maya maya ay nagtatawanan na. Mga baliw!
Ako ay di na nakisali dahil paniguradong wala kaming maisasagot mamaya pag nakigulo pa ako.
"Huy gaga ano yang nasa leeg mo?" Pinagsingkitan ni Rox ng mata si Lycy tsaka itnuro ang mapula pulang marka na naroon
Napabaling ako roon at mukang may ideya na ako. Malalim na buntong hininga ang pinakawalan ko at bumalik sa pagsusulat.
Lycy and Rox pissed each other more.
It was already the end of our class and Nathan still not answering my chat if he's going to fetch me.
"Sabay ka na kaya sa'min? Dadaanan naman kami sa Pakil ni Uan" si Lycy na nag aalalang nakatingin sa'kin
The clouds are getting darker, mukang uulan na rin. Umiling na lang ako at itinulak na sya papunta sa sasakyan ni John, she's calling him Uan. Nang makapasok ay magiliw akong kumaway sa kanila. Si John ay tinanguhan nalang ako.
I was left alone. Maalinsangang hangin ang yumakap sa akin, mas lalong pinaramdam na nag iisa ako sa labas paaralan namin.
My phone beeped and I checked it right away. It was Nathan.
Nathan:
Hindi kita masusundo ngayon Nami. I'm sorry baby, I'll make it up with you once our basketball practice is done. Ayaw akong paalisin ni coach e. I love you. Text me when you're home.
I sighed on Nathan's chat. I'm somehow disappointed that he didn't tell it earlier but I understand that he's really busy. He's one of the first five in their team, kaya kailangan talagang puspusan na ang practice nila lalo at huling taon na nya ito sa pagba-basketball.
I called my driver right away, mabuti nalang at nasundo ako bago pa bumuhos ang ulan. I chatted Nathan after it.
"Wala pa pong ibang tao dito Manang?" Tanong ko ng makarating sa bahay, masyado kasi iyong tahimik
"Oo iha. Ang Mommy at Daddy mo ay nasa Manila, pati na rin si Ma'am Fiona. Ang grandma mo ay nasa therapy session nya. Si Blair naman ay nasa eskwelahan pa at nanonood daw ng practice sabi ni Kanor" she explained, Mang Kanor is our driver
"Kain ka na dito" anyaya nya na dinaluhan ko naman agad
It was around six thirty when Manang knocked at my room, naroon na daw si Nathan. Mabilis akong bumaba.
"Akyat na ako, salamat sa pagsabay at pagbuhat nito Prime" rinig kong sabi ni Blair habang pababa ako sa hagdan
Nathan handed her a big box full of papers and some books. Did she just called him Prime?
"Wala 'yon, bibisitahin ko rin naman talaga si Nami" Nathan smiled and noticed me
His smile became wider after it. Ako ay sinuklian rin iyon ng gano'n.
"I missed you" he whispered and hug me, mabuti nalang at mabilis na nakaakyat si Blair kung hindi ay baka nakita nya kami
"I missed you too. Pagod ka?" Humiwalay ako sa kanya pero pinanatili na magkahawak ang aming kamay
"Pagod na pagod, parang kailangan ko ng maraming kiss" He smile playfully " Dito, tsaka dito, tapos dito rin at tsaka dito pa" He's pointing almost every part of his face while grinning
"Ang dami naman ata" tumatawang balik ko tsaka sya hinatak papunta sa couch
"Konti pa 'yon 'no" nagmamaktol nyang sabi tsaka ngumuso
I closed the distance between us and looked at him. Inihawak ko ang dalawang kamay ko sa magkabilang pisngi nya tsaka sya bahagyang iniyuko.
I kissed him at his forehead. Then at his cheeks then at the top of his nose. He's just watching me intently while I'm kissing him softly in his face. He cleared his throat then put his self a little away from me.
His jaw clenched and desire suddenly flashed in his eyes. Mabilis din naman iyong nawala matapos syang pumikit ng mariin.
"Damn.." he cussed softly
"Bakit?" I asked
Nag iwas tingin sya tsaka umiling ng bahagya. Parang winawagwag ang ulo dahil sa may kung ano doon.
"Wala, kain tayo?" Nakangiting balik nya
"Manang paakyat nalang po sa terrace ng merienda" pakiusap ko at agad namang umoo si Manang. Nathan followed me after I stand and started walking.
Tumila na pala ang ulan. Pero ganon pa rin ang lamig ng hangin.
"Antagal na rin natin Nami. Sana di ka magsawa sa'kin" he said hopefully as we sat on the chair
Pabilog ang base ng lamesang kahoy na narito, nakapatong doon ang salamin na pabilog rin. The whole village is seen from here but since it's past six pm the streets are somehow dark already. Ang mga poste ay may ilaw na rin.
"Di ka naman nakakasawa..." balik na sagot ko na nagpangiti sa kanya
Ngumuso sya matapos iyon bago tumayo at lumapit sa'kin.
"...sayaw tayo?" Tanong nya tsaka iniabot ang kamay sa akin. Nakangiti ko iyong hinawakan tsaka tumayo
Nathan put my hand on his shoulder before locking me in his arms. Napasinghap ako ng magtama ang katawan namin dahil sa sobrang lapit sa isa't isa.
We're seriously not in a proper form, hindi naman ganito kalapit pag magsasayaw. Tsaka hindi naman nakayakap ang dalawang kamay sa bewang ng babae 'pag nagsasayaw. As far as I know he must hold my other hand so we can properly sway. But I just shrugged and let him stay that way.
"I love you..." He said as our eyes met
Emotions in his eyes are unknown and foreign to me. Parang may kung ano roon na nagpapabilis ng tibok ng puso ko
He plant a small kiss on my forehead and let his lips stay there then he started swaying a little. Sinabayan ko nalang ang paggalaw nya. But instead of staying my hands on his shoulder I wrap it around his nape, reason why we become more close.
Our body is brushing against each other as we move. Ibinaba nya ang ulo sa balikat ko at doon iyon ipinahinga habang marahan kaming umiindayog kasabay ng tibok ng aming mga puso.
I feel so inloved and a little...hot? I don't know but I really feel so vulnerable yet safe. My body is loving the closeness that we have.
"I can't wait for us to grow up and get married. I'm dying to change your surname baby..." he said without putting his head up
His hot breath tickles an unknown part of me as he talk. Damn, why am I feeling this way? That's just a damn breath! I close my eyes firmly and open my mouth to talk.
"Uhm..." Tanging nasabi ko
"Hmmm...?" He replied
I didn't respond. I just let the calmness sooth my system. Sigurado akong ramdam na ramdam nya ang bilis ng pagtibok ng puso ko.
Small drops of rain started pouring but no one even bothered to move. He hugged me tighter.
"Nathan naambon na..."I said in a low voice
He held his head up and stare at my eyes. Bumaba iyon sa labi ko at nanatili doon. I swallowed hard on what he did. He pursed his lips and looked away.
"T-Tara na sa lamesa..." Ibinaba ko ang tingin pati narin ang aking kamay
"I want to kiss you" Nag aalab ang mga matang sambit nya. I suddenly felt dizzy on what he said
Ang isang kamay nya ay tinalunton ang aking braso hanggang sa aking bewang. Napasinghap ako sa pag aakalang bababa pa iyon.
He pulled me closer. Marahan yang inilapit ang mga labi sa akin. I close my eyes and accepted his lips wholeheartedly. His lips are gentle and teasing me for something I don't even know.
He keeps dropping soft kisses then it'll be followed by long and passionate one, tila mas inaakit at tinutukso ako. Nahihilo ako sa kiliting nararamdaman. I wrap my hand on his nape and pulled him closer, I want more....
"Open your mouth baby...." He whispered between our kisses, I obeyed him right away
His tounge claimed every part of my mouth repeatedly. His kisses went from gentle to hungry.
"N-Nathan..." A soft moan escaped my mouth
He cursed and pulled me more to his body. I grip on his shirt, badly want to get a hold on myself but my system didn't let me. My sense of control is ruined and his kisses are the only thing that I can process at this moment.
Nauubusan ako ng hininga sa ginagawa nyang paghalik subalit kahit ano sa sistema ko ay walang gustong itigil ang ginagawa ni Nathan.
I'm very new to kissing but I badly want to return the pleasure to Nathan, so I copied him.
"Shit baby..." He cursed under his breath
Our tounge fight. My body felt so heated and tickled as Nathan started caressing my waist. Idiniin ko ang sarili sa kanya dahilan para muli syang magpakawala ng ilang malalambot na mura.
"Susmaryosep!" Malakas na sigaw ni Manang na nagpabalik sa'kin sa katinuan, naitulak ko bigla si Nathan dahil do'n
Muntik ng matapon ang dalang tray ng pagkain ni Manang, mabuti nalang at naagapan nya.
Nathan cleared his throat and went to Manang to helped her with the tray. I was just watching them, unable to move a single muscle from my body.
Nakakahiya!
I'm sure as hell that my face is either pale or too red. Hindi makatingin sa'kin ng deretso si Manang ng inilagay nya ang pagkain.
"Bababa na ako Nami kumain na kayo dyan..." She paused and finally looked at me "Mga bata pa kayo ha..." She warned then started walking out of the terrace
Nathan eyed me after Manang left. Abot langit ang kaba ko!
"Okay ka lang? Tara kain na tayo" aya nya
Ang isang bahagi ng utak ko ay gusto syang murahin dahil sa sinabi. How can he be that calm?! We just get caught kissing!
Nang hindi ako gumalaw at nanatiling nakatitig sa kanya ay sya na ang lumapit sa'kin at iginiya ako paupo.
"Pag nalaman o kaya pinagalitan ka ng parents mo sabihan mo ako kaagad at ako ang makikipag usap sa kanila" he said with full authority while observing me
I wasn't thinking about Mom or Dad but since he just mentioned my mind started to go crazy. Shit, I'm doomed!
Hinuli nya ang isang kamay ko dahilan para mapabalik ang tingin ko sa kanya.
"Stop worrying, I'm fully accountable on what happened. I love you and I love what we did earlier..." he said sincerely before kissing the back of my hand
I somehow felt relieved at his words.
"Smack lang ba o torrid?" Nangingiting tanong ni Lycy
My face heated on her question. Kanina pa nila ako kinukulit na may ’something’ daw sa'kin ngayong araw, at sa huli ay ikinwento ko nalang sa kanila dahil wala silang planong tigilan ang katatanong sa'kin. Besides, I can't sustain the feeling alone. Kahit papaano ay nakagaan ng pakiramdam ko nang sabihin ko sa kanila ang paghahalikan namin ni Nathan.
"Masarap bang humalik si daddy Nathan? Or average lang? O baka naman lame kasi ikaw ang first kiss nya diba? So malamang first time nya rin 'yon at hindi pa sya masyadong marunong" Rox concluded
The back of my mind badly want to scream how great Nathan in kissing, I'm just stopping myself to avoid them on teasing me more. I just cleared my throat.
"Ano Nami? Sagutin mo naman kami!" Lycy demanded
"Masarap ba?" Rox's eyes are sparkling as he asked
I nod "M-Masarap...." I whispered
Malakas na tili nila ang umalingawngaw sa canteen, napabaling tuloy ang ilang kumakain sa amin. Halos isubsob ko ang sarili sa ginagawa nila.
They are holding each other's hand while jumping in the same rhythm. They are giggling too.
"Stop that!" Saway ko na sinunod naman nila, sabay silang naupo habang nakangiti ng pagkalaki laki
"Welcome to the club! For sure magki-kiss ulit kayo, balitaan mo kami ha" tugon ni Lycy na sinundot pa ang tagiliran ko
"Ha?" I asked.
Kailangan ba mag kiss ulit kami?
"Ano ka ba girl ganon 'yon no. Pag nag kiss na kayo ng isa, panigurado masusundan na 'yon ng ilan pa" Rox informed me, mukang mas excited pa sa susunod kong pakikipaghalikan
"Oo, parang sa sex lang. Sa una lang naman kasi lagi mahirap at nakakakaba pero sa pangalawa, pangatlo, pang apat at sa susunod pa lahat 'yon puro sarap nalang ang mararamdaman mo!" Tumatawang pag sang ayon ni Lycy
Napangiwi ako sa paghahalintulad nya. Kissing is very different compare to sex for sure!
I sip on my tea and continue eating. I badly want to stop eating but I'm sure when I did that, we will go back at our room, then we will just going to spend the remaining minutes in talking about my first kiss. So I'd rather eat.
At the middle of our afternoon class Lycy and Rox keeps giggling like idiots. I raised my brow on them. Accounting ang subject namin pero abala sila sa kung ano sa cellphone nila!
"Stop that, makinig kayo" puna ko sa kanila
They looked at me and smile widely.
"Nag online ka na ba kanina?" Tanong ni Lycy
Umiling ako at ikinunot ang noo.
"Hmmm" she looked at me maliciously
"Look!" Nagpipigil ng tili na iniharap ni Rox sa akin ang kanyang cellphone
It was Nathan's post.
alam kong sa pagkakataong 'to magiging iba na ang pakiramdam ko sa t'wing makakikita ng mga tubig na pumapatak mula sa langit.
Ang litrato na kalakip ng caption na iyon ay litrato mula sa bintana nya sa kanyang kwarto habang pumapatak ang ulan. Maganda ang pagkakakuha niyon, it was a little grainy. Mukang inedit pa talaga nya or it's just a filter?
I rolled my eyes on Lycy and Rox to stopped myself from smiling.
"Gaga eto pa!" Binawi ni Rox ang cellphone nya tsaka nag scroll sa kung ano
"Itinag ka pa talaga, grabe! Mahal na mahal ka talaga ano?" Inihrap nya sakin iyon
It was a picture of his wall clock at 2:43 am. Iyon ang tanging makikita dahil pula ang kulay ng ilaw noon idagdag pa ang madilim na paligid, mukang patay ang mga ilaw. Ang pulang ilaw ng numero sa orasan ay buhay na buhay. It was already late, at bakit gising pa sya? Back of my mind asked.
I read the caption instead.
Cold night, heavy mind
But everything just feels so right
@_namiii I love you, goodnight.
I almost laughed after reading his caption. At talagang magkaka rhyme pa ha! Nagmuka tuloy tula ampotek.
Damn Nathan.
Akala ko ang mga babae lang ang sentimental sa unang halik at lahat ng una. Pero sa kanya rin pala. Bumaling ako sa bintana at doon pinakawalan ang nagtatagong ngiti.
My heart dwell in happiness after realising it. I never thought Nathan will value our first kiss that much, akala ko ay ako lang ang magpapahalaga doon. Pero maging sya pala ay nahirapan rin makatulog ng gabing iyon, the thought that Nathan was bothered and occupied like me made me smile. Atleast the feeling is mutual. Hindi rin ako halos nakatulog kagabi.
I'm loving him day by day. Sobra sobrang emosyon ang ibinibigay nya sa'kin.
Natapos ang klase na walang ginawa ang dalawa kundi asarin ako. Nagdadalawang isip tuloy ako kung tama ba na sinabi ko pa sa kanila 'yon.
Hindi ulit ako masusundo ni Nathan pero ayos lang naman iyon at naiintindihan ko.
Manang eyed me as I enter our house. Naging hindi tuloy komportable ang paglalakad ko.
"Kain na Iha" she said gently
"Uhm..." I respond
"Wag kang mag alala di ko sinabi sa Mommy o sa Daddy mo" she smiled "Parte iyan ng kabataan iha, naiintindihan ko. Pero wag kayong magpadalos dalos ha, iisipin nyo ang mga ginagawa nyo lagi" payo nya tsaka ako inakay paupo
Niyakap ko ang bewang ni Manang at nagpasalamat. I was too scared that Manang might tell it to my parents, mabuti nalang talaga at parang lola ko na rin si Manang kaya sigurado akong nasa akin ang simpatya nya.
"Kain na" sabi nya matapos iyon
I spent my night in talking with Nathan through call. Hindi sya nakapunta sa bahay dahil sa sobrang hectic ng schedule nya sa pagpa-practice ng basketball. Ang sabi nya ay magde-date nalang daw kami sa Sabado para makabawi sya.