Chapter five:
"Dude just go home already."
"No I'm not going anywhere."
"I can care take care of her."
"Said the one who hates her."
Said the one who hates her." I heard a mimicking voice.
"I'm not going anywhere, even if you're the most annoying person in the world."
"Why???" Just shut up already
"Because she is my friend and I want to make sure she's okay."
"Yeah sure friend."
I opened my eyes, slowly, The light was hurting them."Will both of you shut up, you're giving me a head ache." I said seeing Devin standing by my door and frank standing by the window of my room.
"Alex!" They both exclaimed.
"Ow. Stop yelling." I said feeling my forehead.
"We're not yelling." Devin spoke up.
"Uh okay then." My head pounded.
"Alex, are you fainting again. Or is this something else." Frank asked with a worried expression. He was standing by the window, every so often looking out, like he was waiting for something bad to happen. It hurt e to see him worried or distressed because of me. I don't like it.
"Again?" Devin asked.
"long story. And I don't know, the only thing I remember was that the room was spinning, you both saying something and then black." I said with a groggy voice.
"I hope its not like last time." Frank said eying me. I got this feeling that he was on edge considering Devin was in the room considering what happen how ever long ago.
"Frank I'm not like that. Just because the anniversary is coming up, it doesn't mean that I'm like that." I said giving him a pleading look. He doesn't trust me, I know he doesn't.
"What is going on?" Devin asked with a confused look.
I sighed and looked at frank who was shaking his head, trying to tell me 'don't say it.'
"A while back, my mom's death was taking a toll on me and I started to go into the deep end. I would try to do anything to be with her again." I looked up to Devin who looked confused.
"You mean you were suicidal?" Devin asked and I nodded. I looked over to frank who was looking out of the window. It hurt him, because when I was like this it was when we dated. Having a boyfriend won't cure a suicidal person, I can say that from experience.
"So yes I was suicidal. I would starve myself, which made me dizzy alot and I would faint alot. I hurt myself, anything you can think of, I did it because I wanted to be with my mother again." I sighed. "But I'm better now. I am. Frank I swear I'm not like that. Please believe me." I pleaded.
"I-I believe you. I just want you to be safe. I want to be able to protect you, and I can't do that when its you who is threatening, hurting yourself." Frank choked out. I could tell that it was hard for him to admit his feelings.
"I know frank. I just- I promise you won't have to think about that anymore." I said and he nodded.
"If you guys excuse me I need to get some air. Please no fighting." He looked from me to Devin and I nodded to tell him 'we'll be okay'
Frank closed my door and Devin looked at me. I looked at his eyes. They almost looked like he was about to cry. Devin walked over to my bed and sat down.
"if I knew I- if I was there-" Devin looked up.
"I was your best friend, I was suppose to be there for you. It was my job and I let you down. You could of died." Devin looked up at me. "I'm such a horrible friend, with everything." He whispered. "I don't know what I would of done if I heard that you had died." Devin whispered under his breath.
well you wouldn't have known
"Don't do this Devin." I whispered. I hate seeing him vulnerable, because he's not one to be in that state. I could see it in his eyes, That's the downfall of Devin, He gets himself caught in his own feelings.
"No I need to, that day. It was so uncalled for. At least for me. I never wanted that to happen. I wanted you to chase after me like you have been, and then my feelings exploded. I lost you." He said as I remembered what happen.
***
3 years before ...
Devin had been drifting from me and I could see it. I first I thought you know maybe he's busy and is doing something. But then he kept ignoring me. Even in the halls, me and Devin use to be so close and now I don't even know the person I pass by. My heart likes to tell me I still know him. That he's still the same Devin I knew before highschool started. But my brain tries to drill it in my head, to move on to live my life without him because I don't need him. He's a stranger now.
I never know which one to listen to.
I was currently walking to his house. Why? I couldn't tell you myself. It seemed like my feet were walking on their own and I had no say in it.
My heart beated faster as I knocked on his door. He opened it and once he saw my face, his smile turned upside down into a frown.
"oh its just you." Ouch that really hurt.
"wow Devin that really hurt." I said mocking pain by putting my hand on my chest.
"yeah whatever. What can I do for you?" It looked like he was waiting for someone.
"Can I ask what happen between us." I said trying to sound confidant.
"I don't know. Just I think it would be easier if we both stayed away from each other." He said with a cold voice.
"why, we went through preschool, elementary, even middle school together and now you're ready to give up on us freshmen year. Why? Why Devin? Is it because how I look, how my personality is, how I'm not as popular as you. Why? Why?"
"Alex just please." He looked at me. His eyes told me: Stay. Fight. But his face, his cold face told me: Leave me alone I never want to see you again. I was beyond confused.
"But-Why Devin. At least tell me that." I pleaded
"Alex, just leave me alone. I hate you and I hope I never see you again." He said with this expression that made my heart drop.
"if that's what you want then so be it. Goodbye Devin." I said as I walked away.
***
Present day:
"I never meant to say those things, I -" He said as those seven words angered me.
"But you said them." I eyed him.
"Yes I know, I know. You know me. You know how much of a control freak I am, and when something doesn't go my way, my emotions take over. I never got to say this to you. But Alex, Alex I'm sorry. " Devin almost pleaded which was so odd.
"All I had to do was tell you my sob story for you to be pleading?" I said raising my eyebrows.
"No it wasn't like that. I-I've been wanted to tell you this but I could never bring myself to do it. And then I was going to finally say something but then your friend can over." Devin sighed. "please forgive me." Devin looked into my eyes.
"I dunno." I said shrugging. Of course I was gonna forgive him. But is it a crime to mess with him. Devin looked at me. He knew what I was doing. He shook his head and smiled. He got off my bed and went on his knees and took my hands into his.
"Please Alexandra Marie Shields forgive me." He said and I just couldn't help but to laugh. I burst out laughing and I was to the point where I was rolling on my bed.
"Oh. My. God. Yes. I. Forgive. You. I can't. Believe. You. Just did. That. The. Highschool. Bad boy. On. His. Knees. For me." I said while laughing.
"What can I say you turned me into a softie." He said standing up.
"No I didn't. You're always one, you just like to pretend you're a bad boy who has every girl under your spell." I said wiping the tears off my eyes.
"Yeah, yeah. Whatever." He said. "friends?" He said holding his hand out to shake.
"Friends." I said shaking his hand.
I looked up at Devin who had the devils look on him.
Oh no.
He took my hand and brought me into a tight hug. "I missed your hugs." Devin said in the crook of my neck.
"you mean you miss hugging me so that you can secretly smell my hair." I said hugging him back. I was kind of happy that we were back being friends, Okay maybe I was happy a lot, I missed being able to talk to him.
"No. I have no idea what you're talking about." He said as I heard him sniff my hair again. I chuckled as I heard him laughing, I could feel his grin.
"Devin you gotta realize that my ear is right were your nose Is, so I can hear you sniffing my hair." I said as he let go of me.
"Okay fine, I miss hugging you so I can smell your hair that has an addicting smell." He said as I shook my head and walked out of my room.
"you coming?" I asked him.
-------------------------
A/N
Another Update.
Now you guys know what happen with Devin and Alex, okay maybe just a little bit, you guys don't know what devin's side of the story is.
What do you guys think of Frank and Devin.
FRANK AND ALEX
OR
DEVIN AND ALEX?
Comment what you think
Don't forget to vote and comment
Xoxo
Brooke