WARNINGS:
slight mentions of a case, tiny bit of violence, a lot of 'i'm fines' getting thrown around
(A/N): enjoy this slightly long chapter! i did it just for you 👩❤️💋👩
"HE DID WHAT?!" Penelope exclaimed.
"Penelope shh!" You laughed.
"I'm sorry- but- I just- he asked you to be his- his girlfriend!?"
"Yeeess.." You smiled.
"So that means that you did it?"
"Did what..?" You furrowed your brows.
"Confessed your undying love for each other!" She placed her hand to her chest and smiled ear to ear.
You huffed out a laugh. "Not quite.."
"Oh come on, Y/N! It's so obvious he's in love with you. He practically drops to his knees when your around." She exasperated and flailed her hands in the air.
You laughed at how dramatic she was.
"I don't think so P.." You shook your head and looked down.
"You know what." Penelope jumped out of her chair.
"Out." She pointed to the door.
You looked at the door then back at her. She wasn't seriously-
"What? So now your kicking me out." A wide open smile taking over your face.
"Yep. I sure am kicking you out." She pressed her lips together to hide her smile.
"Until you finally realize that Spencer is in love with you, you aren't welcome back." She crossed her arms, an evident smirk on her face.
You stood up and squinted your eyes.
"Your serious-"
"Out!" She shooed you out.
You made it to the door. "Pen-"
"Goodbye, Y/N." She smiled and started to close the door.
"P-"
"I love you, bye." She quickly closed the door and you heard her faintly laugh on the other side of the door.
That asshole.
You huffed and turned around on your heels. You made it to the bullpen, walking to your desk to finish up some of the paperwork that you didn't finish in Penelope's office.
"I feel like I haven't seen you in forever, Y/N." Emily smiled at you.
"I know, I've been in Penelope's cave of technology all day." You laughed, and sat at your desk.
"We were thinking about going to the bar today. You up for it?" Emily asked.
JJ chimed in. "Ohh yes! You have to come, Y/N."
"Ehh.. you guys know-"
"We know, we know. 'It's not your scenery'. But you don't have to drink. Please for me." Emily pouted her lips.
"C'mon hot stuff. Live a little." Morgan smirked.
You playfully rolled your eyes at him. "Sorry 'hot stuff' and Morgan but I'm going to have to pass."
Emily's groaned. "Your no fun."
You shook your head and smiled. Your focus went back to your paperwork.
After about 2 hours you looked up at Spencer's deserted desk. He hadn't called you the first night he was gone. I mean you got it. He was probably busy... That didn't stop the twinge of sadness from entering your chest.
You missed him. More than you cared to admit. It's not like he was going to be gone forever.. so why did you miss him so much. And why did it hurt you when he hadn't called.
You quickly snapped out of your thoughts as you felt a light hand touch your shoulder.
"Everything ok?" Emily asked, her eyebrows slightly raising.
"Yeah, I'm fine." You nodded, mustering up a small smile.
She mirrored your smile. "Alright, well see you tomorrow, Y/N."
"Bye." You smiled and started to organize the paperwork that was scattered around your desk.
You saw Emily walk out of the bullpen, along with JJ. Morgan was almost finished with his paperwork, and you were done.
You walked up to Hotch's office to turn in your paperwork. You said goodbye and he nodded giving you a light smile.
"See you Morgan." You said walking towards the glass doors of the bullpen.
"See ya." He called back.
You got in your car and drove home. The quite music emitting from the radio. You couldn't help but let your mind wander to Spencer.
Maybe Penelope was right. Maybe he was in love with you. But even if he was what-
A loud beep making you jump, pulled you out of your hectic thoughts. You looked up and noticed it was a green light. You quickly drove off and eventually made it back home.
You sighed as you opened your door, kicking your shoes off and flopping on the couch. You couldn't stop thinking about Spencer. So you decided to call him.
You pulled out your phone from your purse and quickly dialed the number that you memorized so long ago.
The phone rang about 3 times before you heard the voice you missed so dearly.
"Y/N?" His voice rang through the phone. Good. At least he sounded excited to talk to you.
"Hey, Spence.. I've missed you." You smiled, a dopey smile.
"I've missed you so much more, Y/N."
"I- I'm sorry I didn't call you yesterday. Rossi convinced me to go to a bar with him after the class." He quickly explained himself.
"A bar... on campus?" You furrowed your brows. You knew how college bars were.. which is why you didn't like the idea of Spencer at one. I mean, you trusted him 100%. It's just the people there that you didn't trust.
"No. It was off campus.. it was kind of fancy. You know Rossi." He breathed out a laugh.
You got off the couch and made your way to your room. Laying on your bed. It felt colder now that Spencer was gone. God, that was so cheesy. But it was true.
"So.. how has it been teaching?" You questioned. You wished you could see Spencer teaching.
"Oh, it's been.. different, but fun. And you were wrong about the girls, they're all over Rossi not me." He laughed.
You joined in on his laughter. "Well good because then I'd have to turn into an unsub."
"Ah and we wouldn't want that now would we?"
"No, you wouldn't want that. You'd be my first victim lover boy."
"Nah. You love me, Y/N, you could never kill me." He joked.
You wanted to tell him. 'I do love you. I really really do.' But you were bought back to reality in a matter of seconds.
You huffed out a laugh. "In your dreams, Spence."
"Your right. You are in my dreams..."
You blushed, even though you couldn't see him, you could already tell he was smirking.
You guys talked for what felt like hours. You told him about Penelope and how she kicked you out. You obviously didn't tell him that she kicked you out because she wanted you to realize he was 'madly in love with you'.
He told you about how he told one of his jokes to the class and they actually laughed. He sounded so happy and cute. You could talk to him forever, but you felt your eyes getting heavy and glanced at the clock to see it was almost 11 at night.
"Spencer it's getting pretty late, we should get to bed." You sighed. You wished he was here, laying down with you.
"Yeah.. I'll call you tomorrow ok?"
"Ok. Goodnight Spence." ... Love you
"Goodnight Y/N."
You hung up clutching the phone to your chest. Feeling like a silly school girl with a bad crush.
You stood up so that you could get changed into some pajamas. You threw on one of Spencer's sweaters and a pair of pajama shorts. You hopped into bed and closed your eyes. Thinking of everything going on in not just your head.. but your heart.
You had to tell Spencer. The sooner, the better right?
Right.
You decided on telling him the day he got back. He would be back Saturday afternoon so you didn't have an awful lot of time.
You were... excited and scared all at the same time. Your stomach twisted with nerves at the thought of telling him, but the nerves eased away when you thought about him saying "I love you" back.
It was a scary feeling; love.
Your thoughts were drowned out by the wave of sleep that washed over you. You sighed, and felt your self drift.
***
*Slight time skip*
It had been almost 5 days since Spencer was gone. Tomorrow would be Saturday, and tomorrow would be when you 'confessed your love' as Penelope would say. She had been pressing the subject whenever you would talk on the phone. She had even asked you when she could finally tell the team.
You hadn't really thought about telling them. You didn't really care if they knew you were just scared about what Hotch would do.
You had a case and was currently driving to the house that the unsub was keeping young women in. You were riding with Morgan and JJ. Hotch, and Emily were on their way.
As soon as you pulled up to the house, Morgan slammed on the brakes, and you all jumped out of the car, gun in hand.
Morgan motioned for you to take the back with JJ and he would go in through a front window.
You and JJ crept to the backyard and opened the back door as quietly as you could. You glanced at her and you both nodded, silently telling each other to part ways. JJ and Morgan covered the downstairs while you went upstairs. You heard JJ and Morgan whisper 'clear' into their mics.
You stalked up the steps, pointing your gun in every direction you turned. You walked down the hallway, following a faint whimper. You looked behind as you saw JJ and Morgan appear from the steps.
You nodded your head toward the door and Morgan came up behind you to kick the door open.
"Samuel Yates FBI!" He yelled.
You all pointed your gun at.. no one. The young woman sat tied up in a chair. Her face bloodshot, tears running down her face and her mouth duct taped shut.
It sounded like she was trying to say something, and she looked towards the bathroom that was in the room.
You glanced at it. "Is he in there?" You whispered.
She frantically nodded and you felt your heart race pick up. You pointed your gun towards the bathroom and walked towards it.
As soon as you entered the bathroom you felt a big fist connect with your face. You grimaced in pain for a fraction of a second then looked up to see the unsub.
He tried to punch you again but you quickly registered what was going on and grabbed his fist with all the strength you could. It didnt really help that you were kind of little but you caught him off guard. You kneed him in the crotch and kicked him out of the bathroom so that Morgan could arrest him.
"Samuel Yates, your under arrest.." Morgan arrested him and read off his rights.
"Oh shes a pretty one." Yates said as he walked past JJ.
"Rot in hell." She shot back, pure disgust written all over her face.
She helped the woman down the stairs and you walked behind her and Morgan. The woman ran to her husband, and JJ walked over to you.
"You alright, Y/N?" She asked, as you and her walked to an EMT that Hotch insisted you went to.
"Yeah I'm fine, just a little shaken up." You sighed and sat at the back of the EMT.
One of the health technicians- Sandy- came around back to check out your bruise. She wiped a tiny drip of blood and your tiny cut with some anti-bacteria wipes. She put a tiny bandage on the upper part of your cheek and sent you off to the SUVs where everyone was waiting.
Morgan took a sharp intake of breath. "Oohh looks like pretty girl got herself a bruise."
"Oh shut up Derek. This," you pointed to your bruise "Happened because of you." You placed your finger on his chest and playfully shoved him.
Everyone got in their respected SUVs and you all headed back to the BAU.
After you got back Hotch asked to talk to you in his office.
"You did great work today Y/N.. but are you sure your ok?" He raised his brows.
"Yes, Hotch I'm fine. Trust me I've had worse." You joked.
"Alright, well, go home, get some rest." He gave you a slight nod.
You gave him a light smile and walked out of his office. You noticed Penelope rushing towards you frantically.
"Y/N, my love. Oh my gosh- a-are you ok?" Penelope pulled you in for a tight hug.
"Mhm, just dandy." You choked out. Her grip on you making you nearly pass out.
She pulled you back by the shoulders. And grabbed your face placing kisses all over your face like an aunt that hadn't seen you in a long time.
"Ok- ok. It's fine P. I'm fine." You laughed at her.
"I heard you kicked his ass." She smirked.
"Well.. I was aiming more for his nuts but yeah.. I guess you could say that."
Her laughter changed to a nervous expression.
"Ok so don't be mad but.. I kind of told Reid what happened..."
"Penelope!" You whined.
You already knew how Spencer got. He was always over dramatic about your safety, and plus you didn't want to worry him.
"I know, I shouldn't have said anything, but he called me to ask how you were doing since you didn't answer your phone and I told him it was because of what happened with the unsub- and- and it just slipped out." She rambled.
You sighed. "I-its fine I just didn't want him to stress about it."
Penelope looked down and cleared her throat. Uh oh. You knew this face.. she was guilty of something..
"Well speaking of uh.. that. Before I could tell him that the situation wasn't that serious he told me he was... on his way and hung up-"
"What?!" You exclaimed trying to keep your voice down.
"... but.. when I tried calling him back he didn't answer..." She finished.
"How long ago was this?" You narrowed your eyes.
"Um.. right when I found out so.. about an hour and a half ago.."
Your eyes widened. You were going to kill her.
"Penelope Garcia Norfolk is like two hours away meaning he's like 30 minutes from Quantico!" You tried to keep your voice down as you saw the team piling in.
"I know, which is why you should get going." She grabbed your arm and hurriedly rushed you out of the bullpen. Saying goodbyes to your teammates that walked past, confused expressions on their face.
"You just keep kicking me out of places, P." You laughed as you two entered the elevator
"I know, I know. And I'm sorry that I spilled the beans to Reid but think of it like this. Now you can confess your love tonight and not tomorrow afternoon." She looked over at you with a frantic smile.
"Right because I was looking so forward to that." You shot her a sarcastic smile.
"Great, call me and tell me how it goes." She reached for the driver side of your car and opened it for you.
"Ok bye-"
She excitedly waved and shut the door, nearly running back to the BAU.
What was she so excited about..?
You, on the other hand, were a nervous wreck. Your fingers tapping on the steering wheel. All of the possible situations of seeing Reid running through your head.
Sure you were happy to see him. You were ecstatic even. But that didn't change the fact that you were anxious.
You imagined how it would go telling him.
"I love you Spencer."
"I'm sorry Y/N but i just never loved you"...
And he walks out.
You shook your head pushing that thought out of your head. No. He wouldn't do that... right?
Before you knew it you were pulling into your apartment building's parking lot. Your hand slightly shook as you took the keys out of the ignition.
Jeez, Y/N. Calm down. It's only Spencer.
It's only Spencer.
As you walked up your building's steps you saw a familiar SUV... Shit. You rushed inside and went straight to the stairs, practically running up them, skipping two at a time.
Please don't tell me that was Spencer. You thought as you slammed your door shut.
Please. Please.
You kicked your shoes off and went to your bathroom splashing cold water on your face, getting ready to face your nerves.
It's ok. You got this. Just say it when the time is right. No holding back.
You nodded to yourself in the mirror. Trying to convince yourself that it was fine.
You jumped as you heard a sharp knock at your door. Your heart nearly jumping out your chest.
You looked through the peephole and gripped the handle. Taking a deep breath, you opened the door.
Revealing none other than Spencer Reid, his chest rising up and down in a feverish way.
Almost as soon as you opened the door Spencer pulled you in for a tight hug, lifting your feet slightly off the floor. His head nuzzling into your neck.
You wrapped your arms just as tightly around his neck. He gently rocked you back and forth, letting out a content sigh. He held you like he never wanted to let go and it made you heart go crazy. Some times you wonder how you are this in love with a man. But moments like this remind you. This is why you love him.
After a few more seconds he set you down, his hand lightly rubbing your back, in a comforting way.
"Y-your ok?" Spencer huffed, his head still buried in your neck.
You pulled him away, your hands laying on his chest.
"I'm fine, Spencer. I promise. It's just a bruise." You softly smiled.
"You could've gotten hurt. A-and I wouldn't have been there to save you and-" His voice slightly cracked. He averted his gaze to the floor.
"Hey, hey," your lightly cupped his cheeks with you hands, making him look up at you. "I'm alright ok. I'm right here."
He nodded and gripped your tiny wrist, placing a tiny kiss on your palm.
This is the stuff that made you feel all warm inside. This was another reminder that you loved him, and that you had to hurry the hell up and tell him.
He abruptly pulled you in for a soft kiss. His soft lips moving against yours in pure adoration. You could feel the emotions pouring out of him. Almost lovingly.
You slowly pulled away, your breathing heavy. You rested your forehead against his.
Now or never, Y/N.
Now or never.
"Spence.." You whispered. You closed your eyes. Not wanting to face the words that were about to spill out of your mouth.
"Yeah?" His voice nearly as soft as yours.
Say it. Just spit it out, Y/N.
"I love you." You whispered. Your heart practically freezing when the words slipped from your lips.
You slowly opened your eyes to reveal Spencer squeezing his shut, and slowly shaking his head.
"I'm dreaming." He huffed out a laugh.
You lightly tapped your fingers on the side of his face. He opened his eyes, staring at you with admiration.
You let out a breathy laugh, pulling your forehead from his.
"Your not dreaming Spence... I mean it. I love you."
It sounded like he let out a breath of relief and smiled ear to ear.
"Do you know how long I've been waiting for you to say that." He pulled you in for another kiss. This time a bit more eager but still felt as loving.
Your eyes fluttered shut and your lips moved against each other. Another passionate long lasting kiss.
Your heart fluttered, filling up with pure warmth. He was happy. And he had been waiting for you to say it?! You were stressing about this for no reason.
You pulled back after a moment and reopened your eyes.
"You've been waiting?" You laughed, slightly hitting his chest.
"Yes," he chuckled, "ever since we made this thing official I've been waiting." He dropped his hands from your cheeks, to your waist, gripping it slightly.
"Well why didn't you say anything?" You furrowed your brows. Your eyes slightly crinkling on the sides because of how giddy you were.
God you were the equivalent to a high school girl that just got asked to prom. Whatever.
"Honestly I was scared.. I- I didn't want to ruin anything that we had, and I didn't want to lose you." He explained.
"You could never lose me Spence." You ran a hand through his soft hair.
He leaned into your touch.
"Welll... are you going to say it back?" Your heart beat started to pick up again.
He brushed a piece of hair behind your ear.
"Y/N Y/L/N, I love you-" he placed a soft kiss on your lips , "so much."
"More than- words- could even explain." Spencer pressed his lips against yours between his words.
You beamed at his words. Softly moaning whenever his lips would touch your skin.
He lifted one of his hands to cup the side of your face and slightly tilted your head to the side so that he could kiss all over your neck and jaw.
You couldn't help but let your hands wander to the buttons of his shirt. He pulled away and loosely gripping your wrists.
"Ah-ah. Not so needy, Ms. Y/L/N." He cocked his head to the side and smirked.
Your eyes widened at the name he called you, excitement coursing through you.
Although, You'd rather it's be 'Mrs. Reid'.
"I'd rather be called 'Mrs. Reid'" You whispered in his ear.
Spencer's hand gripped on your waist and he pulled you tighter against him, you swore you heard a soft groan slip past his lips. You could feel the evident bulge growing as his heavy panting caused him
to slightly rub up against your lower stomach.
You tried to kiss him but he pulled away and cupped your face.
"Your hurt. We can't." He panted.
Are you fucking kidding me.
"Spencer it's a little bruise. I'm fine." You tried convincing him but he just grabbed your hand and pulled you to the kitchen.
He picked you up and set you on the counter. Your legs wrapped around his waist and pulled him closer.
"We should put some ice on that." He slightly winced as he pointed towards your bruise.
"I can think of some other things we could use ice for.." You smirked.
He breathed out a laugh. "Stop trying to seduce me, Y/N." He gripped your thighs and pulled himself from in between your legs.
"But why nottt..?" You whined.
He didn't answer. Instead he just gathered some ice and placed it into a ziplock bag, he wrapped the ziplock bag in a paper towel and handed it to you.
He went back to his position and you sighed, letting your head fall onto his shoulder dramatically.
"You won't have sex with me because you think the bruise makes me look ugly." You lifted your head.
"What! N-no!" He quickly shook his head. His face in pure shock that you would even say that.
"I wont have sex with you because you- your already hurt and you and I both know how.. uh... aggressive I can get." He looked down shamefully.
You grabbed his cheeks to make him look up at you.
"Spencer, you know I like it when your aggressive with me."
"I know- but... I would never want to hurt you, Y/N. And it makes me so mad just thinking about what that scumbag did to you." He spat out. You knew he wasn't angry at you. He was angry at the unsub that did this.
"But it's fine Spencer, I'm ok. I'm fine." You reassured him.
He looked down for a second then back at you.
"I know." He nodded, a soft smile on his face.
There was a brief moment of comfortable silence.
"So.. no 'I love you' sex..?" You raised your brows.
"No. For now at least." He smirked.
You groaned and pushed yourself off the counter. Looking up at Spencer who was hovering over you.
You placed your hands on his chest and pushed him off of you. You walked towards your room looking over your shoulder and throwing a playful smirk at Spencer.
You loved being petty with him.
You walked into your room and got undressed. You bent down to look for some pajamas and heard Spencer walk in and take a deep breath as he saw you bent over.
You smirked to yourself, knowing what you were doing to him.
If he didn't want to have sex with you the you were sure as hell going to make him regret that decision.
You turned around after pulling out a random baggy shirt. You unhooked your bra letting it slowly fall to your feet. You heard Spencer clear his throat and you pulled the shirt over your head.
"You need anything?" You tilted your head, trying to give him your most innocent voice.
"No." He breathed out.
You noticed he was standing at one of your nightstands. You walked up to him and reached around him so that your arms were almost around his waist.
"Excuse me." You pushed up against him and grabbed your hairbrush that was conveniently on your nightstand.
You felt Spencer's hands ghosting on the sides of your waist. You grinned and pulled away. You walked to the bathroom to brush your hair and took off the tiny bandage that was on your cheek. Eventually you finished and you saw Spencer sitting biting his nails- like always.
You climbed into bed next to him noticing he was only wearing his button up. You didn't know how he was going to be comfortable sleeping in that thing but oh well.
You leaned in to quickly kiss him on the cheek.
"Goodnight, Spence." You smiled and rolled over on your side, your back facing him.
You felt one of his large hands grip your shoulder to turn you to face him.
He quickly leaned down and placed a more passionate kiss on your lips. You felt him try to deepen the kiss and pulled your head back.
"Goodnight, Spencer." You laughed.
"Goodnight." He mirrored your laugh and laid down.
You turned back around- your back facing his- and felt his arm wrap around your waist, pulling you closer towards him. He placed a light kiss on your neck as he nuzzled his head into it.
You sighed and smiled to yourself. You loved moments like these.
And you loved him.
(A/N): AHHH YOU FINALLY SAID I LOVE YOU 😩😩😩 it's about time 🙄🙄
anyways... drama coming next chapter 🙈🙈 hope you guys are as excited as meeee 😁
also I KNOW you guys should've had i love you sex but... it helps the plot so just.. go along with it 😏
and there might be smut next chapter idk 👩❤️💋👩
ok^ THAT WAS ITTT bye baes ily sososos much 😁 and have a beautiful day and don't forget to stay safe!!!
-B