Y/N's POV
Muffled sounds filled my ears.
A faint noise was trying to reach me.
It was calling out my name?
The voice...
It...sounded familiar.
It was telling me to wake up?
I am up?
Aren't i?
Everything was a blur.
It still is.
I began to slowly open my eyes.
The light was too bright to open my eyes.
I managed to force them open.
Disorientated.
Where the fuck am i?
A face was in close proximity to my own.
A body...hovering over me.
Grey eyes.
With warm yellow specks in them.
But still blurry.
My vision wasn't intact yet.
I was on the floor?
How did i get on the floor?
I began to panic.
I grabbed hold of something cold and soft.
And the metallic of a ring?
It was a hand.
But who's?
I managed to snap back into reality.
It was draco.
His face was hovering over mine.
His platinum blonde strands dangling from his forehead.
He had a worried look plastered on his face.
I started to breathe quickly.
Not knowing what had happened...
Why he was here...
"Hey, hey"
He said soothingly.
His deep voice.
I-it actually made me feel at ease.
"Everything's going to be okay"
He smiled at me softly but he knew something i didn't.
What was it?
I breathed out in relief and ease knowing he was here with me.
One of his hands were laced through my hair.
And his other was gently resting on my right cheek with his thumb slowly stroking along my cheekbone.
Until...
All the images flashed through my mind of what made me pass out.
What made me get away from him.
What ruined my friendship.
Him.
I pushed him away and tried to sit up.
Ouch.
My head is banging.
I must of hit it on the way down.
He still hovered near me to catch me if i fell again.
I don't need his fucking help, the prick.
I furrowed my eyebrows at him and gave him a cold look.
He gulped.
He knew.
The asshole knew why i was acting this way.
I mean how could he not?
I travelled my eyes to the door where it had been slammed open.
Did he do that?
He fucking ruined my door.
Why couldn't he of just used a fucking spell?
"Y/n?"
He said concerned and went to go put his hand on my shoulder.
I nudged it away before he could.
"Don't touch me"
I said hurt.
I went to go move my hair out my way and lace my hand through it .
But i must of hit my head hard...because i winced at the pain when i did.
"Fuck"
I whispered to myself in pain.
Draco backed away from me with his eyes hooded in sadness.
Now Why the fuck was he sad?
He had nothing to be sad about the selfish prick.
"How did you even get in here?"
I gave him a stern look.
He looked away for half a second and looked back into my eyes.
I began to bore into his piercing grey eyes.
Wow.
They're so beautiful.
I-
No-
He was a dickhead to you.
Stop it.
"I-i smashed into it"
My eyes grew wide with anger.
"You wha-!"
He cut me off quickly.
"It was an initial reaction and i'm glad i did, you passed out y/n. I panicked."
He sighed and ran his hand through his platinum blonde hair.
I carefully eyed him up.
Well his hand anyway.
His defined hand with his big silver ring sliding through his hair smoothly-
I-
My god.
No! Y/n stop for goodness sake!
"Well... thank you for worrying about me but it is not appreciated"
He slightly furrowed his brows at me.
He looked hurt by my choice of words.
"You've fucking broken my door you prick!"
I rolled my eyes at him.
He smirked at me whilst i was getting angry.
That smug little shit.
Who does he think he is?
"Why are you looking at me like that you asshole?"
He clenched his jaw and bit his lip ever so slightly.
He wouldn't take his eyes off me.
I gave him a look to gesture for him to hurry up with his response.
"Look. Y/n i'm sorry- about all the things i said... i had no right darling"
I shook my head at him and gave him an angry look.
"Don't call me darling. You lost that privilege not very long ago"
I looked away from him.
Remembering how cold and spiteful he was.
I don't know if i can forgive him.
I mean...should i?
I was still sat on the floor with him beside me.
my hand resting on the floor
Steadying my balance.
I suddenly felt him put his hand on mine.
Overlapping it.
I looked down at his hand in shock and confusion.
Why the fuck was he holding my hand?
D-Draco's never been affectionate.
Ever.
I looked back up at him and he looked scared.
Why?
DRACO's POV
I couldn't live with the fact of knowing that she hates me.
God i wish i never opened my fucking mouth.
She looked away from me.
She looked upset.
In fact she was deeply upset.
I understand.
I was a dick to her.
And...i can't take back what i said.
So...
I gently put my hand over hers.
Her warm,
small and tender hands.
It fit right underneath mine.
I don't know-
I just did it.
It was unintentional.
But it felt right.
She looked down at my hand and seemed confused and shocked.
Yeah yeah.
I let her get under my skin.
I was scared.
Real scared.
I have issues with rejection.
I can't handle it.
I was anxious for her next reaction.
Will she smack it away?
Will she shout at me?
Will she tell me to get out?
Oh god please don't do either of those things
Y/n.
please.
Y/N's POV
He looked scared.
Why?
My initial reaction in my mind would of been to move my hand away.
But i just stayed there.
And...let it happen.
"I know you will never forgive me for my harsh words, but y/n, you need to know that anything i said was out of anger and i meant absolutely nothing that came out of my disgusting mouth"
I looked up at him.
Studying his face and body language.
From what i could see...
He looked as though he was...
Actually being true to me.
Look.
I want to forgive him.
I really do.
But...i don't want to get hurt again.
"I know you don't like me like that and i get it"
He trailed off with his words and looked down at the floor removing his hand from mine.
No-
The loss of contact from his hand from mine made me feel detached.
I was longing for his touch again.
But why?
Come on y/n.
Have you not figured it out yet?
....
Figured out what?
....
He went to go stand up but before he did i rest my hand on his knee.
I'm so going to regret this.
He stopped in his tracks.
And gave me a relieved but quizzical look.
"Now, i'm not saying that i've forgiven you...but i do like you draco if that's what you're trying to get at."
His eyes widened slightly and a small soft smile appeared on his face.
"That's why it hurt so much coming from you"
There you go.
You've done it now.
M-maybe i do like draco...more than i lead on.
But i know he doesn't want to be in a relationship.
So there goes that out the window.
You silly girl.
Why did you open up to him?
Out of all people y/n.
....
"You should never show you're true feeling's my love. You will most definitely get hurt if you do."
My mother once said to me and sometimes i think she was right.
I lost my mother when i was 7 years old.
I was left with my father.
He was a good man.
Sometimes.
I saw some good in him.
But he left me a year right after my mother died.
He couldn't handle me or the stress anymore.
so he sent me away.
Here to hogwarts.
Professor dumbledore was always there for me and still is.
He took me in and made me feel welcome here.
I have amazing friends who i consider as my family now.
I-i mean
Had.
....
I slowly removed my hand anxiously waiting for his response.
He said nothing.
Again.
So, i picked myself up and stood up wobbling slightly when i did, as i felt a little bit lightheaded.
I sighed.
I know how this is going to go.
He's going to leave.
For fuck sake y/n
How embarrassing.
But he completely took me by surprise and came close to my face.
He glanced at my eyes and then to my lips.
It's like he was silently asking for permission.
He brought his index finger up to my bottom lip and slowly stroked the outline of it.
His eyes were still drawn to my lips and within seconds he slowly closed his eyes,
Closed the distance
And kissed me.
Ever so softly.
His warm tender lips kissed me ever so gently.
It was meaningful and affectionate?
Draco has never been like this before.
This-this is a different side of him.
And honestly...
I loved it.
His lips made me feel at ease, home.
Weird really.
But it felt natural.
He broke from our kiss slowly and sighed softly in relief.
I was mesmerised by his affection and touch.
The taste of his lips still lingered on my own.
It's been extremely long since i've felt like this before.
And with him...i feel...special.
He slowly opened his eyes and tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear.
He smirked at me and bit his lip.
"So you like me huh?"
I nudged him softly
Blushing madly and laughed.
The cheeky fucker.
He laughed softly at my reaction, cocked his eyebrow and replied smoothly...
"What am i going to do with you miss y/l/n?"
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Working this weekend so... wont be posting til next week :)