lately
i had been
very entitled
and sensitive
as to how
i want people
to listen to my stories
i am starting
to build on
the mentality
of what i deserve
or what should
people give me
based on
all the things
i had given them
i wanted my actions
to get reciprocated
so badly
that in any moment
i felt ignored
or was not given
the right attention
i had in mind
i get really upset
and distant
and as i continue
holding on
to these expectations
i am constantly
planting resentment
against people
i truly care for
with this
i knew
the glasshouse
that is my heart
is slowly rotting
when we only care
too much
about ourselves
when we only see
what pains us
when we only crave
for getting
what we deserve
based on what
we gave out —
that's when we
start to deterioarate
how do we
overcome this
we acknowledge
our emotions
and feel them
we play out
all these
irrational thoughts
inside our heads
and face them
it is never
an easy feat
it takes courage
to get out of the rot
than willingly
be drowned in it
as for our
never ending
expectations of people
W.H. Auden once said l
you shall love
your crooked neighbor
with your crooked heart
in the final analysis
we are all bound
to hurt one another
whether intentionally
or otherwise
having
the valiant ability
to forgive
is a character
given to those
who are eager
to receive the same