"Fck! Just take it slow David! It really hurts big time."
I can't stop myself from cursing because of the pain I feel right now. David is currently cleaning my wound and damn it! He's cleaning my wound so fast like he's having a marathon.
"What the Fuck!" I shouted when David poured a bottle of alcohol on my wound. "You wanna die?"
"Nope," he casually said.
"If you're not yet ready to die then do it carefully. It really hurt so bad," I said already getting annoyed due to the pain.
"Well, it's not my fault that you're in pain right now. How many times do I have to tell you that you need to be extra careful if you're in a battle. It's your fault since I always told you to be careful and bring me wherever you go."
I couldn't stop myself from laughing so hard.
He's so funny. He's like a cry baby.
"What's funny?" he asked me with an annoyed look.
"Ikaw," I said while laughing.
I stopped laughing when my dad opened the door with too much force. I thought the door would break because of his forced.
"How is she?" Dad asked worriedly.
"She's fine Emperor," David answered.
"Please leave us for a while. I need to talk to my daughter in private."
David just bowed his head before leaving my room. I smile when my dad embraced me into a tight hug. He's being careful not to touch my wound.
"Are you okay sweetheart?" he asked. He looked so worried about my condition.
"You don't have to worry dad. It just a cut, I'm not gonna die," I said laughing.
"You've done a great job tonight. Thank you for saving your dad and for getting my revenge. But, maybe this will be the last time you're going to a battle alone. I can't bear to see you getting hurt," dad said still hugging me. "Maybe this is already the right time for you to choose. You can do everything you want. Stay out of this mess and have fun with your life. You're still young, I'm sorry for dragging you in this mess."
"Don't apologize dad. I'm fine with my life. Besides, it's my responsibility to protect our family and the throne. I'm the future Yakuza Empress. I'm just doing my job."
"Are you happy?" he asked me. I just heaved a deep sigh. Am I happy?
"Yes dad," I said while smiling.
"Don't lie to me. I'm your dad. Don't hide your real emotion with that fake smile of yours. Stop pretending that you're happy when in fact you're not. Stop showing me your fake smile that doesn't reach you ears."
I can't stop myself from crying. I don't know how to be happy.
"Dad, I let go an innocent child tonight. I don't know why I feel pity for the child. When I saw his eyes pleading for mercy, it made me realize that maybe he deserve a second chance since it is not his fault being born in this world and having Mr. Mezaru as his father. And Mrs. Mezaru is just a victim as well. But I'm still in doubt if that child won't follow his father," I said in between my sobs. "I killed hundreds of people tonight."
"Do you regret letting them go?" tanong niya. Dad stop hugging me and he let me face him. He looked directly to my eyes.
"No," I said.
He just nod his head. "What you've done is a mistake but you have saved millions of innocent lives. And I'm so proud of you, you have made a right choice letting that child. He deserve a chance to live a good life."
"Thank you dad. Thank you for being my father. I love you so much."
"Dad, I saw him again," I said referring to my fiance.
"I love you too sweetheart," he said while kissing my forehead. "I'm sorry sweetheart. I can't do anything with the law of marriage. I know you're hurting. Just wait more longer. I know he can learn to love you also but if it's already too much. Just tell me, I can broke the law for you. I can't bare to see you hurting."
"Thank you dad. Don't worry, I'm okay," I lied.
"I hope so. By the way, get ready we have a dinner with the Yamazaki. Wear something comfortable," dad said before leaving me.
I don't want to go the the dinner anymore because I already know what will happen.
Eventhough I don't have the energy to go. I still pushed myself to get ready. I choose to wear a simple black fitted longsleeve dress because I need to hide my wound. Despite feeling the pain, I decided to have a quick shower. When I finished, I clean my wound again. I make sure to wrapped a bandage to my wound to prevent it from bleeding again. When I'm done I wear my dress and I just put light make up on my face and tied my hair into a high ponytail. To finished my look, I slipped into my black stilettos and get my black pouch. With this outfit I think I'm not going to a dinner. This dress really fit for burial. It's fine though since I feel that my heart will be dead in a few hours.
I left my room and proceed to my dad's office. I think mom is already there. I was just in time since both of them are already ready to go. My mom scanned my looks and immediately embrace me into a hug.
"You look gorgeous sweetheart," mom whispered which made me smile.
My mom is wearing a blue above the knee off shoulder dress while my dad is wearing a black suit. They're indeed my parents. I got both of their looks.
"Let's go," dad said before holding my mom's hand. I followed them and I was so happy while looking how sweer they are to each other. I hope I can find someone like my dad. He's so perfect. A perfect husband and a perfect father.
I just smile and rolled my eyes when dad opened the door for mom and kissed her in the lips. The sweetness is overloading. I'm just waiting for a sister or a brother. Just kidding.
I smirked when I saw David frowning. He's waiting for me. He is my personal bodyguard, doctor and driver. In short my right hand.
"Still grumpy?" I said annoying him. David is like a brother to me. We only have two years age up. I'm 18 and he's 20
"Just get in if you don't want getting left behind."
"It's okay though, since I actually don't like going on that dinner and seeing his face. Besides, I already know what will happen."
"Are you just gonna let him win?" tanong niya.
"Nope. I won't let him win this time," I said before entering the shotgun seat.
It's a long drive before we arrived in our destination. Mom and Dad went inside already and I just followed afterwards.
His mom immediately hugged my mom. They're best of friends kasi. I wear my fake smile and walk towards their table. I immediately saw his emotionless face. I seat beside him. Do I have a choice? This is the only vacant seat in the room.
"You look so beautiful hija," Tita Eula said while smiling.
"Thank you tita," I simply said.
Our parents talk about random things. About bussiness and about the organization. I was just eating when he suddenly spoke.
"Stop wearing your fake smile, it doesn't suit you," he said. But I did not mind him. "Why are you not saying anything? I'm just stating fact. You look so pathetic"
I was already fuming mad. I stop eating and was about to leave when he grabbed my hand. I know what will happened next and what just I expected.
"Excuse us for a while. I'm just gonna borrow my fiance. I want to talk to her in private," he said also wearing his fake smile.
"Sure hijo. Have fun," his dad said while smiling.
I don't have any choice but to follow him. He dragged me towards the mini garden. I whimper in pain when he forcely grabbed my both my arms. I was in pain since he's holding my wound with so much force.
"Stop pushing yourself to me. Tanga ka ba talaga? I don't love you so better tell your father to cancel our engagement. I don't love you!" He said full of anger.
I couldn't speak. My wound really hurt so bad.
"Are you just gonna cry? Wake up woman! I don't like you and I will never love you. Just find someone else. Stop dreaming!"
I couldn't stop myself anymore. I quickly pushed him and slapped him with so much anger.
"I really do hate myself for loving someone like you. You stupid asshole doesn't deserve to be love. If you don't want this marriage, then go tell your parents. My bad, you can't right? Because you don't want to disappoint your parents. Whether you like it or not. You can't break the law but if you do hate it very much then just disappoint your parents and tell them you want to quit," I said while smirking. "Stop wearing your fake smile and stop pretending you love me in front of your parents. It really look so disgusting."
I saw how his face turn red and he look at me with piercing eyes. He grabbed my shoulder and I whimper in pain. It really hurt so bad.
I was frozen on my spot when his eyes went to my shoulder. He scanned my hand and I can feel the blood flowing on my shoulder down to my hands. I feel like any time I will passed out. I can no longer endure the pain. I cannot talk anymore when his eyes remain on my hand.
"Fck! You're bleeding."