⚠️ warning ⚠️ , this one is sad, mentions arguing, cursing, yelling and car accidents/hospitals.
your pov
i struggle for another gasp of air, it feels like my lungs are running out.
i hiccup, another hot burning tear, running down my face.
his words, they hurt me. beyond belief
it's funny how the people you love most in the world sometimes hurt you the most.
i put my key into the ignition of my car, struggling to find the strength to turn it.
we just had the biggest argument we've ever had. and it could be our last.
i put the car in reverse, backing out of his driveway, into the street.
i drive down the road, following the route I take every so often, trying to take the long way home.
i know the second i get home I won't want to get in bed, if I get in bed I'm going to stay up all night crying.
communication. that's all we needed and we would've been fine.
his words have been playing in my head on repeat.
"maybe if you would've fucking told me that, I would have known! are you stupid enough to expect me to just know how you feel at all times?!" he yelled in my face.
"What the hell gives you the right to talk to me the way you are right now? Why do you act like you're so above me, you always belittle me!" i told him.
"I GAIN THAT RIGHT WHEN YOU START BEING MORONIC. All you ever do is get mad at me over stupid shit and mope around all day until I give you attention and apologize. Why do you require so much attention?!" he said, digging even deeper
"Last time I was mad at you, I was upset because you lied to me about something I trusted you with! I wouldn't have even been mad you were with girls I was just pissed you couldn't tell me!" i told him
"Yeah fucking right, you probably would've been pissed."
"Name one other time I've gotten mad about you being with girls? When have I EVER? Exactly, I haven't because I trust you. Obviously, you're GIVING ME A REASON TO NOT TRUST YOU!" i shouted back
"Dude, you piss me off so much. All you ever want to do is argue."
"No, I don't. We argue like once a month and I can only recall maybe two times I was in the wrong. Every time we do this you hurt me so much, but it kind of seems like you don't even care if you hurt me."
"Well, maybe I don't care anymore if I hurt you. Maybe I don't care that you're upset and maybe I don't care that we don't communicate and MAYBE I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. Ever think about that??" He said, and extremely angry look on his face as he makes eye contact with me.
even if he doesn't mean what he's saying to me and just saying it out of anger, ive never been so hurt in my life.
"WELL IF YOU JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME ILL LEAVE! Fuck you and your fucking anger issues, you can kiss my ass on the way out the door. I hope you regret this because you are treating me like shit right now nick. Good luck ever seeing me again." I said tears streaming down my face. Already walking straight out the door.
I slam the door behind me and from the outside I hear a faint "FUCK" come from inside.
this argument has been replaying in my head over and over again.
"i don't care about you"
"why do you require so much attention?"
"i don't care that i hurt you"
Where did it all go wrong? i make a left turn to go onto the street I live on.
out of nowhere I see headlights coming my way.
Before I can react any other way besides flinching, we collide.
dark, all i see is dark.
Nicks pov.
"FUCK" I yell, as she walks out the door and slams it shut.
I understand she's mad because she loves me and wants me to talk to her but all she does is start arguments with me.
i didn't mean what i said. when i told her i wouldn't care if I hurt her or i don't care about her. i do. more than anything in this world. she's my girl. but tonight i let my anger get the best of me.
i feel a tear fall down the side of my face. i haven't cried in years. she would be the only thing i cry over
i love her but i can't keep doing this. to her we rarely argue and she wants to work it out but to me, we argue and I get so frustrated and annoyed that I take all my anger out on her and hurt her. I can't keep hurting her.
maybe i should leave and go try to find her.
or maybe i should block her phone number and never talk to her again.
maybe i should apologize to her because i know I hurt her and broke her heart tonight.
maybe i should make her realize she also hurt me by not trusting me or arguing with me.
i continue my crying and angry thoughts when I get a phone call.
Y/n is calling...
decline. it's too early. i can't apologize yet
a few seconds go by before my phone rings again
i decline it again.
i sit and stare at my lock screen, a picture of us.
us being happy. being cute. being in love. i wish we could be doing that right now. cuddled up in bed, watching tv shows together or hangin our cracking jokes
i think those moments are why i stick around. the good always overrides the bad.
but today was really bad.
I get another phone call, ready to decline it when I see it's my mom calling. I wipe my tears and take a quick breath, preparing to talk to her.
"hello?"
"Nicholas what the fuck is going on?!" She yells at me through the phone
"What? What do you mean mom" I ask her in confusion
"Why the hell did I just get a random call at 1AM saying y/n got in a car accident and I was her second emergency contact because you were her first but didn't answer? I thought she was staying at your house today? Why wouldn't you answer her phone calls? What if it was important like it is?!" He says, scolding me
she was always moms favorite.
my heart stops. i drop my phone on the floor and fall back onto the couch.
"mom did you say she got into a car accident"
"YES NICK SHE IS BEING TAKEN TO THE HOSPITAL." She said still angry with me.
"Mom I have to go" I say and hang up the phone, sprinting to my car and heading straight to the hospital
this is my fault, it's all my fault. I let her leave, I'm the reason she wanted to leave, I'm the reason we were arguing, she's going to die and we are going to end on bad terms. She will never know that I truly love her.
I get to the hospital and barely even finish putting my car in park by the time I get out and run inside
I go to the desk
"Um, I uh, I got a call, saying my girl- my girl friend got in a car accident her name is y/n I need to see he-her now" I said stuttering
"Oh sure, follow me." The lady says and gets out of her seat I follow her down a hallway and stand beside her as she knocks on a door and opens it
"you have a visitor" he said nodding her head my direction and walking away again.
i nervously walk in and make eye contact with her. the love of my life.
Shes sitting there, a cast on her arm and ice pack on her head
she gives me nothing but a dirty look
I close the door behind me and walk up go her slowly
"thank god you're okay." i say with a light voice and place a kiss on her head
"surprised to hear you say that. last time i heard you don't even care about me." she replied sending me evil eyes
i sit down in the chair in front of her and put my head in my hands
"you know that isn't true y/n. i was just angry and I took it out on you like I always do. I'm sorry"
she stayed silent
I look up again and see her looking down, crying
"i hate seeing you cry. i know it's my fault and I know I fucked up. i want these arguments to stop. from now on. I promise" I tell her
She stays silent again.
After a few moments, she says
"why didn't you answer?"
"What?" I question
"why didn't you answer. Why didn't you answer the phone call. They told me that called my emergency contact twice and it didn't answer so they called your mom instead because she's my second emergency contact. you are my first. why didn't you answer."
"i thought you were just going to argue with me again. I was still pissed off and didn't want to keep hurting you"
"What, so my safety didn't even cross your mind? You didn't think, I should answer it because what if something happened? What if she got hurt? you just thought oh she's here to cause more problems? Doesn't surprise me anymore to be honest. it hurts but it doesn't surprise me."
" it's not like that y/n. I didn't think you were hurt no because I was more worried about myself- I was being selfish I know. I don't know what to tell you." I said ashamed
"I promise next time it won't happen. I will never decline a call of yours again I promise" I told her
"Seriously? You think there will be a next time?? do you know how much you broke my fucking heart tonight? Not to mention you made me cry so hard I could barley see when I was driving and crashed my car, and now I ended up with a broken arm and a concussion, plus a fat ol car bill. you told me I require too much attention, that you don't care about me, don't care if you hurt me, don't care if I trust you or not, and obviously when you didn't answer the phone calls you don't care about my safety. Obviously you can't take me seriously and all you're capable of is breaking my heart so please leave this hospital room right now and when I get home tonight maybe I'll consider if I ever want to see your face again."
"babe...." i said
"i don't know who you are calling babe but it is NOT me. when i walked out that door tonight that was it. We are over nick. Like I said maybe when I recover I'll think about talking to you again. Leave." She said sternly
I turn around and walk towards the door, opening the handle, looking at her again one last time and step out closing it behind me.
i ruined everything. i haven't had this many years going down my face, ever before. i lost the one most important thing to me.
all I can do is cry. i lost it all.
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yo deadass im starting to feel like my imagines are so bad omfg, also this one was hard to write bc I usually can never write anything sad. I'm working on it y'all! Please remember to vote if you liked this!!
I know this is super basic, and it's unoriginal as hell but it was quick and the first idea I came up with for something sad haha.
2027 words, edited once, so I apologize for any typos!
I WANNA MAKE A SECOND PART TO THIS SHOULD I ??? I think I should