𝑾𝑯𝑬𝑵 𝑳𝑰𝑳𝒀 𝑨𝑳𝑰𝑪𝑰𝑨 𝑴𝑨𝒀𝑩𝑨𝑵𝑲 was fifteen years old, Big John disappeared. Lily and John B was on their way home from a surfing session when they was greeted by an empty house. The kids thought that he was just out grocery shopping or something like that, but the weeks went by and Big John never seemed to appear again. Of course they contacted the police, who made an insanely small effort to find the man, and instead just called John B's uncle to take care of the boy.
Ever since Lily's mom left her and her dad turned in to a total asshole, she had thought of Big John as her role model. As a kid, she'd often find herself copying sayings he had used, telling others stories that he had told her, and doing the things that he did. She didn't tell John B, but most of the time she was by their house, it was cause she wanted to be around his father, and not him.
Big John was her only father figure, or only parent figure in general. As John B obviously was sad and feeling down, Lily decided to pretend she was alright and try to be there for him, even though she was almost as depressed as he was. She felt like she didn't have the right to show her feelings, cause after all, he wasn't her dad. Her dad was still at home. Even how fucked up he was.
As the other pogues, actually believed that Big John was dead, Lily and John B lived in denial. John B openly, while Lily didn't talk about it.
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"Seriosly, Lily, don't you understand how worried we was when you just disappeared out of nowhere. And then, on top of that, doesn't answer your phone. For fucks sake, we though you got kidnapped by those men in the boat." Kiara yelled in the phone, as Lily on the other side was trying to brush her hair quickly. She had just woken up at Rafe's house, her phone being blown up by her friends.
"I'm sorry! I was with a boy, and you can't tell the others! they'll wanna know who it is and I really can't tell them." Lily explained to her worried friend.
"Please tell me it wasn't Barry? I don't wanna be around you if you smell like him."
"No! Euw. I'll tell you later but you can't under any circonstances tell them, come up with an excuse or something." Lily said.
"Fine! only this time. Just remember that you owe me and I hate you." Kiara sighed.
"You're the best, I love you!"
"Sleepover tonight at my place? it was a while since the last one and I miss our girl time." Kiara pouted, as Lily was putting on her shoes.
"Abso- fucking- lutely. Do you have any of that really good kook-wine that give you Kendall Jenner-vibes? I'm in such a mood for red wine today." Lily told her best friend. Kiara chuckled.
"Of course."
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Lily had let Rafe drop her off a little bit away from The Chateau, so that the Pogues won't see his car. She'd figured that disappearing for a day and then returning with Rafe Cameron wasn't the absolute best idea.
The blonde twisted her hair and putted it into a messy bun on the top of her head, innerly thanking Rafe for letting her wash it at his place.
As she walked into the drive way, a black van that Lily didn't recognize, was on its way out. When the driver saw the girl, he stopped and the passenger rolled down the window. In the passenger seat sat a middle-aged, white man, with greasy hair and a not-so-friendly look in on his face. It was the kinda guy you'd seen when you're walking down an empty road, alone at night, and run away from.
"Do you live here?" The man yelled at Lily, who flinches at his tone. She quickly shook her head.
"No, I'm looking for my dog. He's white, and about this small," Lily lied and gestured with her hand, "He ran away this morning. Have you seen him?" She asked with an innocent, sweet, smile on her lips.
The man in the car squinted his eyes and shoot her one last look- as if her eyes would show if she was lying or not, before he rolled up the window and the car started driving away.
Lily let out a sigh in relief before walking towards the house again. Suddenly she heard sobbing and voices from the chicken pen, and quickly turned around. Out of the chicken pen came her four friends. Kiara had tears down her cheeks and the others looked pretty shaken up too.
"I am so confused." Lily stated as she looked at the four with furrowed brows.
"Hi to you too." JJ said sarcastically as he pulled his sister into a hug. It wasn't that usual that the siblings didn't see each other for more than a couple of hours, so JJ was pretty worried for his sister when she suddenly had disappeared. Kiara had told them that she'd talked to Lily on the phone and that Lily had been visiting her best friend from elementary school, who finally had come back from the mainland. Surprisingly, the three boys had believed her.
"Why were you in the chicken pen? And why was there some creepy men yelling at me in a black van? They were kidnappers, weren't they? Why didn't they pick me then? Heart been broke so many times yeah yeah, don't know what to believe-"Lily ranted to her friends.
"We don't know who they were but they had a gun so we figured they didn't exactly come here for a tea party." Pope explained.
"Oh. Well do you maybe know what they were looking for?" Lily asked.
"We think that they were out for this," John spoke, picking up an old compass from his pocket, "It was my fathers and it was from the bag you found when you dived."
"It was your fathers? Big Johns?" Lily repeated and John B nodded. Lily tried her best to hide it, but a small spark of hope went through her body. Maybe, she thought.
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The two girls giggled as Lily accidentally rolled off the brunette's bed and on to the floor. She peeked up from the ground, her blonde hair covering most of her face. Kiara laughed at the sigh and grabbed the second bottle of wine they had drank and passed it to her friend.
"Okay, seriously now, who is this guy you're getting it with?" Kiara giggled and looked at the blonde who took a long gulp of the wine.
"Oh yeah, that was Cameron. Cameron Rafe. Damn I sounded like James Bond!" Lily slurred, being a little to honest than she normally would. Kiaras eyes widened at her words.
"Rafe? Oh my fucking god! Your getting it with Rafe Cameron!" Kiara called out, being completely surprised by Lily's confession. She'd thought it would be some local pogue like the ones that she normally hooks up with at the keggers. Not the kook-prince.
"Mhm. That's him."
"But how- when? Tell me everything for god's sake." Kiara almost yelled at her best friend.
"No need to shout. No need to yell. No need to have a riot. Shut your eyes-" Lily started, quoting some tiktok meme she all of a sudden remembered in her drunken state.
"Lily!"
"Yes, yes. Okay so we've met at work, he was hot as fuck. We kissed at the kegger, he was still hot as fuck. We had sex like three times. He was hot. as. fuck." Lily replied.
"You had sex with Rafe? Oh my god." Kiara gasped staring at her best friend. Lily took another sip of the wine, chuckling.
"Yes. He's really good, but don't tell him I said that, his ego is way too big as it is. He does this thing when he like choke-"
"Lily! that's enough thank you" Kiara exclaimed, hitting Lily's arm playfully. It wasn't like Kiara thought that Lily was all innocent, she knew way better than that, but she had a very innocent side of her personality that would never talk about sex that openly, sober. And she could also seem very innocent if she wanted to, which she'd often use in front of the guys or any adult.
"Shit, sorry!" Lily put her hands on her mouth, realizing she said that out loud.
"But like is your relationship anything more than lust?"
"Well, I fell asleep in his arms under the stars yesterday." Lily confessed, "And I hate to sound cheesy but I feel like he really gets me, you know?"
"That is so romantic! What if- what if he's your soulmate?" The brunette said as she gasped.
"You said the same about Jake after I kissed him last year, and well that didn't age very well." Lily said, remembering the moment when she had told her current crush that she liked him, and he told her he liked boys. They did become friends after though, and Jake is now Lily's only kook friend except Kiara.
"So what about you and Johnny boy?" Lily asked, wiggling her eyebrows, making Kiara roll her eyes.
"Nothing! We're just friends." Kiara told her friend who still looked unsure.
"I don't believe you."
"There is nothing going on between me and John B! Besides, we actually have a rule, no pogue on pogue macking, ever!" Kiara called out.
"As if John B care about that anymore. We made out like four times in seventh grade. Euw, can't believe I did that! He was like the worst kisser ever." Lily said, making a disgusted face.
"It doesn't matter anyways since I'm not into him." Kiara reassured.
"If you say so."
"Have you told JJ about Rafe yet?" The brunette asked her friend, grabbing the bottle from her as she decided Lily probably had enough. Lily raised her eyebrows, shooting Kiara a 'are you serious?' kind of look.
"Do I look like I want to die?"
"Sometimes." Kiara said and earned a slap.
"Kinda true. But I don't even know if Rafe and I are serious yet, we haven't talked about us. And I know for sure that that ugly as brother of mine won't take it any good." Lily sighed.
"Maybe you should talk to both of them?"
"No way."
"Okay but JJ is your brother, even if you like it or not, and he'll be hurt if you don't tell him what's going on in your life. I'm just saying, honesty lasts the longest." Her friend said calmly. It wasn't that Lily didn't know that lying would cause consequences, cause she did have a small consequence-thinking deep down. But she choose to avoid the problem by any circumstances, like she'd always do.
"You are low key right but I'm going with plan A, lying my ass off and reschedule my death day."
╚»★«╝ AUTHURS NOTE ╚»★«╝
hiii!
it's my birthday tomorrow! finally turning fifteen lol and the weather is so nice.
i hope everyone's doing well, and if ur not, you can always text me! i'm not a therapist but i'm a pretty good listener.
// G <3