(A/N: Enjoy...)
This is continuation after the chapter "Friends" where Phana and Kit are being scolded by Beam for doubting Forth!
Beam's POV
The next day I woke up with a heaviness on my chest. Ah. It's Forth's hand. Wait… What? Forth's hand? I wasn't with Forth when I left home. When did he find me? How? I don't know. He's my knight in the shining armour. Always there
I feel sad for Forth that he always has to deal with my drunkenness.
He was the one who saved me and made me feel good after that heavy sad night. I still remember that it was he who took care of me when I scored less and got drunk above my capacity. I ranked third. As if it was no humiliation that I never topped the class. I blamed Forth for that. And he slid it because I was drunk. He said he was okay when I apologised him the next day by doing his work willingly and paying for the snacks and cooking some dishes for us. He said he didn't take it to heart, but… If someone could have said it to me, I could have been sad too, right?
Then, again, when girls sat on his lap at the bar during weekends, seducing him… Even if he chased them away, I felt insecure and yet again I blamed him for nothing in particular, when I was drunk. And when I came to consciousness I apologised again. Like every time. I apologized Forth for me being a nuisance! I cooked meals and did his laundry, ironed his clothes. He wasn't letting me. Because he's that good. And his goodness always makes me feel like doing more for him. Whatever I do isn't enough.
But after these three months, I've started feeling if I'm really worth being his boyfriend? Maybe, she is right. She? She is... My psychiatrist, my aunt. I shouldn't stick to people till I get better. It's almost a year, I found her. I didn't even know she existed. My parents hid it from me that I have an aunt! I met her when I felt depressed after I secured second rank. Not even my parents or Pha or Kit understood that I was depressed. But she did. I'm thankful to her.
I only realized only after a month I asked Forth to be my boyfriend. Yeah. He did court me, but it wasn't only he who proposed to me but I proposed to him too on the same day.
It was a funny incident. When Forth took me to a beach, he planned a proposal on the beach while I, in the room.
It was both, funny and emotional moment. We both proposed to each other on the same day.
My anger was triggered when Phana and Kit said nonsense about Forth. I couldn't tolerate it. I ran away without telling anyone. I don't know how Forth found me but I'm thankful he did. Maybe she was right. I don't deserve asshole friends like Phana and Kit.
It was till yesterday that I didn't have my family at my side, but I thought I have Pha and Kit. But... Yesterday, I lost my friends too. Now I only have Forth and Aunt.
I won't let Forth go. And aunt will not let me go too.
I took the medicine she gave me after breakfast. I feel good now. I always feel good after taking the medication. Forth too was happy seeing me back on my toes.
After all, Forth is the only person keeping me sane.
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Forth's POV
Phana called me immediately after Beam left. He was worried sick. Without asking anything I ran to my bike.
I shared Phana, my location and told him to go to the Botanical Garden.
After 15 minutes I found Beam....
The Botanical Garden. He was outside it's gate. I don't know how but when he was there when he got drunk after a night when girls were on top of me and he got angry. Thanks to the watch I gifted him. I am really glad that I gave it to him. It saves me at moments like this.
It was broad daylight and people were gathered around the car.
Phana and Kit had reached 10 minutes before me.
"Forth!!! Sorry.... Beam... He..." Kit was shading tears.
"For...th... Loves... Mee..." Beam was saying, emphasizing each word with a *hic* sound after every word. He was wasted. Same as I found him for the first time.
Maybe it was Kit and Phana's first time watching Beam in this condition. I wonder what kind of friends they are!
But seeing Phana in panic mode and Kit like a lost kid in a park, not finding his parents. Watching Phana in panic mode who is poud as a peacock and grumpy Kitty crying was another scene, but Beam is the priority.
I washed off all thoughts and asked Phana to help me drive Beam home. I followed them from bike.
Giving Beam a sponge bath and changing his clothes, I turned to Phana and Kit. Beam was sound asleep.
Phana told me everything because Kit was still not in a condition to talk.
"I... I'm sorry Forth. We're sorry. I was just worried for Beam. I never knew Beam could go this insane. He didn't even let us talk. He just said it and left." Phana apologised me.
"I am sorry too." Kit apologised after Phana.
"Phana, Kit, I don't know what should I say. I'm not angry or anything because I know how infamous this *I pointed at myself* Forth is! So there's no need to apologise me.
Maybe it showed your concerns towards Beam but you owe a big fat apology to Beam. He's hurt.
And I'm really wondered that you're watching Beam like this for the first time.
I found Beam in worst condition three months ago. It was night time.
I thought you're the one taking care of him. I expected you to be his support system.
Watching you guys makes me feel like it's so stupid.
You... to whom all consider as Sophisticated and well mannered are worse than we... Whom everyone considers barbaric and stupid.
Our SOTUS might seems bad from outside but it connects us all. All students in the whole Engineering Department. While, you... You, the best trio?
You didn't even know about Beam. You didn't even try to understand if he was feeling good!
Everything you did was..."
"It was not like we didn't ask... You don't know about him Forth.
I might be wrong when I reacted the way I did when we knew it's you... I might be wrong when I didn't find Beam. I might be wrong when I gave Wayo more importance than Beam, I might be wrong for everything but our love for each other, our bond... That's not fake nor just a show off." A teardrop fell from Phana's eyes. Never had I ever seen Phana like this.
"You think, we didn't know Beam is dating you? You think we didn't know what was happening to him?
Even if you think you you know him better, you don't know him.
What we said about you was nothing but a button we tried to pushed to see how his anger triggers and what happens later on!
At first we didn't know it would go like this... We thought we could solve it by talking to him... But it's not that easy now.
Do you really think he meant what he said?
You were not there when he said the things he said to us. It wasn't at all he who was talking. It is all fed to his mind."
"W-we... n-need your help F-Forth..." Kit said while crying.
I didn't know what to say. What help? What act? What anger? What's fed into his mind? By whom?
Who's right? Who's not? What's going on?
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(A/N: Now I'm feeling sorry for saying sorry because of super duper late update!
Every time I say I'll update sooner but... You know...
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I literally feel like giving up writing sometimes but you keep me motivated to write.
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