Sofia
I tossed and turned most of the night.
I cried more and more.
The fact my daughter no longer had a nanny, The fact Jaxon had lied to me.
I didn't hate him, How could I hate someone that had given me so much?
But I never told him I didn't hate him, I let him go to work thinking our home was broken, That he couldn't be trusted, That he was a bad person.
Did that make me a bad person?
I called Freya to come around, I asked if she could give me some advice since she was my best friend.
She was the only person I had at that moment in time.
She said she would be over after her shift.
I got Ezmaya up and made her some rusk and milk for breakfast.
She was looking more and more beautiful every single day, I was such a mess, I couldn't help but cry.
My mom was never going to see Ezmaya again, She was never going to hold her, She was never going to be able to see her beautiful smile.
My heart broke in two, I didn't even get to say goodbye.
On that note I was burning my toast, I couldn't even get that right..
I took Ezmaya upstairs and got her dressed.
Downstairs I put her in her bouncer so me and Freya could have a chat.
Freya knocked the door and gave me the biggest hug ever, I really needed it too.
"Hey, everything okay?" She asked me.
"Not really." I couldn't help but cry.
Freya Hughes me again. "what's wrong babe?"
The fact I couldn't tell her half of it hurt.
I had to lie to my best friend again..
"Jaxon just keeps lying, He keeps telling me he's changed and then he does something to make me question it again.." I said wiping my tears.
Freya frowned. "He isn't cheating on you is he?"
"I wouldn't put it past him Freya" I said. "He has done unforgivable things and I don't know where to go from here.."
Freya bit her lip "You and Ezmaya have always got a home with me.."
I smiled "Oh thank you, But I can't leave without knowing if something is worth fixing"
Freya didn't look happy. "He doesn't seem to make you happy, You never seem happy anymore.
You've got to put yourself before him because you don't want to loose yourself girl."
Ezmaya, The little drama queen she was, Started crying because she wasn't getting attention, she was just like her daddy.
I picked her up said to Freya "I'm just going to feed her and put her down for a nap, I won't been long."
Freya
I felt sorry for the girl, Since meeting her that day and introducing her to stripping and her meeting Jaxon she was different.
I missed the old Sofia, The Sofia that didn't care what people thought, It was her way or no way.
Now she was a wife to be and a mother.
It is crazy how much things had changed and how much she was dealing with and she's still is the strongest person I knew.
Since my mom passed away Sofia kept her distance, She hadn't really been the best friend she once was.
I felt like that was completely down to Jaxon, There was something about the guy I just didn't like.
I heard the key turn in the door, I thought 'fuck Jaxon is back' I couldn't bare see him now because I would tell him some home truths and I was not afraid to use my mouth.
It wasn't Jaxon.
Damn. God had just answered my prayers.
I needed a glass of water because he was blowing me away.
I got up "Well hello handsome." I said.
"Hello, You must be Freya? Heard alot about you" he answered politely.
I smirked. "That's funny because I haven't heard a damn thing about you.
She's been keeping you all to herself."
He chuckled "I don't know about that, I'm Kyle it's nice to meet you."
"I'm Freya, and yes, yes it is." I smiled.
He was on fire and Sofia kept him to herself, naughty naughty.
I bet she was playing away and it wasn't the other way around..
Kyle looked at me "So how are you?"
"I'm fantastic now your here, How are you and how do you know the Angelos?"
"I know Sofia, I rent a room from her, and I'm great cupcake." He grinned.
"Oh you do huh?" I couldn't help but bite my lip.
Kyle frowned. "You want a smoke?"
"Hell yeah.." I walked outside with him.
I hoped he had a good spliff, Some of the shit about is nasty.
Kyle sparked it. "I'll save you twos"
I couldn't help but stare at him.
He was hot as fuck and he smoked weed even better.
I took a drag and it was amazing, "So smooth." I remarked. "Nothing like the other shit my mates selling.."
Kyle nodded "This is the best around at the moment."
I was curious. "Where do you get it from, I know load of people that would be interested."
Kyle bit his lip "I sell it babe, It's my own business, What do you think about helping me sell it? I'll give you 20 percent.."
"50 percent and a couple of 10 bags and you've got a deal." I smirked.
Kyle laughed. "I've got better than weed, I've got pills and many more things that will take the edge off it's really good stuff.."
"Okay I'm in if you let me have 30 percent.." I suggested.
Kyle nodded. "Yeah you've got yourself a deal babes, This is strictly business it's Only between you and me.."
Sofia came downstairs, I said I was off now and that I would see her later.
If she needed me she could just give us a call.
Sofia
Jaxon had been calling all day.
I couldn't speak to him at that moment, He had made me so angry and I phycially couldn't look at him.
It would be better for both of us if he slept else where for a few days.
I slammed my phone down on the counter, I just couldn't be bothered with any hassle today..
Kyle frowned. "Are you okay? You and the fella fell out..?"
I sighed. "Something like that, You know when you just want a day to be over with?"
Kyle smiles. "Come have a cuddle, It makes everything better."
He wasn't wrong. He was so cuddly and warm, He smelt so good I could cuddle him for hours.
I quickly snapped back to reality and realised I shouldn't be cuddling another man.
"Thanks that was just what I needed" I smiled.
Kyle nodded "No problem. I can be your cuddler when ever you need, and your shoulder to cry on"
He kissed me on the head and headed upstairs.
Why was I hoping he kissed me on the lips?
I think there was definitely some flirting there that needed to completely disappear before Jaxon noticed.
I got a bottle for Ezmaya and warmed it up.
I headed upstairs and turned in for the night, snuggling with my princess. "You're all I'll ever need" I whispered and I gently kissed her on the forehead and put her in her cot.
"Night night baby girl, sweet dreams."