He really thought she had come to realize it.
But in fact, she is a fool, she has never, never, never realized.
The portrait that was not inscribed back then was also inscribed in that year.
I don't know the return date, but it is parting.
Once in a dream, you will not realize it in this life.
When I saw Gu Hong for the first time, I had forgotten the exact time. I only remembered that it was autumn. I was about fifteen or sixteen years old. I was sick, and my body was not good. Any winter solstice banquet and spring banquet, I can't go there. .
Finally, in those few days, my body was in good condition, and my father took me into the palace once, and Quandang took me out.
At that time, the emperor was not the emperor, but the fifth prince. I was taken into the palace by my father and happened to see her. She was the most silly palace lady I had ever seen.
The word "maid of the court" can finally become a woman, a minister, and a simple "person".
The most hungry woman, the most hungry minister, the most hungry person.
Gu Hong sees that she is a little older than my sister, that is, a little older than me, but I still don't know when she was born and how much older she is than me. I don't understand Gu Hong Jian, from beginning to end.
But I don't know why. The first time I saw Gu Hong and saw her lazily leaning against the railings of the corridor in the sun, my eyes were attracted.
I was in a bad shape since I was young, I rarely go out, and I don't have many contacts. They are all very disciplined people. A woman my age only knows one sister. My sister is dignified and beautiful, even in her sleep there will be no unruly postures, so I never expected that there will be women who openly soak in the sun.
She didn't fall asleep, she felt someone passing by, opened her eyes, glanced at us as if she didn't care, got up slowly, stretched her waist, saluted her father with a hippy smile, and jumped again. Jumped away.
I was a little curious, and said, "Father, who is this? Why can she sleep here? Why is no one talking about her?"
My father smiled and said: "It's the court lady next to the fifth prince, who seems to have no rules. If the fifth prince doesn't talk about her, who will say her?"
I stopped asking, obediently followed my father away, and then one time at home, I was on a whim and wanted to learn from her basking in the sun by the railing, but was stopped desperately by the servants. From that moment on, I Some envy her.
Later, many things happened in the family. My sister passed away and my illness was cured. The fifth prince was enthroned, and his father was half at home. I became an official... The second year of the fifth prince ascended the throne, the palace exam, I saw Gu Hong again. .
She was called Gu Hong at that time, and she was dressed in men's clothing, and her eyes were so bright, like the sunshine of many years ago.
The emperor's expression was very ugly.
I am a little unsure, but I am always envious in my heart.
I can't bask in the sun, she has been in the sun long ago.
Others felt that a woman would never be an official, but she did. she is always that beam of uncontrolled sunlight.
Although I entered the palace as an official a little earlier than her, she was obviously more proficient than me. On the day of the court, I saw her smashing Fan Shilang a little bit by word and with a smile, except for surprise. Besides, he is full of admiration and yearning.
I even wanted to talk to her, but after thinking about it for a long time, I didn't know what to say.
She always smiles, but in fact it is very difficult to approach, and it seems that she doesn't have much interest in anything. If she has to say something, she is probably interested in the affairs of the emperor.
Because I have seen her in the palace a long time ago, I can probably guess that the relationship between her and the emperor is probably much more than that of masters, servants and monarchs.
But to me, it doesn't really matter what their relationship is, because I don't even have a chance to talk to Gu Hongjian.
At that time, I didn't know anything, but I was able to vaguely feel that Gu Hong saw a little evasive to me. I didn't know why that was. I simply thought that she probably didn't like me.
But I didn't expect that the emperor found me and asked me to continue to trace Yao Tianao. Only then did I know that the person the emperor really liked was my sister.
What about Gu HongJiang?
What is she?
I was full of doubts, but after all, I did not ask. After all, what am I?
It's just that I finally know why Gu Hong Jiang doesn't like me anymore, just because my last name is Zuo.
I felt aggrieved by this "innocent disaster", and because of this, I was dissatisfied with Gu Hong Jiang , and occasionally provoke her with words, but she just glanced at me faintly, as if she didn't care at all.
I know that she only cares about the person on the dragon chair.
On my sister's death day, the emperor would definitely pay homage to my sister, but one year, I did not stay in the mansion, but went out to relax, only to see Gu Hong walking dejectedly.
Before I knew it, I followed her all the way.
I watched her enter the Drunken Immortal Tower, watched her drinking, watched her drunk, her face was abnormally red, and she saw tears flickering in her eyes.
From that moment, I knew how much she liked the emperor.
And I like her so much.
This love doesn't know where it comes from, but it makes me so unforgettable.
I watched her walk out of the Drunken Immortal Building, and finally got the courage to go up and support her, comfort her with a word or two, and reconcile her relationship, but she ran into Zhao Yunyuan first.
Zhao Yunyuan straightforwardly taught her a meal, and then took her away. I stood there in a daze, thinking, after all, I didn't have time to do anything.
I was still at a loss, but Yao Tianao was captured.
Yao Tianao was captured, and I was stunned when he said those things.
After learning that it was Gu Hong Jiang who killed my sister, I was even more at a loss.
However, this overwhelming makes me hate myself even more-what is so overwhelming? The one who was killed was my sister, and she was the culprit who killed my sister. She and I didn't even say a few words.
How can I be overwhelmed by such a person?
There is no doubt that I must hate her, I must hate her.
I also knew at that time why she always looked evasive and unhappy when she saw me. Because she is guilty, because my last name is Zuo.
Gu Hong Jiang saw that for me, from the initial ray of sunshine to the darkness under the sun, she made me to hate her, and also made me hate myself. I started to verbally verbally towards her, she would listen to me quietly every time, and then pretend to smile at me indifferently, but I won't be deceived anymore. I knew that she couldn't care less. I stared at her and watched her hands trembling slightly under her wide sleeves. This made me feel hateful, but inexplicably contented. That's it, if you can't love, then hate it.
The relationship between her and the emperor deteriorated day by day, until the emperor was going to marry He Fangning. I think they really broke up and can't go back.
On the day when the emperor married He Fangning, I found her because I actually wanted to comfort her, but when I said it, it turned into provocative words.
I have become accustomed to treating her like this, and she is probably used to it too, and she perfuse me, and finally leaves.
This time, I followed her again for a long time.
I watched her fall away, watched her jump up to the eaves, watched her stare at Chengxi Palace blankly.
She looked at Chengxi Palace and I looked at her.
The person in Chengxi Palace didn't know, and she didn't know either.
Later, I went to another place for some reason, and when I came back, I was surprised that she had gone to Huzhou.
I don't know anything, but I can only pretend to be calm. I am a little afraid that something will happen to her, but from the bottom of my heart I think she must protect herself.
But I was scared after all.
I was very happy to hear that she had won, but her methods made me angry. Why did she still have no repentance after so much, or did she go her own way?
I scolded her and impeached her, and Zhao Yunyuan was also on my side.
Sometimes, I am a little envious of Zhao Yunyuan. His attitude towards Gu Hongjian may seem to outsiders to give me a glance, but in fact it is very different.
He blatantly appreciates and disagrees with Gu Hong Jiang's view, so he can impeach Gu Hong's view, and he can also get a "Brother Zhao" that Gu Hong Jiang saw with a smile.
People who have no ghosts in their hearts are always so open. I envy him, but I don't want to be exactly like him.
Everything after that, like the world collapsed, everything was developing in an unexpected direction. Seeing Gu Hong's death in the battle, the bones can't be found.
He Fangning turned out to be my sister who I thought was dead.
All this seemed to be a silent ridicule, it was God who raised his hand and gave me a heavy slap.
I've been depressed for a long time, I have been drunk and crying bitterly, but they are all in no one place, in the middle of the night.
Because I don't even have the position or qualification to cry for her.
I thought, even if she came back as a desolate soul, she would just stay with the emperor and would not look at me.
This makes me more desperate and feel more ridiculous.
After half a year, I calmed down a bit.
But I learned from Zhao Yunyuan that she didn't even die, and even returned to the capital.
It's just that she has left the capital to travel around the world, and may never come back.
She is alive or dead, I am not there, I don't even know her arrival and departure.
Just as for so many years, my thoughts have nowhere to tell, my struggles are unknown, my love begins violently, and quietly dies.
There was even no chance to say goodbye.
But this is also good.
There is no beginning and no end.
From beginning to end, but without beginning and end.