Hoping to be unloved
I didn't know where I was going, all that was running in my head was to get out of my house and get away from them.
I have never been this angry to my parents before, never.
My vision is blurred and I didn't know where I went and when I had the chance to see clearly, I saw that I was in the park.
I sat on the swing with my head lowered down as I sniffled continuously, trying to stop myself from sobbing.
I look like an abandoned cat with a miserable look on her face.
Minutes had passed and then drops of rain suddenly fall from the sky. The wind picked up and I was suddenly shivering from the cold. The rain didn't even stop and continued pouring out with a never ending time.
I almost hollered to the heavens for making my day so miserable.
Then all of a sudden my vision was off and I was embraced with a warm blanket. It didn't take long for me to look at the person in front of me, his dark pool of eyes were full of concern and fear.
Is it because of me? Did I made him worry about me? This man who is always calm and unperturbed at world affairs? This man that's always composed whenever problems arise on his very eyes is feeling afraid?
Why?
Does he really have feelings for me?
Truly?
At that time, the anger in my heart vanished. Although I don't have any feelings for him, to see him this fragile and hurt because of me, it's just to unbelievable up to this day.
I just can't help but ask why a million of times in my head. There's a lot of reasons why he shouldn't like me, million of reasons why we should never be together.
"Why?" I couldn't help but asked hoarsely, my eyes held his and there was a slight ripple in his eyes.
"Don't you already know?" He responded with a calm tone. "Let's get you up" then hoisted me and before I knew it, I wobbled and almost fell from the ground and luckily avoided it if it wasn't for Wei Xiu's hold on me.
"Thank you" I quietly murmured under my breath.
The rain had thankfully stopped, my clothes are wet and so is his jacket. He wasn't in the right condition either, his whole body wet from the rain. He wasn't shivering like me, he was still guarding me from the cold wind that threatened to freeze me to death.
His hands held mine, his hold was tight on me and I couldn't even take it off. He lead me off back to my home whereas I just walked beside him with a very confused mind and a cough.
"Are you okay?" His tone was filled with worry and I couldn't help but avoid his eyes that seems to look at me with such tenderness.
"I'm fine" my throat is already sore, I think I have a cold now.
I could see my house maybe twenty steps from where I am right now but before I could step on my home, I was held back.
I look at him with a confused face, my eyes full of questions.
"Ying....I'm so sorry for today and....for what I did earlier"
I almost forgot about that and with his words, the anger in my chest has been revived.
"Why did you do that?! Aifen was hurt! She's hurt because of you and because of me! How can I face her now?!" I was almost crying at that point.
"I'm sorry" he said once more.
I shut my eyes, the pain in my heart was evident and I couldn't even stop the words as it passed my lips.
"Please stop....don't like me anymore"
His whole demeanor sunk into depression, his onyx eyes showed such intense pain that I couldn't even take one more look at him.
I heard a sigh and I opened my eyes which I instantly regretted doing the moment I take a peek at him.
He looks like someone whose life has been sucked out of him.
"I can't Liu Ying....you just can't unlove a person that easily"
And in that moment, I regret ever saying those words.
He nudge me as I step towards my home, my head swarming with thoughts as I walk without thinking.
My mother looks like she wanted to cry and my father has a heartbreaking look on his face. I was about to open my lips when my mother hugged me tightly.
It was the second time I was hugged this tight from what I remember. My mother is the type of person who never really show her fondness of me, she's the type to hide her love for me.
Now, I have also regretted saying those hurtful words to my mother but most of all, I hated the look on Wei Xiu's face.
Oh how much I wish I could turn back time and stop him from liking me.
I can't like him.
He's my best friend, whatever weird way of showing our friendship to each other looks like, I consider him as my family.
It's just....hard to think of him in that way.
Oh heavens, what am I gonna do now?
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Hi people! How are you today?! My hand hurts from helping my mom but it's worth the pain.
Anyways, how is your day? Mines somewhat better, I still feel sleepy as always.
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