"How, how did this happened !?" I cried
"I'm so sorry" alex hugged me
"C-Carlos where's Carlos?" I asked
"He's on his way... Alicia I'm sorry"
"My mom was the only person I had left, I'm mad at myself for not talking to her, I'm so stupid" I cried even more
"it's okay, look she's knew you weren't mad at her anymore"
"How alex? I literally pushed her away"
"No, you don't remember?"
"Remember what alex?"
"The day before I left, you told me if I can tell your mom that you love her, so I did . Your mom loved you so much Alicia don't take it on yourself!"
"I just- I just love her so much, she was the only person I knew who would never leave my side. I'm such a horrible person for punching her away when she did nothing wrong" I cried on Alex's shoulder
I just couldn't believe it... my mom was really gone?
I couldn't hold much of my tears in so I just cried every single tear out
"It's okay, cry everything out" alex patted/rubbed my back softly
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Today was my moms funeral, and I wasn't ready for it. I get to burry the amazing lady who raised me and took care of me for 18 years now , but she's in a better place now.
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There she is. Pictures everywhere of her made me want to cry even more 'I'm sorry Alicia' is all I heard
"It's okay Alicia she's with dad now" Carlos hugged me
Making me cry in front of everyone
"She left us, it wasn't her time to go. I WANT HER BACK CARlos" I cry even harder
"Alicia bebe" Liam takes me into his arms
- Alex POV
I was going to go hug Alicia, but Liam came
It hurt me to see that Alicia moved and it's been months probably a year already since I lost her, we're friends now, but I still love her as I always have.
"Alicia it's okay" I take her hand
"Alex I-" she comes to me
"Shh it's okay" I hug her
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Alicia pov:
The funeral was a great service the way my mom deserved it
Everything was going well, until now
Everyone left home, Carlos needed destiny for comfort
I was alone again, like always
Being alone made me think a lot , think of when I fell in a deep deep hole that I couldn't get out of, especially when I tried taking my life, wheres the happy girl I used to be? I'm broken inside and I can't tell anyone how I feel. I've been through so much lately. Things were going great so far. Now I just lost my mom, who won't be their for me at any cause.
I can't hold every pain I have in me. I can't.
I thought about everything
Why did I leave alex?
I started to sob
"Aye what's happening?" Alex came to me
"I just feel...so"
"Look it's okay. Just know that there will always be hard days and that's part of life. Know that everything happens for a reason and I mean it. Don't let yourself down, because when you do a lot thoughts go through your head. Today is one of those days and I saw it the moment you started to cry and it's okay I want you to know that I will always be here for you Alicia, I love you don't ever forget that." He hugged me
"Thanks Alex, I'm sorry for everything I have done and made you feel" I hugged him tighter
"Look we both made mistakes, but that's what it take to have a better future for us. Right?"
"Yes"
We hugged very tight, I felt so safe with him
"Hey babe they told me you will b-...Uh whats going on?"
Shit
I quickly stopped hugging alex and we both got up
"Alex was taking care of me" I said
"Are you okay?" He asked
Emotionally it got better
"Umm yes"
"Let's go inside"
I followed him and before I noticed alex left without saying goodbye
Is Liam the one for me is all I thought about when I was with him
Alex understands me more
"Babe?"
"Uh yes, sorry I was just overthinking"
"No need to be sorry" he kissed me
"I love you Alicia" he said looking into my eyes
I froze I didn't know what to say
He just kept looking at me
And I made the dumbest action ever
"I love you too!" I kissed him
Things got a little heated and before I knew it we were both in my room making out and one thing led the the other and it happened .
TBC...
Sorry for taking really long. I have been focusing on my health basically on me, self care you can say.
I hope everyone is doing good.
I went quick through this chapter .
Tell me so far how you feel about this??
Bye take care!😽