Sidharth turned her on the bed and comes over her putting his weight on his one elbow and other hand on her cheeks...he wiped her tears and kissed all over her face..he kissed her forehead and eyes at last and ask her not to cry anymore..
Tere sath itna sab hua lekin tune mujhe bataya kyu nahi kabhi..kya mai tere bharose ke layak nahi tha..kya mujhe ye sab janne ka haq nahi tha..
He asked her while cupping her cheek with one hand
Mujhe dar tha ki tu bhi shayad mere gharwalon ki tarha mujhpe yakin nahi karega..tu gussa ho jata hai ek dam..tujhe chhoti chhoti baat pe gussa aata hai to mai dar gayi thi ki tujhe pata lagega to tu shayad mujhe maaf na kare mujhe khud se alag kar de ya mujhe galat samjhe jese sabne samjha..aur mai tere se alag hone ka soch bhi nahi sakti hoon kabhi bhi..mujhe teri aadat hai mere lye agar is duniya me ab koi hai wo sirf tu aur maa hain..iske alawa mere lye ab koi zaruri nahi hai..sab mar gaye hain mere lye...jis din tujhse shadi hui thi usi din mene decide kar lya tha kabhi mud kar nahi dekhungi un sabko yahan tak ki apne papa ko bhi..unhone kabhi mujhe palat ke nahi dekha kabhi nahi pucha mai kesi hoon kabhi mera khayal nahi aya unhe aur jab mujhe unse ummeed thi ki wo mera sath denge mujhe samjhenge mujhpe bharosa karenge to unhone mujhe ghar se he nikaal dya ye kehkar ki unka mera koi rishta nahi hai..
Ye shehnaaz usi din mar gyi thi jab unke mun se wo alfaaz nikle the aur usi time mene khud ko...
She stops suddenly and look into his eyes
Khud ko kya??
He asked getting curious
K-kuch n-nahi..
She said Closing her eyes
Shehnaaz khud ko kya??mujhe pura sunna hai??
He asked sternly
Tu gussa to nahi hoga??
Promise kar gussa nahi hoga plz??
She asked while opening her eyea are closed
Fine..batao ab??
He said
Mene suicide karne ki koshish ki thi..
She said hurriedly and closed her eyes again
He didn't said anything for few seconds as he was shocked with the news..
When she didn't heard any answer she opened her one eye and saw him..his jaws are clenched and his nostrils are flared in anger..suddenly he moves away from her but she holds his arm..
Plz sidharth tune promise kia tha tu gussa nahi karega..
She said in a choking voice
He looked at her..tears falling from her eyes and a pleading look on her face
He sighed on laid down on bed again keeping his hand on her waist..
Ek baat meri kaan khol kar sun le tu aur apne dimag me bithale bohot ache se..life me kuch bhi ho jaye kuch bhi kabhi khud ko hurt nahi karegi tu..koi bhi problem ho sab thik ho jayegi lekin life kabhi wapas nahi milti hai..aur agar koi problem hai wo thik nahi ho rahi hai to chhod us problem ko aage badh apna dimag kisi aur chiz me laga apne aap ko busy kar..tu mujhe agar kuch samajhti hai to mere sar pe hath rakh ke meri kasam kha ki tu kabhi khud ko hurt nahi karegi..
He asked her to swear on him
Tu kab se kasam manne laga..
She asked in disbelief
Tu maanti hai na islye bola hai..aur bakwas band kar kasam kha meri jaldi se..
He asked her again
Teri kasam lage kuch nahi karungi khud ko..
She swears on him
Ab ye bata kya kia tha tune apne sath..aur sach bolna chhupana nahi..
He asked
Tu gussa ho jayega phir se..
She said
Nahi hounga..tu bol
He told her
Mujhe dar lagta tha khoon dekhkar to mai cut nahi kar sakti thi khud ko islye mai orphanage ke second floor se kood gayi thi..aur bura tab hua jab neeche giri to orphanage ke aas paas jo wire fence thi wo ghus gayi mere pait k paas..mene dekha he nahi koodne se pehle ki niche kya hai us waqt dimag nahi chal raha tha..mai 1 hafte tak coma me rahi thi lekin phr dheere dheere thik ho gayi..kuch din baad orphanage aayi wapas to bachon ne mujhe bohot himmat di aur aise mai apni taklif bhulne lagi..kuch din psychiatrist ko consult bhi kia tha..wahan ki jo supervisor thi wo bohot achi thi unhone doctor ke sath mere kuch sessions bhi karwaye...phr thik ho gayi thi..lekin kbhi kbhi bure sapne bhi aate hain dar bhi lagta hai..
She said
Aur jb tune ye sab kia to tere papa ko nahi bulaya kisi ne..
He asked
Call ki thi lekin wo aaye aur mujhe dekh kar chale gaye 5 minute me he..uske baad nahi aaye kabhi..bas jab shadi hui usse 1 hafte pehle unhone aakar bol dya ki rishta kar dya hai tujhe shadi karni hai ye aakhri baar kuch maang raha hoon uske baad kuch nahi mangunga..aur mene haan kar di
She said and snuggled in his chest more
Tere sage papa the pakka yakin hai tereko is baat ka..matlab DNA test karwaya tune kabhi..
He teased her
Sidhaaaarth..chappal maarungi tujhe bakwas karega to..
She whined and hit his chest
Are yaar tu pagal hai kya..ro kyu rahi hai itna..tujhe to khush hona chahiye ki unhone itna acha kaam kia hai apni life me..
He said
Tera na dimag kharab ho gaya hai..sadd gya hai tera dimag..dafa ho ja tu ab..
She said angrily
Are meri jaan mujhe pata hai ke mai kya keh raha hoon..dekh agar tere sath wo sab nahi hota to tu mujhe kese milti..tu mujhr ye bata teri wo life achi thi ya phir ye jahan ab tu hai mere aur maa ke sath..
He asked her cupping her face
Isme bhi koi puchhne ki baat hai..Ye wali tere sath wali..
She said immediately
To phir tu wo life soch kar pareshan kyu ho rahi hai..tu kyu darti hai naye logon se..kyu ladkon ke paas aane se darti hai..tu itni strong hai tune itna sab kuch dekha hai iska matlab tu bohot strong hai to darna kyu hai..mene apni life bohot normal jee hai..dad ki death ke baad khalipan tha lekin maa aur preeti aur neetu di hamesha sath thi..kbhi mehsoos nahi hone dya mujhe kabhi lekin tune sab kuch akele survive kia bachpan se to bata kon strong hua zyada..tu saamna kar unka..tu to khud unko mauka de rahi hai kuch karne ka..koi tere paas aata hai shor macha de nahi to laat maar..chappal maar..aaj bhi mujhe zarurat nahi padti aane ki agar tu khud us ladke ka saamna karti..jab pehli baar usne kuch kia ya tera picha kia to tujhe mujhe bolna chahiye tha nahi to college me bolna tha nahi to wahin uske mun pe ek chamaat maarti..mujhe to itna maarti hai..itni ta1at use bhi dikhati to wo bolta he nahi..tu dar gayi kisi ko bola he nahi to uski himmat aur badh gyi islye wo yahan tak pohcha..tu mujhe galat nahi samajh ki mai tujhe galat keh raha hoon..mai samjha raha hoon ki agar kuch hota hai ya tujhe galat lagta hai to saamna kar sabka dar nahi kisi se bhi..tujhe mere sath reh kar ye to pata he ho gaya hoga ki mai tere lye hamesha khada hoon..lekin mai nahi chahta ki mai tere lye ladun..mai chahta hoon mai tere sath khada rahun aur tu khud lade apne lye..tu bohot strong hai mujhse bhi zyada aur tujhe sirf apne andar se wo dar nikaalna hai..
He makes her understand
Tu itna samajhdar pehle se hai ya mere sath rehte hue ho gaya hai..
She chuckled at him
Moti kam bola kar maar khayegi abhi..
He slaps her arm lightly
Mai teri chot dekh sakta hoon jo tujhe tab lagi thi..
He asked her after sometime
Sidharth..
She said shyly
Abe yaar mai chot dekh raha hoon kuch kar nahi raha gadhi..
He said faking anger
She nodded and closed her eyes..
He puts off her t-shirt till chest and there were dark scars..he puts his finger on those scars and shehnaaz gasps..he saw her face kissed those scars and she shivered on his touch..he puts down her t-shirt..
Aainda tune aise koi bhi stunt kiye to samajh lyo mai mar gya tere lye..
He said faking anger
She again start crying and turn to another side..he remembered what he said and immediately turns her towards his side and said:
Sorry sorry mera wo matlab nahi tha sach me..bs mere mun se nikal gya..mai kahin nahi ja raha yahin rahunga tere sar pe aur tujhe roz pareshan bhi karunga moti baby..
She didn't respond
Abe yaar chal na paka mat ab moti..sachi mazak kia tha ab kabhi nahi bolunga ye baat..plz ab chup reh..kitna royegi tu..jab se wapas aaye hain bas ro rahi hai..kal ka pura din tujhe headache rahega itna rone ki wajah se..phr mera dimag khayegi..
He said while tickling her
Kamine..door..hatt..ammaaaa...sidharth.. plz..mujhe..gudgudi ho..rahi hai bohot...
She said in between laugh
Pehle promise kar ab royegi nahi..
He said
Haan kutte..promise..chhod mujhe..
She rolled on the bed unable to take the torture
Chal ab so ja thodi der..mujhe bhi neend aa rahi hai..
He said while wrapping his arm around her
Ek baat puchun??
She asked
Tujhe mujhse kuch bhi puchne k lye permission lene ki zarurat kab se pad gyi gadhi..
He said
Tu college kese aya aur tujhe us ladke ka kese pta..
She asked him
Tu kuch din se pareshan thi aur mujhe bata nahi rahi thi..mujhe pata chal gya tha kuch to gadbad hai mene pucha lekin tune nahi bataya..maa se pucha unhe bhi nahi pata tha aur phr preeti di se bhi baat ki unhe bhi kuch nahi pata to last option tera driver he bacha..aur to kahin tu jati nahi hai to unhone bataya us ladke ke baare me..phr mene unse mana kia ki tujhe lene nahi jayen wo mai jaunga dekhta hoon kon tere piche lagne ki himmat kar sakta hai..phr mai shoot pe gaya wahan busy ho gya aur bhool gaya ki tujhe lene jana tha..tune driver ko call ki aur usne mujhe aise mai wahan pe pohcha..guards ne bola tu andar hai aur mujhe jaante the to andar jaane dya..mene sab rooms check kye lekin jab washroom dekha to wo locked tha aise mujhe shak hua tere andar hone ka..
He told her sighed deeply
Aur agar tu nahi aata to mera kya hota..shayad mai kabhi tujhe mun nahi dikha paati ya shayad mai kabhi ghar wapas nahi aati..
She said getting deep thoughts
Ek chamaat padega to dimag thikane aa jayega samjhi..bohot ho gya ab..kitni der se samjha raha hoon strong ban lekin nahi wahi bakwas bar bar kar rahi hai..maarti uske aisi jagah jo wo dobara ye sab karne ke baare me sochta he nahi..aur aaj bol dya tune ki ghar nahi aati and all dobara kabhi aisi baat mun se nikaali to acha nahi hoga..teri life ab teri nahi hai mai bhi hoon usme..aainda kabhi aisa khayal aaye to yaad rakhna ki tera dost aur pati dono hoon mai..mujhse judi hai tu..ek baar ko pati hone ki wajah se gussa ho jaun lekin dost hone ke naate hamesha khada hoon tere sath..pehle to tere sath ab kuch galat hoga nahi mai is baat ka dhyan rakhunga lekin agar kuch ho bhi gaya tere sath galat to bhi tu meri he hai samjhi aur tu mujhe har condition me mere sath chahiye mere paas chahiye..ab ye gadha panti band kar aur so ja..
He said angrily and closed his eyes
Shehnaaz smiled at him and said:
Tere upar let sakti hoon??
Let ja lekin bolegi nahi kuch soegi chup chap..
He said
She climbed on him and said:
Ek kiss kar sakti hoon
He didn't said anything but smiled
She smiled back and kiss his lips for few seconds and keeps her head on his chest..
Thank you meri life me aane k lye aur mujhe itna saara pyaar dene k lye..i love you in a positive way..
I love you positive way me konsa hota hai be..
He asked in surprise
Friends wala kutte..ab so ja bohot bolta hai chup he nahi hota..kab se bol raha hai mai ma-
before she speaks more he puts his hand on her mouth and said:
Shut up shehnaaz and sleep