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By ifIeverhadaHeart

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Β«Tenderness is forbidden with you. Sometimes I feel like your only desire is to be shatteredΒ» Language EN M... More

author's note (an apology)
Wake up, wake up, wake up
I think I might've inhaled you
I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
This charming man
Who'd want to be man of the people when there's people like you?
I read between the lines and touched your leg
Everybody wants to know if we fucked on the bathroom sink
I guess I must be dreaming about feeling something instead of you
There's so many guys like this
Where do his intentions lay?
I'll be the only heartbreaker
Will we talk in the morning?
Tonight baby girl we'll have a party and they'll just be invisible hosts for you
Please, be naked
I'll crack it open just to see what's inside your mind
What if it's not meant for me? (Love)
How can I relate to somebody who doesn't speak?
Pretty girls make graves
So can I call you?
No, I don't want your body but I hate to think about you with somebody else
I asked myself why can I never let anyone in
A pair of frozen hands to hold
I got no car and it breaks my heart but I've found a driver, that's a start
Oh that grace, oh that body, oh that face makes me wanna party
If you gave me a fresh carnation I would only crush its tender petals
She's Sisyphus even in a corporate scene and they're calling her dumb slut
I wanna see you - but you're not mine
I get the fear, the more I get you near, the more you fade away
It's not my home, it's their home, and I'm welcome no more
I'm in love with a boy I know, but that's a feeling I can never show
Was it never enough that we should simply want to be together?
I was a heavy heart to carry, my beloved was weighed down
I think I did something terrible to your body
Do you wanna leave at the same time?
Oh my God, I did it again, I'm destroying innocence
The End
Sing me to sleep
soundtrack

last author's note (another apology and a thank you)

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By ifIeverhadaHeart

JUN. 15, 2020


This story was the product of my own personal experience with lockdown. Writing this thing gave me purpose when life was nothing more than wake up/eat/read the news/shake your head/try to sleep/repeat. As the product of such an extra-ordinary period, one would have expected this to be something better than what it actually is. Trust me, I can do better than this. But, sincerely, it wasn't supposed to be good. It was only supposed to fill all that spare time I had and didn't know how to handle.

Now it's different. Lockdown in my country is over. I'm trying to come back to some sort of normalcy. And that for now means no more time for writing.

I don't think Arianna and Matty's story needs more pages, after all. And I bet you're all fucking tired of this shit-show.

I'd just like to thank all the people who read, voted and commented this inconsistent bunch of English words I don't even know how I put together. It was my very first attempt to write something in a language that is not mine, and it's been often frustrating, cause I'm used to choose my words with maniacal care, but clearly it wasn't possible in this case. Despite this, I hope in this sea of ​​more or less accurate words, someone will get what I mean. So thank you. All I found in this corner of the Internet was kindness. I take with me all your lovely words. And thank you, of course, to lenasogaard1506 who patiently edited the chapters and fixed every mistake made by my Italian ass without asking anything in return. Thank you a thousand times.

In closing, this story wouldn't be here if we had not lived through troubled times. We're still stuck in hard times. So, please, take care of yourself in this crazy world we live in. Be kind to everyone. Fight all kinds of injustice. It is possible to speak up and stay cool. And remember people need people.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a master degree to get and it wouldn't be nice to fail all of my exams this summer.

I'll see you somewhere down the road, maybe.

F.

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