Jungkook's perspective
My feet led me straight into the depth of dense trees, the breezes engulfed me entirely as I stepped into the darkness.
Clouds hid the only source of light, the moon but it didn't stop me as I walked further into the darkness with downflowing eyes.
I felt so lost and every source of hope had just faded away and the heart was left with burning emotions only. I was tripping, I was walking mindlessly because I was living in a reality that wasn't real. I felt so torn. He was hurt, he was torn and helpless because of me.
Why can't we love when this is all that we want?
Finally the only source of light caught my attention when I found myself standing at the entrance of the church. My eyes gleamed with burning emotions and tears but I wiped them away fiercely.
Candles were glowing all around in a little dark hallway to the entrance of the church. Framed paintings of God and Goddesses were hanging on the walls adorned by designed patterns, giving glimpses of heaven. A big chandelier was just hanging above my head. The surrounding was holy and aesthetic yet I was feeling as if a storm burst over me.
I took a deep breath and stepped in as I walked through the aisle, eyes fixed on the figure of God when my heart swoll up with painful memories.
I stood now, taking my hands out of my pockets to now join in front of God. My eyes gleamed with so many emotions. I was hurt and upset with God for the very unfair event that had me standing there with no strength and will left inside my body.
"God, they say I am your son, why are you hurting your child this way? I just wanted to have a life of love but all you did is try to keep me away from it. How many more tests are left to prove myself? Isn't that enough now? I am tired. I am giving up." I whispered with my crackling voice as I tried to control my tears.
"God, just why? Why is love considered a sin? Why can't we just be together? Why? He is your child. Are you happy to see him suffer? I want nothing but him to be happy but he is suppressing his emotions and now…" I pleaded, kneeling in front of him.
"...take him out of his miseries. If our love isn't right, punish me, do me wrong because I was the one to begin this sin. Hurt me the way you want but not him. If these tests were not enough for you to test my love then I don't know what to do. Oh lord, I am giving up now." I sobbed my lungs out.
".... but if it's for him. I am not giving up any moment. Try me as much as you want. I am standing here in front of you. If loving is a sin then yes I am sinner but he doesn't deserve this. He doesn't deserve this, he doesn't deserve this. No, he doesn't."
My fainting voice echoed in the empty hall, returning me my said words back but I had no sign of assurity. The silence was only there. I bit my lip and stood up now. My patience was well tested and I stood up now.
I aggressively wiped away my tears with my sleeves as I walked away fiercely out of the church again.
But then suddenly my feet froze for a moment when air collided with wind chimes. The sound of ringing started tickling my emotions. So many thoughts out of my memories were forcing me to stay still a little more there.
I turned my head out of the window of the hallway to find the same tree, the cherry blossom tree whose buds were starting, giving the tree a rebirth.
Tears had filled my eyes. The same tree, the same place when it all started and where it all started.
Spring had always been my favorite season but now my life was darkened, all of my happiness was shedded like the leaves in autumn and my life was in a long-term autumn. There was no sign of the arrival of hope and happiness like the spring season which was when I first saw him.
I was tired of tortures the God was giving to test my love. I was giving up on it but the thought of him could never let me be weak.
My feet slowly dragged me to the place under the tree. The tree was standing still how it always did before. We grew much older but the tree was the same and one more thing was the same with the tree and that were the carved letters of our names joined with a heart in between.
My fingertips brushed against the surface of the wooden bark. Tears were flowing all of the time.
And the flashback started when it all started…
His endearing smile, his ocean blue eyes, his crimson freckles, his melodious voice, his feather like soft hands.
His body embraced by the cream shaded robe with a cross hanging through his neck. His arms were holding the cat. The sound of his giggles. He looked so happy with no sign of pain and helplessness.
"I wish we could never meet, I wish I wouldn't be the one to force you into this. I am sorry my love. I am so sorry but I wish you could always be happy. I am sorry, please forgive me if you can… please…"
I sobbed, resting my head against the trunk as the tears disappeared in the grass. I felt so weak, so helpless and lost maybe if no one would approach me that night, I might have just disappeared somewhere but then a warm hand patted my shoulder.
"Jungkook… he needs you." And I quickly turned around to see Jimin, eyes glistening with tears but face wearing a smile.
"W-what?"
"Yes, he finally opened his eyes, Jungkook. He needs you so much. Just go to him, will you please?"
And maybe the lanterns of hopes were lightened up. I cried more but this time with pure joy when I pulled Jimin in a hug.
"Don't let him wait."
I nodded repeatedly, smiling with joy when I ran back to him without any more thoughts except for his and only his thoughts.
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"Look who's here." Yoongi smiled at me and stepped aside for me to walk into the room.
I stepped in hesitantly and my gaze eventually landed on him, his arms spreading swiftly as he saw me walk-in and I hung my head low. He was beyond something I deserved but I stepped closer and was caged in his embrace as I sat down on the edge of the bed where he was.
No words, nothing but just feelings and their expressions as we sat down crying our hearts out loud. The room was left with only us, holding onto each other dearly.
He broke the hug to softly rub his palms against my cheeks, wiping the salty droplets away.
"Don't cry." He whispered but I just couldn't hold back, I rested my head against his, kissing on his forehead and he just closed his eyes, feeling my lips on his skin.
"I love you so much." I whispered softly with no delay further and he snuggled his face in the crook of my neck.
"I know." And he finally whispered, considering my love for him and the heavy weight of my chest was again lessened.
"I know you do, Jungkook."
I just hummed, playing with his hair when we both stayed connected and I could feel that he was the only safe place, my safe place just like a home.
And the way he pulled my hand closer to his lips, kissing it softly had me constantly wondering in ecstasy and the eruption of an endless smile on our lips told that yes everything was going to be alright.
"Thanks lord." I whispered, looking above but the best was yet to come.
Maybe God had finally considered our love, not as a sin.
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They will finally get justice for their endless love.
I hope you stay till the end which is soon.
Hope you guys enjoyed!