A full year and a few months have passed and as winter approaches, Siyeon slowly studied the ways on how to knit a scarf.
She went through rehab to battle her smoking addiction, it was a tough path but her constant thoughts about Bora fighting alone to survive ignited her motivation to carry on.
Soon, Siyeon was able to completely throw her smoking habits away. She made sure to burn every last cigarette pack she owned to fight off temptation and to also celebrate her victory.
She also became Minji's wingwoman after accidentally catching the woman stalking Yoohyeon's Instagram account. She often pushes the silver haired girl to the therapist in a cunning way, making Minji flustered every time she did something to get the two closer.
Unfortunately, her trauma was still there. And although she was slowly recovering from it, nightmares occasionally visit her from time to time. Siyeon found a way to push her thoughts away every time she gets into an episode of panic. This time, she knew better than to succumb to her emotions.
The weather was getting colder and colder as time passed by, and Siyeon knew what she needed to do. She knocked on the door of Minji's house, where Yoohyeon also stayed, to ask for help in her plan.
She went inside the building after Minji opened the door, immediately looking for a silver haired woman. Once she came into view, Siyeon immediately started begging on her knees.
"I want to learn how to knit a scarf," Siyeon began, slightly embarrassed,"Please teach me how,"
A loud laugh echoed throughout the house. Yoohyeon doubled over, rolling on the floor clutching her stomach as she laughed.
"The goth queen, wanting to learn how to knit?" Yoohyeon cackled,"Unbelievable,"
"Oh shut it," Siyeon whined,"I have a reason,"
"Sure," Yoohyeon snorted,"Follow me,"
Siyeon followed behind the woman's footsteps as she led her to her room. She then began pulling out knitting materials one after the other as she explained the steps of basic knitting. Siyeon listened intently as she watched Yoohyeon knit a flat dog pattern.
Weeks passed as Siyeon carefully knitted the scarf. It didn't take long for her to finally have a full length, red scarf.
The snow started to fall as Siyeon quickly drove over to the hospital, with Minji and Yoohyeon fearing for their lives at the backseat due to the speed Siyeon was going at.
"LEE SIYEON DON'T YOU DARE CRASH," Yoohyeon yelled, screaming.
"Don't worry we're here," Siyeon laughed as she went in the parking lot. Quickly getting out of the car after killing the engine to make her way to her lover.
She gently opened the door to the white room as her gaze landed on her sleeping lover. She eyed the elephant plush toy laying on the bed beside her. A smile formed on her lips as she took Bora's hand in hers.
"Hello, love," Siyeon smiled,"I'm back,"
"I promised you a song every time i'm here," She continued, gently placing the scarf on the bedside table,"I also made you a little something for winter,"
The wolf continued talking to the sleeping beauty as the two quietly entered the room. Minji watched with amusement while Yoohyeon had a big smile on her face.
"You're really nice, you know," Minji chuckled,"But maybe a bit too nice,"
"Thanks," Yoohyeon snorted,"Be glad to have me,"
"Dream on," Minji teased, rolling her eyes, resulting to an elbow to the side from the taller.
Yoohyeon wouldn't admit it, but she felt at ease around Minji. If she was going to be honest, Minji played a big role in helping her move on from Siyeon. Minji was always there every time she burst into tears. Minji was always there every time she yearned for Siyeon's presence. Minji always understood her.
On the other hand, Minji treated the situation professionally. She fought her growing feelings for the woman every time she would have an outburst. Minji often caught herself hurting whenever Yoohyeon opened up about her love for Siyeon. Her feelings grew so strong as the year passed, she couldn't even fathom the thought of Yoohyeon hurting herself just for the sake of anyone. Minji occasionally stared at the woman, admiring her as she moved while her heart slowly broke into pieces.
I love her, but I can't have her.
Yoohyeon definitely brought color and happiness into her dull, lonely life. She wanted love like what Siyeon and Bora had. She wanted to be held, to be touched, to be kissed and to be appreciated.
Why do I always fall for the people I can never have?
"You two look so awkward," Siyeon teased,"Something happen?"
"Shut it," Minji pouted, rolling her eyes which earned a laugh from the wolf.
"I didn't get to ask you, but," Yoohyeon began, scratching her cheek as she felt embarrassed,"What's your take on love?"
Minji nearly choked on her own breath while Siyeon made a twisted, hilarious face of shock.
"I want love like Siyeon and Bora," Minji straight up answered, heat creeping on to her cheeks.
"Me too," Yoohyeon chuckled, sticking her tongue out at the wolf as she laughed.
"Just date each other already," Siyeon teased as she made a fake gagging sound.
Yoohyeon's face turned beet red as she jokingly shook her head,"No way!"
The two immediately froze as Siyeon glanced at the therapist with apologetic eyes. A smile formed on Minji's lips as she laughed it off, waving her hand in front of her face as she agreed with the taller.
Hours passed and as they went out the building to go to their respective houses, Siyeon pulled Minji aside to talk.
"Minji, i'm sorry for earlier," Siyeon sighed,"I shouldn't have,"
"No, it's fine," Minji smiled,"I kinda wanted to know what she would say too,"
"Now i'm 100% certain that I should really let her go,"
"Minji...,"
"Don't beat yourself up over it, Siyeon. I had this coming, don't worry,"
She smiled as she turned to get in her car, Yoohyeon already asleep in the passenger's seat.
And so Siyeon went straight home.
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Weeks passed and snow started to fall. Siyeon informed the two that she will be out for an indefinite amount of time to work on a set of songs for a certain artist. She then made her way to the entertainment company after bidding her farewells to the two.
Yoohyeon then proceeded to always bring Phil with them to the hospital. The boy told stories of his life at Handong's place, his new interests, his dreams and new things he learned.
One snowy day, Minji and Yoohyeon stayed beside Bora as Phil remained at Handong's place. The atmosphere was comfortable and silent as the two minded their own business.
"Hey," Yoohyeon grinned,"You alright? You seem on edge lately,"
"Definitely," Minji chirped as she faked a smile, which didn't seem to convince Yoohyeon.
"Tell me what's up," Yoohyeon insisted, holding the woman's hand as an attempt to comfort her with the action.
"Yoohyeon," Minji sighed, avoiding her gaze,"Let's not,"
"Minji unnie," Yoohyeon called with a worried expression,"Whatever that is, i'm willing to listen,"
"You won't like it,"
"Try me,"
Minji felt tears sting her eyes as she chewed her lips.
"Please, Yoohyeon. I don't want to risk our friendship," Minji swallowed, fighting back the tears.
"How bad is it?" Yoohyeon anxiously asked,"I won't leave, no matter what it is,"
"Yoohyeon, it's not-,"
"It's okay, Minji unnie. You can trust me,"
Yoohyeon's grip on the woman's hand tightened as she nodded her head in reassurance.
"I have feelings for you," Minji whispered, her breath shaky,"I fell for you, Yooh,"
"...What?" Yoohyeon blinked a stunned look on her face.
"I fell in love with you," Minji confessed as she let out a dry laugh,"I know. Stupid, right?"
"I couldn't fight my feelings," She added,"I wanted them to disappear. But instead, they grew. They grew so strong,"
Yoohyeon stared at the therapist, her mouth slightly open as she searched for the right words to say.
"Let me get some fresh air," Minji trembled as she retracted her hand from Yoohyeon's grip, quickly making her way out of the room.
She wanted to call after her, she wanted to confess her feelings now that she was aware of the latter's feelings. She thought back to Siyeon's constant teasing and she cursed at herself for not noticing earlier.
She liked Minji.
And Minji liked her.
She wanted to chase after her, to hug her, to tell her that she had feelings for her too. But she couldn't. She was stuck there, on the chair as she heard a faint groan from inside the room. Her eyes immediately darted to the sleeping figure beside her.
"Bora?"
And as she called her name, Bora's eyes slowly opened.