Let It Be
"In the eighth grade, my English class had to read Romeo and Juliet. Then, for extra credit, Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts. Sal Scaferillo was Romeo. As fate would have it, I was Juliet. Al the other girls were jealous. But I had a slightly different take. I told Mrs. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. For starters, she falls for the one guy she knows she can't have. Then she blames fate for her own bad decision. Mrs. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play, choice sometimes goes out the window. At the ripe old age of 13, I was very clear that love, like life, is about making choices. And fate has nothing to do with it. Everyone thinks it's so romantic. Romeo and Juliet. True love. How sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink a bottle of poison, and go to sleep in a mausoleum...she deserved whatever she got."
I sat in my car eying the bloody pimple that had decided to form on my forehead. My skin was naturally clear but on occasion it just decides to break out. I was playing around with my hair trying to hide it when I noticed a figure standing near my car. I glanced over and saw Addison staring at me. I raised my eyebrows as she waved, and I sent her a smile and a slight wave back. I grabbed a band-aid from my glovebox and opened it placing it over to pimple. I chuckled to myself seeing that it was hello kitty one. Bloody Meredith. I straightened it out and tried to cover it as best as I could with me hair before signing and getting out of my car heading into work. I walked over to the elevator and squished in as there were so many people already in it.
"I wouldn't wish this on anyone. It's like someone reached in and ripped my guts out." A lady behind me said to who I'm guessing is her boyfriend. I reached over and pressed my floor before standing up straight.
"Baby, you had food poisoning." Her boyfriend replied.
"I had one, lousy restaurant clam. Wait a minute. Where's billing again?" The lady asked.
"The basement." Derek and I said at the same time. I glanced back at him and rolled my eyes before facing forward again. I was walking through the lobby when I noticed Weiss. I smiled and ran over.
"Weiss?" I yelled at the same time as Derek. Weiss smiled at me and I ran over hugging him.
"Evangeline! How are you my little sister?" Weiss asked and I chuckled as he spun me around off the floor.
"I've been good." I replied as he set me on the ground.
"Derek! I've been looking for you!" Weiss said as he and I walked up the stairs towards Derek. We went into a room and sat down. "A month ago, her mother died. Ovarian cancer." Weiss expressed that; his wife's mother had died. My eyes widened in shock.
"Catherine died?" Derek asked and Weiss nodded biting his lip. I sighed.
"I'm sorry." I expressed.
"And Savvy, She's...I mean, you know how close they were. I mean, all she can think about is this breast and ovarian cancer gene." Weiss said and I nodded glancing at Derek.
"BRACA." I mumbled and Derek nodded. Weiss left and went to find Sav and Addison I walked around with Derek.
"Derek, she doesn't have cancer but she's at high risk of getting it, and if she had kids they would too. This is what she wants." I said as Derek and I walked into the meeting room past Izzy to see Sav arguing with Weiss.
"Which gives her up to an 85% chance of getting cancer, Weiss." Addison said and Derek glanced from her to Weiss.
"And a 15% chance she won't." Derek said as he walked around and kissed the top of Savvy's head. I walked over and gave Savvy a hug before sitting at the other end of the table.
"I'm not betting my life on 15%." Savvy said.
"Were you invited? Either of you?" Addison asked and I rolled my eyes at her.
"Weiss asked us to come." Derek replied.
"I thought it might help." Weiss said.
"Help what? I'm sorry, Derek, Evie, because I love you's and I'm really glad to see you both. But until you, Derek grow a uterus and watch your mother die from this disease, you don't get a vote." Savvy said and I sent her a soft smile in understandment.
"Did she say they tried for a baby?" Derek asked Addison and she nodded.
"Yes, she did." Addison replied.
"Having a hysterectomy is going to throw..." Derek started but this time I cut him off.
"Derek!" I exclaimed making him stop talking.
"We've been trying for months." Savvy said and Weiss shrugged.
"Why give up now?" Weiss asked.
"Come on, we've talked about this. There are other ways to make a family. We can adopt." Savvy started but Weiss wouldn't listen to her completely.
"Savvy, I just..." Weiss started getting frustrated and upset not knowing the right thing to say.
"No. No! I'm not talking about this." Savvy said sitting up in her chair pushing it backwards a little.
"Let's just take a step back. All right, take a deep breath and think about this." I asked and Addison sent me a look while Derek nodded agreeing with me.
"I've already thought about it, Evie. This...this is going to happen." Savvy concluded Addison picked up her chart and held it out for Izzy.
"Dr. Stevens, get a complete history and do her pre-op labs. Get her schedule hit a double-masterctomy and consult Dr. Quenar from plastics for a reconstruction." Addison expressed and Weiss wouldn't have it.
"Derek?" He asked.
"Addison this conversation is not over." Derek yelled.
"She is my patient, Derek. We're doing a bilateral prophylactic oophorectomy and hysterectomy tomorrow. Get moving." Addison said as Izzy stood there not knowing what to do. She glanced at me and I nodded towards her before she left. Derek stood up and followed her while I stood up and walked in a different direction. I stood in the elevator with Meredith and George when the doors opened and Derek walked in.
"Well, this is fun, again. I like Hello Kitty, by the way. Very pink. Very cheerful." Derek said and I glared at the back of his head.
"Daisy works in billing. Which is where?" George asked and I signed.
"In the basement." Derek and I said at the same time again for the second time that day.
"How's Weiss?" I asked and Derek nodded.
"As good as he could be at the moment." Derek replied and I nodded. The elevator opened and again we went our seperate ways before the end of the day came and I pressed the button for the elevator yet again. It opened to reveal Derek standing in the back corner.
"So, apparently we both live in this elevator." Derek said and I heard him close his phone and step towards me. I ignored him and crossed my arms. "Evangeline..." Derek said and I continued to look straight ahead. He stepped around to stand in front of me and I rotated my head so that I wouldn't look at him. "Evie, you could at least acknowledge I exist." Derek said and the elevator dinged, and the doors opened to reveal Addison. I stepped back as Derek turned to face forward. Addison stepped in.
"Hello, Dr. Grey." Addison said and I nodded towards her.
"You ready to go?" Addison asked Derek and he nodded.
"I was on my way." Derek said. I noticed his eyes glance back to me before he looked at Addison. The doors opened and they walked out.
"Tell Weiss and Savvy I said to have a nice time." I expressed to them and Derek turned and nodded towards me before I turned and walked in the opposite direction. I finished changing and walked back into the lobby and noticed Weiss. I walked over and sat next to him.
"Weiss?" I asked and he rolled his eyes at me.
"Don't talk to me. Keep walking." Weiss said obviously drunk. I sighed and shook my head.
"You should get some sleep, sober up so you're ready for Savvy's surgery. Come on, I'll drive you." I expressed and Weiss glared at me.
"Oh. I'm supposed to hold her hand while they rip her apart? That's the definition of love?" Weiss asked and I sighed leaning forward.
"You can do this." I mentioned and he shook his head.
"Maybe I can't. Maybe i just like to screw my wife." Weiss said and I shook my head.
"Weiss." I started shaking my head a couple more times in disagreement.
"That's what she'll think if I'm not there." Weiss said.
"No, you're gonna be there." Derek said as he walked over to us. He glanced at me before sitting in a seat diagonal from Weiss. Weiss chuckled.
"This is coming from a guy who packed his bags in the middle of the night drove 3,000 miles to live in a trailer." Weiss said and I chuckled and sent Weiss a nod.
"Yeah, well, what am I doing with Addison now? Hm? I'm trying to work it out. I don't know, am I out of my mind? I don't know, you tell me. It's about the ring. It's about the vows. Savvy didn't screw around with you with your best friend. She's looking for support. If you don't give that to her now, if you don't give her that support, then what the hell am I doing?" Derek explained and I watched him carefully. I signed before kissing Weiss's cheek.
"Savvy is a beautiful women, inside and outside, no matter if she has this surgery or not. She will always be beautiful." I said before standing up mumbling a goodnight to both men and walking away, leaving the hospital to go home and sleep. It had been a long day. I came to work the next day and helped get Savvy ready for her surgery. I kissed her forehead before they wheeled her away and into the OR. I waited and they finished. I smiled and walked away before pressing the elevator. The doors opened and Derek was leaning against the back of the elevator looking like a sad puppy. I walked in and turned to face to door. I sighed.
"I miss you." I said and I felt Derek stand right behind me and he took a deep breath before breathing out. His head slightly touched mine and I flinched.
"I can't" He whispered before walking around me and stepping off the elevator. I watched him and sighed.
"Maybe Romeo and Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while. And then their time passed. If they could have known that beforehand, maybe it all would have been ok. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was grown up, I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone. And that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even now, I believe that for the most part, love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and dagger and making your own happy ending, most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intensions, fate wins anyway."