VanossGaming (Evan Fong)-
You just felt like you aren't enough for him...sure you grew up with Evan and you love him more than life but...I don't know you just have a gut feeling that he can just do better than you and because Evan is busy and whenever he makes videos or hangs with his friends, he just looks so happy and telling him that you feel this way would make him upset and you didn't want to be a bother or make him upset...plus you thought it was kinda ridiculous...so you kept that depressed feeling to yourself...
Evan was currently in his office recording videos with his friends and you can hear him laughing next door. You were in his room curled under the covers trying your best not to cry but your thoughts were just destroying you and you don't know what to do besides suffer in silence...
You clenched your fists tightly against the blanket. You shoved your head into the pillow, biting your lip so hard you drew blood. You felt the lump in the back of your throat, your heart raced, your chest hurt...you didn't know how much longer you could keep it in.
You squeezed your eyes tightly shut and took a few deep shaky breaths. Evan realized the time as he ended his video with the others. He hasn't seen nor heard from you in a while, he was actually beginning to worry. He got up from his chair and headed to his room,
"Hummingbird?" Evan called out, you gasped as your body started to tremble. He was now concerned and worried as he headed over to the bed "Y/N are you okay?" He asked, you were afraid to say anything cause you knew if you said anything you would burst into tears. Evan took the covers off you to see your trembling body. You covered your face with your hands trying so very very very hard to keep it together,
"Hey, Hey, Hey, what's wrong?" Evan asked now being very worried and concerned. He gently grabbed your hands and pulled your shaking body on his lap. He hugged you tightly and rubbed your head and back. He gently rocked you as you gripped onto his shirt and hid your face in his chest "Baby what's wrong, please tell me" Evan pleaded.
You just sighed and sobbed in his chest which made him sigh as he held you close, kissed your head and waited until you stopped crying...which took a long time but to you it felt good to get it all out...you just hated you brought Evan into this useless mess.
When you managed to stop crying. Evan pried you off him and cupped your red, puffy and tear stained cheeks. He looked at you with worry and concern "Baby what happened?" He asked wiping your face of tears, you sighed "I-I just don't feel good enough" you whispered as your voice was basically gone. Evan furrowed his eyebrows in confusion "What do you mean?" he asked softly,
You sighed and shrugged "I just feel like you can do better than me" you whispered shamefully. Evan sighed "Baby we've known each other forever and no one will ever ever replace you. I love you more than you could ever imagine and you are good enough and you will always be good enough for me and I love you. If you ever ever feel sad or insecure please come talk to me because I don't like when you're upset but it gives me the opportunity to make you smile and laugh because I love when you're happy and seeing you sad makes me not only feel like a terrible best friend but terrible boyfriend cause I don't know if I made you upset or what made you upset and I don't want to say the wrong thing and I'm rambling here but what I'm trying to get at is even tho I'm terrible at serious situations whenever you have a problem, just know you can always come to me and I will do whatever I can to make you smile and laugh" He rambled, you giggled and smiled at his nervous rambling,
He smiled softly and pampered your face with kisses which made you blush and smile "I love you so much" You whispered, he smiled and pressed his forehead against yours "I love you so much too Hummingbird and I always will" he said and pecked your lips a few times which made you blush and smile and felt so much better.
Daithi De Nogla (David Nagle)- Even tho you were diagnosed with Depression as a teen, your brother, friends and boyfriend David have made you feel so much better...but there are most days where you do get depressed for no reason but most times you would go to David or Brian for support and they would always make you smile and laugh...but lately you've been getting some hate on both YouTube and Social media that people are saying David is only using you cause you're Brian's sister and it's all for views and whatnot and that hurts you cause you know David is not using you and it's not for the views.
You know that everyone gets hate but your depression just makes things worse and twists everything around to the point to where you think...maybe he is using you...maybe it's all to get more views and you can't think straight or think of logically reasons why it would or wouldn't be true...
You were currently in your bedroom lying in the dark, under the covers. You sniffled and choked on sobs as you tried to stop your overthinking but you just couldn't stop...What if David was using you? What if your brother planned it all? What if it was all for views, subs and money? You can't stop, your thoughts couldn't and wouldn't stop.
Your head hurt, your chest hurt, your face hurt from sobbing and you just couldn't do it and you couldn't go to David nor Brian cause not only were they making videos but it was about them and you thought it was ridiculous so why bother?
However, both Brian and David got a bit worried cause you haven't left your room all day so David went to go check on ya. He knocked on your door which made you jump and gasp a bit as you held your hand over your mouth trying not to burst into tears "Love? Are you awake? Can I come in?" He asked, you didn't say anything cause if you did, you would burst into tears right then and there.
Your door opened which made you tremble more trying to hide the pain and tears, but your brain just wouldn't stop and all you wanted to do was scream, "Love? Are ya okay?" David asked softly as he came over to you and sat on the edge of your bed. He took the covers off your head to see your trembling body, he gasped as he pulled you on his lap and held you tightly "Love what's wrong? What happened?" He asked being genuinely worried and concerned about you,
You couldn't hold it in anymore as you just sobbed your life away. Everything hurt, you were in so much pain and you just sobbed and sobbed while David sighed and said nothing while holding you close and humming softly while trying to calm you down.
After a good 25 minutes of you crying, you couldn't cry anymore. You wheezed slightly and coughed which made David sigh as he pried you off him and cupped your red, puffy, warm, tear stained cheeks "Love what happened?" He asked worryingly,
You sniffled and didn't want to tell him cause you thought it was ridiculous. You shook your head "I-It's ridiculous" you stated hoarsely, David brushed your head out of your face and kissed your head "It can't be if it made ya this upset" He stated,
You sighed and bit your lip slightly "I-It's all the hate David. I'm getting so much hate on how yer only dating me cause I'm Brian's sister, or how yer only dating me for the views and I can't take it, ma brain won't stop thinkin' about it" You stated and looked at your lap feeling ashamed and embarrassed.
David cupped your cheeks and made you look at him and planted a gentle, loving, sweet, passionate and lingering kiss upon your lips. He caressed your cheek lovingly which made you instantly swoon over him...He pulled away and pampered your face with kisses,
"Darlin' people will do absolutely anything to make ya upset and it's workin' You know nothing the haters say are real and that all they want it to make ya upset. You need to learn to ignore them and I know it's hard but ya know I love ya more than Youtube and Life itself and I would never ever ever do that to ya...neither would Brian...I love you so very much and words can't even describe how much I love ya, so please if yer ever feelin' this way please come to me so I can help okay?" He asked softly,
Your heart couldn't help but pound with passion as you felt butterflies like you always do when David makes you feel better. You blushed and smiled softly "I-I love ya too David, I'm sorry I didn't come to ya sooner. I just thought this was silly to get so upset about" You said which made David smile and kiss your head "If you get upset over it, it's not silly" He stated,
You smiled and nodded as you hugged David tightly which made him chuckle a little and smile and hug you back and you instantly felt so much better...
I Am Wildcat (Tyler Wine)- You don't get upset a lot, sure you can get frustrated cause you're related to Marcel of all people but you don't really get upset over anything...however...Lately Tyler has been overworking himself to the point he hasn't slept decent in days nor spent time with you and it does make you very upset and hurt cause you don't want Tyler to overwork himself like this but you knew this was a chance of happening...
You've tried to confront him about it but it resulted to him saying he's fine or he'll yell at you to leave you alone...which makes you hurt more cause you're only trying to help and you just felt like a bother for even trying but you're at a loss and you don't know what to do anymore and nothing you've tried helps.
You took a deep breath before heading back to his room "T-Tyler?" You called out, he just ignored you. You walked up to him to see his eyes were just staring straight at his screen. You tapped his shoulder "T-Ty?" you called out again. He sighed and groaned "What the hell do you want!?" He shouted which made you flinch a bit,
It went quiet "Seriously why can't you just leave me the fuck alone!?" He shouted again which made tears welled up and fall from your face, "I FUCKING HATE YOU TYLER. THIS ISN'T YOU! WHERE IS THE TYLER WINE I FUCKING FELL IN LOVE WITH BRING HIM BACK GODDAMNIT!" You screamed angrily at him as you ran out of his house and ran back to your place.
When you got there, you screamed and began to sob which worried Marcel as he immediately ran by your side. He held you tightly in his arms and waited for you to calm down. When you calmed down, you sniffled and sighed "What happened?" He asked, "Tyler" you whispered,
Marcel looked pissed "What did that asshole do?" He asked, "H-he's overworking himself a-and I've tried everything but h-he won't listen to me. H-he snapped at me and I snapped back then I c-came here...I-I don't know what to do...I-I just want my Tyler back" You started to cry again which made Marcel hug you again "Hey, hey it's gonna be okay. Just give him some space and I'll talk to him okay?" Marcel said rubbing your back,
You sniffled and nodded as you went to get up but there was a knock at your door. You were confused which made you and Marcel stand up. You stepped away and crossed your arms as Marcel opened the door to reveal Tyler panting out of breath as if he ran over. Marcel looked like he wanted to deck Tyler in the mouth your eyes just widen a bit.
Tyler took a moment to catch his breathe "Where's Y/N?" He asked, "Why do you care?" He asked harshly, "Please just let me talk to her" Tyler said, "I don't think you should after what she just told me" Marcel said, you just stood there watching, Tyler didn't even notice you were there until his eyes met yours "Y/N please, just let me explain" he said,
You sniffled and looked at the ground "I think you should leave Tyler" Marcel said, "No I'm not leaving until I speak with her" Tyler said, Marcel scoffed "good luck then bud. Hurt my sister again and the only thing leaving is going to be your soul down to hell where it belongs" Marcel threatened,
You didn't want to talk to Tyler but if he ran all the way down here just to talk then it must mean something right? You didn't want to give in but damn if you didn't still love him "Marcel, it's okay" you said, he scoffed "like hell it is! He treated you like shit Y/N why should you even hear him out!" He shouted like the protective brother he is.
You smiled softly and put a hand on his shoulder "All relationships are rocky Marcey. They're not perfect. We're not perfect and if Tyler ran all the down here just to explain himself...then he should. You don't have to leave but please? Let me just hear him out" you explained,
Marcel sighed and rolled his eyes "Fine but if he says some stupid shit, I'm punching him in the mouth" He said, you giggled "Okay" you said as Marcel stepped back and you opened the door to reveal Tyler still standing there "Y/N" he said, you sighed "Talk" you said crossing your arms.
Tyler went to hold you but you just backed away which made him sigh "you're right. I've been overworking myself and I'm sorry okay. I'm so so sorry. I didn't mean to get snappy at you, I didn't mean to yell at you and most of all, I didn't mean to hurt you...I love you so much Y/N you have no idea how much I love you. You mean the absolute world to me and I appreciate you trying to help me but this line of work isn't easy and sometimes I just get so caught up in everything that I'm stressed out and can't take breaks but I'm sorry, I will do better and I'll listen to you...I'm so sorry please forgive me" Tyler said,
You looked at Marcel who shrugged and rolled his eyes. You smiled softly "Okay. I forgive you. But Tyler, pull that shit again I'm having all my siblings kill you" You said which made Marcel smirk a bit. Tyler nodded as he embraced you in a hug which made you smile and hug back and soon enough the whole thing was forgotten about.
H20Delirious (Jonathan Dennis)- You don't get upset a lot cause you have great friends and a boyfriend who make you so very happy but sometimes you can get a bit upset cause Jon doesn't really take things seriously and it does put a little pressure on your relationship cause if you complain or tell Jon that something upset or bother you he would just say you're fine or laugh it off like some joke and it does make you very upset because you think he's not listening or even cares that you're hurting.
You started to get depressed because now when there's an issue, you bottle them inside because you can't tell Jon cause he's no help and well, one thing lead to another and you just began to isolate yourself from your friends and family. You stopped texting/calling Jon, you stopped going over to his place, you stopped texting the others...you just locked yourself in your room and just didn't bother to come out...you started to wonder if Jon or your friends even cared...
Days and weeks went by and Jon finally began to notice something was wrong, you stopped answering his calls and his texts, you stopped coming to his place...he began to worry. He's left so many voicemails but still heard nothing. When the next day rolled around, he finally stopped by your place and frantically banged on the door but you didn't answer.
He found your spare key under the mat and unlocked your door, "Y/N!?" he called out but again heard nothing. He quickly searched your house until he finally reached your bedroom. He knocked but you didn't answer...you just didn't bother anymore.
He walked in seeing nothing but darkness and saw you lying there on your bed, not moving a damn muscle. He walked up to you and crouched down to see your emotionless face. Your face was pale, your eyes had dark circles under them like you haven't slept in weeks and been crying all week.
He was so confused on how/why this all started. He brushed your hair out of your face "Y-Y/N? What the hell happened?" He asked, you said nothing even though you felt the anger starting to boil up, "Teddybear, what happened?" He asked again and even though you had no energy you had to get all these feelings out.
You blinked and sighed as you looked at him "n-now you suddenly c-care about me?" you asked and coughed as you throat felt scratchy. Jon was confused but went and grabbed you some water. You accepted and drank the water till it was empty. You sighed a bit "What are you talking about Y/N? Of course I care about you" he said,
With whatever strength you had left in you, you sat up and panted breathlessly "Oh really? S-so all those times I had opened up to you a-and told you my fears, worries and insecurities and you actually did something to help me with those?" You asked but Jon kept quiet which made you scoff "that's what I thought. You are never serious Jon and that hurts me. Everytime I told you shit about what made me upset and you brushed it off like it was nothing? Do you have ANY idea how badly that hurt me? How badly YOU hurt me and my feelings? So everything that made me upset I've just kept it to myself because why bother telling someone who doesn't care? And here we are, weeks later when you finally noticed something was wrong?" You explained as you felt the tears welled up and fall from your face.
Jon looked confused but he knew you were right and the look he gave you was telltale and now he just felt guilty...He sighed "babe...I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you or your feelings. You're right, I've been a shit boyfriend and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. Just please, please come back to me" he said and caressed your cheek,
You just choked on sobs and shook your head "I hate you Jon. I just want you to understand, I want you to listen to me and help me when I'm upset. I want you to take me seriously" You explained, Jon nodded "Okay, okay I understand. I'm sorry" he said and pulled you in hug which made you sigh and hug back as you gave him another chance.
BigJigglyPanda (Anthony Brown)- You do get sad and depressed sometimes cause of your issues and whatnot but you have friends and Anthony to help make you feel better so why be upset? However...Anthony thought of it differently. He's been stressed lately with making videos which makes him not only irritated but upset and well lately he's been thinking that you can do better than him.
He sees you laugh and smile all the time by your friends and he just thinks that he's not good enough for you but Anthony doesn't want to tell you cause he knows it's silly but it still can't help but make him upset and he doesn't want to worry you.
You've seen how stressed he is and you do everything for him, you cook, clean, make sure he's okay and he can't be even more thankful but he just thinks because you're so wonderful and caring that you can do better cause he doesn't do as many wonderful things as you. He just doesn't know how you put up with all of it.
As days went on you've noticed that Anthony didn't seem like himself, you'd ask what's wrong but he'd lie and say he's fine. But you knew he was lying so you asked your friends but they didn't know either but they knew he was acting weird too...You had no idea what it was or how to help.
You had hoped someone knew or Anthony could've told someone but you just had no idea what to do. Days and days went by and Anthony's just gotten more distant and the more and more you started to worry. One day you just couldn't handle it and you decided to call both of your best friend aka Scott.
While Anthony was out getting some groceries, you invited Scott over for some coffee. You brewed some coffee, got out 2 mugs and waited for the coffee to be done. There was a knock on your door which made you answer to see it was Scott. You smiled softly as you invited him.
When coffee was done you poured yourself some cups and handed one to Scott who thanked you "so what's up? Your text seemed urgent and worrying?" He asked, you sighed a bit "Do you have any idea what's going on with Panda?" you asked, Scott looked confused "What do you mean?" he asked, you sighed "Scott please. If you know something, please tell me. He's acting so distant and he just seems so stressed and mad and it doesn't seem like anything I do matters" You explained and sipped your coffee.
Scott sighed "He's just been a little insecure lately" He said, you looked confused "What do you mean?" you asked, Scott sipped his coffee and shrugged "he didn't give me much details, he just told me he's been feeling insecure lately about how you do so much for him and how he feels like you deserve someone better" He said,
Hearing that made your heart break and made you want to cry...How could he feel that way? "B-but how? Why?" you asked, Scott shrugged "Anthony's, Anthony...I mean you know how he is and we all know how much do you for him...sometimes he just feels like he's letting you down. I mean this line of work isn't easy for any of us and its hard finding people who are patient and understanding that sometimes this can be stressful and takes hours if not weeks...I mean building a life on the internet can be hard and hate comments come into play too most times" Scott said,
You frowned "I didn't know. I mean I haven't been at this long and I'm definitely nowhere where you guys are but I mean I can understand the stress but why didn't he come to me? Why couldn't he just talk to me?" You asked, Scott was about to say something but what the both of you didn't know is Anthony had just walked in and pretty much heard everything.
He sighed knowing the secret would be out sooner than later, he just wished it wasn't like this, "Maybe he just felt so bad that he didn't want to worry you" you both heard Anthony say, your eyes widen as you both turned to see Anthony standing in the kitchen doorway with bags in his hands. You and Scott didn't say anything until Anthony sighed and set the groceries down on the counter.
You walked up to him and cupped his cheeks "Why panda?" You asked softly he shrugged "I didn't want to worry you...You do so much for me and I just feel like I was letting you down...I don't know, it all seemed silly to me that I didn't think it was a big deal" he said,
You frowned "Panda, you mean the absolute world to me, you are my love, my heart and soul, my everything. I love you more than words can describe. There isn't anything I wouldn't do to make you feel better but I want you to know that you can talk to me...I worry because I'm your girlfriend and I want you to be happy. The only person I want in this world is you and only you and there's no one I would rather spend my life with. You are the most handsomest, most wonderful and funniest person I have ever met. You are so kind, so loving, so gentle...You make me so proud to wake up to that face every morning...you are anything but a failure and to those who tell you differently don't know you like I do" You explained,
Anthony literally cried tears of joy which made you smile sadly. He said nothing but hugged you tightly which made you smile "I love you so much" He said, you just smiled and rubbed his back "I love you so much too panda" you said, he pulled away and pressed a kiss to your lips which made you smile and kiss back.
TheGamingTerroriser (Brian Hanby)- You don't really get upset a lot cause you have amazing friends, family and boyfriend but lately the hate comments on youtube have been getting to you and you know everyone gets hate but you can't help but read them from time to time and you always see comments like Brian doesn't really love you or that he can do better and it does hurt a lot cause even tho you're David's sister you feel like it's all an act and you do really feel like he doesn't really love you because honestly...why would he?
You've tried to push those feelings aside because you thought they were silly and you didn't want to worry Brian or your brother so you just simply pushed those feelings aside...but you can only push them away for so long until things start to bottle up and overflow...everyday you felt like was getting worse and worse, you couldn't leave your bed or your room, your body and mind just became so heavy. The days became slower, the skies became darker...you stopped laughing, you stopped talking, you stopped eating...those thoughts plagued your mind and now you don't have the strength to get out of bed each morning.
The days went on and you never left your room, you never answered your texts or calls and that's when everyone became worried. Your brother has tried to check on you but you didn't bother to answer or care so he took the next step...he called Brian over. Brian was worried because your brother sounded worried and he knew something was wrong.
Brian wasted no time in coming over to your place. Once he got there, he knocked which made David answer. He let Brian in who walked in and looked at David "what happened? Where's Y/N?" Brian asked, David shook his head "She hasn't left her room in days, she won't talk ta me, she won't talk ta anyone, she hasn't eaten in days. You have to work yer boyfriend magic and do somethin" David said,
Brian frowned but nodded as he headed to your bedroom. He walked in seeing nothing but darkness and you lying down in the same potion as you've always been for the past few days. Brian sighed as he walked over to you see your eyes were red and puffy, and dark circles covered your eyes like you haven't slept in days, you looked pale and just so miserable.
Brian's heart broke at the sight as he crouched down and brushed your hair out of your face "Love? What happened?" he asked softly, you just blinked and didn't say a word. Brian said "Darlin, come on. You can tell me, just please tell me what's wrong?" he asked, you sighed and gulped but coughed a bit feeling your throat was drier than a desert.
Brian saw a glass of water on your nightstand which made him grab it and hand it to you. You felt too weak to grab it which made Brian gently cradle your head and help you drink the water. When the glass was gone, you sighed and coughed again as you weakly sat up, "What's goin on Love?" he asked, you sniffled and sighed "Do you love me?" you whispered,
He looked confused "What? Of course I do, what makes ya think I don't?" he asked, you shrugged "S-sometimes I-I just think that this is all a joke...T-the comments started gettin ta me a-and they're all sayin you don't love me and that y-you could do better and I-I tried to push them away, I-I tried to not think about it b-but then it all started to weigh down on me a-and I-I just couldn't do it anymore...I-I couldn't get out of bed, I stopped talkin and eatin...I-I want ta believe that you love me b-but bein David's sister I don't know...maybe this was all some elaborate plan" you explained,
Brian looked completely speechless, he didn't know what to think, let alone know what to say. He sighed as he sat on the bed across from you and held onto your hands, "Love. I don't know what the internets been sayin but what I do know is it's filled with nothin but haters who will do anythin ta get under your skin...Everyone gets hate baby, everyone includin me but they're just nobodies who are tryin ta seek attention. Yes, you are David's sister but lemme tell ya, I've loved you ever since I laid my eyes upon ya...Honestly, I have loved ya for so long and none of this...absolutely none of this couldn't be any more real. I love ya more than words can describe, I would do anythin ta make ya happy...We may be retarded but we aren't monsters...We would never, ever plan anythin like this...You know that...I love you and only you and there's no one else I'd rather have" He explained with a small smile.
You sniffled and smiled as more tears fell from your face which made Brian chuckle and embrace you in a hug "I-I'm sorry. I-I love you too" you explained, Brian said nothing but stayed with you until you felt better. After you calmed down, Brian made you some food, ran you a nice bath and spent the entire night with you just to make you feel better and you couldn't thank him enough.
FourZer0Seven (Scott Youker)- You have depression yes, and yes, you do get upset a lot but normally Scott and Evan plus your friends help you a lot and you can't thank them enough, and lately you haven't been upset cause you are happy, have great friends, a great boyfriend and a great brother and they've made you happy...
But lately you feel like Scott doesn't really take things seriously...whenever you're sad about something and tell Scotty he just laughs it off and asks if you're serious which in most cases you are but Scotty doesn't understand so you quit talking about it...But ever since you stopped talking about it...everything started to build up and you just couldn't do it anymore...
You didn't know whether to shut up and isolate yourself or scream and punch something until you felt better or Scott finally understood...Once again, Scott had came over to hang out with you and Evan and you felt like he didn't even notice you, you felt worthless and unloved. Your heart raced as you felt the anger just boil up.
You huffed angrily as you ran up to your room and slammed your door closed. You clenched your fists tightly trying to calm down but you just couldn't, you've had it...you couldn't keep it in anymore. Angry tears welled up as you choked on sobs. You started to scream as you began punching your mirror as hard as you could not caring if you broke your fists or how painful it was.
Scott and Evan had no fucking idea what the hell just happened and why it escalated so quickly but once they heard you scream, they ran up to your room to see you punching your mirror into pieces. It shattered as blood from your fists splattered everywhere. They had no idea what was wrong let along couldn't register what the hell had happened.
The next thing you know Scott was pulling you away from the mirror and sat you on your bed as Evan ran to get the first aid kit. You just sobbed hysterically and incoherently. When Evan came back, he fixed up your hands as they waited for you to stop crying.
When you finally managed to calm down some, you whined as you felt the pain throb in your fists "What the fuck just happened?" Evan asked, you shook your head "No. Fuck no, you can't just shake your head and say it's nothing" Scott said, you scoffed as you squirmed out of his arms and looked at him "I FUCKING HATE YOU!" You shouted angrily, both Scott and Evan were confused "Baby. What the hell is going on?" Scott asked, "YOU. I HATE YOU!" You shouted,
Scott looked at Evan who shrugged "What did I do?" he asked, "Exactly fucking nothing" You gritted through your teeth angrily, Scott was still so lost "babe, you gotta give me something here. I don't understand. Just calm down and tell me what happened" He said, you began to just groan in frustration "I-I can't take it. E-everytime I am upset you don't fucking care! I am tired of you not taking me seriously. I am tired of being treated like I'm nothing. I feel so fucking worthless and so fucking unloved and you don't even care!! You don't even seem to fucking notice and I can't fucking take it!" You shouted feeling your heart break.
Scott frowned as he looked at Evan who just got up "I'll uh give you guys a minute. Just don't kill him" He said to you as he walked out leaving you two alone. Scott walked up to you and tried to hold you but you just shrugged him off and stepped away "Babe, I'm so sorry. I truly never meant to make you feel that way. I'm really, really sorry" He said,
You shook your head "You hurt me Scott, you really, really hurt me" You said, Scott sighed as he pulled you in a hug which you didn't hug back "You're right, I'm a shitty boyfriend and I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I don't know how to handle serious things well and I'm sorry. I love you so much, you have no idea how much I love you. I love your smile and your laugh. I love your humor and your personality...God I love you so much and I truly never meant to hurt you...Please, just please give me another chance" He said,
You really didn't want to but you can't help it...as mad as you were, you loved Scott...you really, really did and you knew Scott was true to his word and you knew he would try to do better...so you decided to give him another chance. You sniffled and sighed as you hugged him which made him sigh in relied as Scott spent the ENTIRE WEEK making it up to you and you couldn't be any happier.
BasicallyIDoWrk (Marcel Cunningham)- You get depressed yes, but you have an amazing family and friends to help you not feel depressed which you can't thank them enough for, but lately you've been very sad because while you don't do youtube like your friends and brother, you also don't have a job so you just feel like you're nothing but a big failure and that Marcel can do better...I mean you know how successful him and everyone else is and yet, you can't get a simple job? What else are you supposed to think?
You tried so hard to push those feelings away and pretend to be happy and go on with your life but it was so damn hard pretending that everything was okay and of course everyone believed that you were okay...no one had any second thoughts or had to ask twice because you were so convincing that you were okay...but you were literally dying on the inside...you are in so much pain and yet you can't tell anyone because you think it's stupid and you think you're a bother and you don't wany anyone to worry...so why does it matter?
No one knows that you cry in the shower, no one knows that you can't sleep at night anymore and no one knows that you have to sob into your pillow so no one can hear you cry at night...You're just so miserable all the time and you don't know what to do anymore.
Days and days have past and once again, if you hear someone ask If you're okay again you might actually start sobbing. Marcel had came over yet again to play videogames and make videos with your brother and hang out with you of course...you went on again to pretend everything was okay and no one even noticed.
However, the longer you sat there with them, the longer they didn't notice you, the more it began to hurt...You excused yourself to get some coffee and to regain whatever strength you have left in you to just not cry right then and there. You turned on the faucet water and took a few deep breaths.
Your heart raced as the tears welled up, you quickly blinked them away and sniffled a little. You didn't hear anyone come in the kitchen "hey, are you alright?" you heard Marcel ask, your eyes widen as you turned and looked at him "huh? Oh uh yea yea I'm good" You said as you felt yourself about to literally lose it, Marcel looked unconvinced "What's wrong? You look like you've been crying" He asked,
You bit your tongue trying so hard to keep it all in but you were slowly breaking down by the SECOND. Your bottom lip began to quiver as you took a deep shaky breath and quickly blinked away the tears that glossed your eyes. You smiled "I-I'm f-fine" You stuttered but still Marcel looked worried and concerned.
He walked up to you which only made you back away. Marcel looked hurt "Baby, what's going on?" He asked and that's when you just broke down. You felt weak in the knees and clenched your hands together and brought them to your aching chest.
Your breathing started to get short and heavy as your bottom lip quivered and the tears just waterfalled down your cheeks. You couldn't even make a noise. Your heart was breaking as you just began to choke on sobs. Marcel was so confused and worried as he ran to your side and lowered you down to the floor.
He held you tightly in his arms as you just sobbed hysterically. Marcel has no idea what happened or how long you've been feeling whatever way you're feeling but being your boyfriend he wanted you to feel better and wanted to know what happened. He didn't say anything but just hold you tightly as your body confused with each heartbreaking sob that you've been holding in for so long.
After what seemed like hours, you couldn't cry anymore, you felt lightheaded, dehydrated and exhausted. You couldn't breathe, your chest and head were pounding. Marcel picked you up and sat you on the chair and grabbed you a glass of water and tissues which you blew your nose and downed the water.
When you could finally breathe again, you sighed and yawned tiredly "what the hell happened?" He asked, you sighed "I-I'm so tired" you explained, Marcel looked confused "What do you mean?" He asked, "I'm so tired of pretending, i-I'm tired of feeling like a goddamn failure" You said,
Marcel was so lost "You're not a failure babe" he said, you just scoffed "You have no goddamn Idea what it's like. You have a successful youtube channel, you've had great jobs, you have great friends, everyone just loves you but you have no idea what it's like to be me or to feel what I feel. I-I am a failure to you and to my family, I-I don't have a fucking job, I-I can't get a fucking job, I-I don't do youtube like the rest of you. I-I go around and fake everything, pretend like I'm okay and you believe it because why would you notice anything different? Why would you ever think something was wrong?" You explained pretty emotionless at this point,
Marcel frowned "Why didn't you just tell me how you were feeling?" he asked, you rolled your eyes "How can I look you in the eyes and tell you how much of a failure I feel? You're so happy playing games and recording videos...I-I didn't want to be a bother...I didn't want to be this burden you have to take care of 24/7...I thought I could handle. I-I thought I would be okay" you whispered a bit at the end.
Marcel frowned and hugged you tightly "You could never ever be a burden or a bother to me. I love you with all my heart and soul and I would walk the earth forever just to see you happy, just to see you smile and laugh. You are not a failure to me or to your family, just cause you don't have a job right now doesn't mean you can't get one. You are your own person with your own abilities and if you don't want to get a job then you don't have to get one, there's no one here saying you have to get a job. I worry about you because I love you and I'm your boyfriend and I want you to be okay...you are so perfect to me; you have no idea" he explained while looking lovingly into your eyes.
Your heart and stomach fluttered as you sniffled and nodded a little. Marcel smiled and brushed your hair out of your face and kissed your head "I love you so much" he said, you smiled "I-I love you too Marcey" you whispered and he spent the entire day making you feel so much better.
Moo Snuckel (Brock Barrus)- You don't really get upset a lot cause you are happy, have great friends and a boyfriend but recently you and Marcel had a big fight over something really stupid and the things he said really hurt.
You know he's been stressed about things and you were trying to help him, but it caused you both to fight and you both said some really hurtful things which caused you to pack a bag and just leave.
Now you're currently walking to Brock's place crying your eyes out cause you and Marcel never fought this big before, nor has he ever said any of the hurtful things he said and it really hurt and you are really hurt cause he looked so pissed and looked like he meant it...that's what hurt the most is it looked like he meant it.
*Argument Flashback*
Marcel had been stressed lately with YouTube, plus he hasn't been sleeping well and well you being a good bestie/sister and Simone being a great wife were supportive you wouldn't bother him at all or occasionally check up on him to see if he needed anything which in most cases he didn't and was "fine"
But you didn't believe that and you tried suggesting relaxing things for you, Simone and Marcel to do but he would always say no and he was getting irritated by the moment but you couldn't just sit back and watch your best friend drown himself in youtube and lock himself in his room.
So you finally have had it as you headed up to his room to have a talk with him. You didn't bother knocking as you walked in seeing him on his computer as always, you sighed and rolled your eyes "Marcel, we need to talk" You stated,
He sighed "not right now Y/N, I'm busy" He stated rather harshly, you groaned and rolled your eyes, "no Marcel, now" you stated, he growled a bit and looked at you, he looked awful not to mention exhausted. You furrowed your eyebrows a bit "fucking what Y/N?" He asked harshly,
You glared at him "You need to chill the fuck out. When was the last time you slept? Or ate and bathed?" You questioned, he glared at you "that's not your fucking business, now go the fuck away" he raised his voice a bit "NO Marcel, It is my fucking business because I fucking love you and so does Simone, you know your wife and best friend? Yea we fucking care about you and I'm not just sit back and watch you stress your life away, so stop being an asshole and spend time with us" I raised my voice at him.
He clenched his fists as he got a up a bit "I DON'T FUCKING CARE Y/N, I DON'T FUCKING CARE, IF YOU CARE ABOUT ME THAN YOU WOULD LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE BUT NO INSTEAD YOU ARE NOTHING BUT AN ANNOYING PIECE OF SHIT THAT NO ONE LOVES!" He shouted,
Your eyes widen as your heart raced, you just wanna believe this was the stress and sleep deprivation talking, you trembled a bit and tried not to cry but felt them sting your eyes, "Fine. Die then, see if I care. I'm going to Brock's" I stated as my voice became high pitched "Fine then whore, I don't fucking care" He stated and sat back down at his computer and ignored you.
You gasped as you headed out of his room and downstairs. You trembled as you held your hand over your mouth...you and him never fought like that before, you and him were always so close and never have you ever called each other rude names...you wanna believe he didn't mean it but...he looked so seriously.
Simone confronted you as you just told her what happened and then ran out and headed to Brock's...You were just sobbing, everything hurt and that was not your best friend...but you feared you lost him...
When you got to Brock's, you knocked on the door still trembling and sobbing. Brock answered the door an was about to say something until you just jumped in his arms and sobbed. He didn't say anything as he held you tightly and rubbed your head and back.
He closed the door, picked you up and brought you up to his room. He sat on his bed with you on his lap and waited for you to stop crying which seemed like hours but you were so hurt and upset and you didn't know what to do...
When you stopped crying. Brock pried you off him and cupped your red, puffy, warm and tear stained face "what happened?" He asked softly and looking very hurt and concerned "M-Me and M-Marcel had a fight. H-He's been stressed and I-I was trying to help but he got so angry...th-that's never happened before and h-he called me names a-and I-I don't know what to do" you stuttered and cried again.
Brock kissed your head and sighed as he held you close "Shshsh it's okay, he didn't mean it, he's just stressed, it's gonna be okay Y/N, I promise" He cooed, you sighed and nodded as you snuggled close to Brock and just wanted to go to sleep. Brock brought a blanket over you and rubbed your back and kissed your head which made you smile slightly and sigh as you slowly fluttered your eyes closed and fell asleep.
(These are shit I apologize it most of these seemed rushed but damn I just need these to be done with so I hope you enjoy and if you don't oh well, fuck off then. But enjoy, feel free to leave me some preference suggestions if you got any. Credit shall go to you!)
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