"Bakla ka, wala ka bang gana?" Gale asked me while she's eating, andito ako sa condo niya habang si Parker ay nasa condo namin dahil nagsimula na ang pasukan at busy siya dahil may ginagawa na agad siya.
"Ewan ko walang appeal sa akin yung pagkain eh."
"Eh tara nga muna doon! Nood nalang tayo doon ko nalang ipagpapatuloy 'to." Tumayo na kaming dalawa dahil asa kusina kami at hindi pa kami nakaka-alis ay napatakbo ako sa kanyang sink at nagsuka ako.
Hinahagod niya ang aking likod habang suka ako ng suka.
"May nakain ka bang panis?" I went up to face her after wiping my lips.
"E-Ewan."
"Tangina ka hindi ka ba nagpipills?!" She asked. "Kailan ka huling nagkaroon?"
"E-Ewan ko, Gale. Pero nagsimula naman na akong uminom kahapon."
"Tapos matagal na kayong nagsesex? Tangina, Eloisa ano tingin mo sa pills pampalaglag? Once na may laman na yan hindi na gagana yon!" She looks frustrated. "Tangina ka diyan ka lang, bibili ako ng PT sa baba."
Naupo ako sa sofa at naalala si Parker. Hindi pa siya handang magka-anak kami pero paano nga kung totoo? Paano gagawin ko? Ipapalaglag ko na hindi niya nalalaman? Pero ayoko tangina buhay na 'to eh kahit dugo pa lang kung mayroon man.
"Oh." I looked at the three box at pumasok sa banyo at ginamit ang lahat yon na hindi mga tinitingnan ang bawat resulta.
"G-Gale." I gave her the PT at napatahimik siya nang makita ang resulta. "G-Gale, ano?"
"Y-You're pregnant, Eloisa."
I felt my knees got weak and it made me kneel the cold floor and she hugged me.
"If you're thinking of aborting it, I won't let you Eloisa andito ako i'll help you. Andito din ang mga magulang mo."
"D-Dad will get mad... At m-madidisappoint si Parker." I said while crying.
"Eloisa, listen to me." She cupped my face and wiped off my tears. "You will let the child see the world okay? No matter what are the consequences tsaka hindi pa naman sure yan pupunta tayo ng OB."
Yoon nga ang nangyari nagpunta kami ng OB at positive pa 'rin ang naging resulta hangang sa maka-uwi ako sa condo at wala si Parker.
Naupo ako sa dulo ng aming kama habang hawak ang fetal ultrasound. Nakatulala lamang ako habang tumutulo ang aking mga luha at napatingin ako sa pinto nang bumukas ito at bumungad sa akin si Parker na sukbit ang kanyang school bag.
"Angel? Why the hell are you crying?" He kneeled infront of me and cupped my face.
"P-Parker, i'm sorry." I said and cried at his shoulder while he's hugging me.
"Angel, what's the problem?" He said and I can't stop crying at his shoulder. "Angel, fuck it talk to me."
"Parker." I kept on crying until he made us some distance and looked at my eyes.
"Talk, Angel." I bit my lip and he wiped off my tears.
"Parker, I'm pregnant." I can see the shock at his face while I kept crying waiting for him to talk. "P-Parer, I am pregnant."
"A-Angel."
"If you don't want it m-maybe we can make some way like abort it-"
"No." He said and cupped my face. "We'll let it live okay?"
He hugged me while I kept on crying at his shoulder begging for someone to tell me that this is only just a dream that i'm not in a fucking reality.
"H-How will I say this to Dad?"
"I'll be with you, Angel. We'll face this together okay?" I slowly nod and the moment we finished talking he made me go to the shower and sumakay agad kami sa kanyang kotse pauwing Nueva Ecija.
Walang nagsasalita sa amin pareho lamang kaming tahimik.
"What did the OB said?" He asked while still driving.
"Our baby is healthy and i'm five weeks pregnant." He nod.
Nang maka-uwi kami ay dumiretso agad kami sa bahay namin at parang nagtaka si Mom nang makita kami.
"Halika muna kayong dalawa." Mom said at ewan ko nang maupo kami at makita ko si Dad ay parang nakaramdam ako ng sobrang kaba na parang gusto kong lamunin na lamang ako ng lupa.
"What's the problem? Bat nauwi kayo?"
Parker hold my hand and I bit my lip. "Mom, Dad, I'm pregnant."
I saw how my Mom reacts and she's shocked while Dad... I can't read his emotion, nakatahimik lamang siya.
"Pregnant? Parker, bakit kaya mo na bang buhayin ang anak ko buntisin siya?" I can sense that Dad is angry.
"I-I'm sorry, Tito. But I promise you that I will never leave Eloisa's side. I'll take good care of her."
"It seems like you can already give her the life. I won't support her financially anymore then." Dad said and wiped his mouth using a table napkin and walked out.
"M-Mom." I felt tears dropping and Mom hugged me and smiled at me.
"Your Dad is just mad, mawawala din yon." She kissed my forehead and smiled. "What did the doctor said?"
"I'm five weeks pregnant and it's healthy, Mom." I smiled at Mom while Parker is quiet.
"Tita, I won't ask for help."
We both looked at Parker. "H-Hindi niyo pa kaya, Parker."
"I can, Tita. Kaya ko pong buhayin ang mag-ina ko." He said and hold my hand. "I'll love them both morethan my life."
"Just incase you both encounter problems, i-i'll be here to help you both." She patted our shoulders, Parker and I went out to go to his parents.
"Eloisa! Parker!" Her Mom hugged us and nakita ko ang Dad niya na parang aware na sa kung anong susunod na mangyayari at napapa-iling na lamang.
We sat at the table while Parker put some foods at my plate.
"Mom, Dad, Eloisa is pregnant." Parker said and his Mom's eyes widened.
"S-Shan." She said while his Dad just chuckled and started eating.
"Ginusto mo yan, ibig sabihin kaya mo ng bumuhay." My eyes widened at what his Dad said parang si Dad lang.
"I will, Dad. I just want you all to be aware and I can give the life for my girlfriend and our child."
His Dad walked away and it's like a Deja Vu. "The only thing that I can help is supporting you in your studies and your allowance, Parker."
Parker nod and we both stood up at sa buong byahe ay nakatahimik lamang kaming dalawa habang ako ay pinipigilan ang aking luha.
"P-Parker kaya ba n-natin?" He nod and smiled.
"We can, Angel. I promise."
That moment he kept on making me eat vegetables and he wants me to sleep early ayaw niya akong napupuyat at ayaw niya akong nas-stress mas pinapakita niya sa akin kung gaano niya kami kamahal. Kami.
"Hey, Angel. I got a job."
I looked at him with my brows furrowed. "Parker Shan Aquino, I already told you na mahihirapan kang pagsabayin ang studies at work."
"It's okay if it's for my Angels."
"Parker, pwede naman tayong humingi na ng tulong kala Mom."
"We won't, Angel. Kaya kong buhayin mag-ina ko." He said and hugged me even tighter and I just sighed a kissed him. "Our deal okay?"
"What deal?"
"Tss that after your five months you'll stay here and rest." Nalungkot ako sa usapan naming dalawa na 'yan dahil ang ibig sabihin ay madedelay ang pangarap ko pero kung para 'rin naman sa baby namin papayag naman ako.
Nanunuod kami ng isang movie nang bigla niya itong patayin.
"Angel, tulog na." He said kahit 8:00 pa lang naman.
"Parker, ang OA! Anong oras pa lang, tsaka may gagawin pa akong project-"
"I'll do it for you." He said and caressed my hair.
"Eh paano yung sayo? Maaga pa naman Parker!"
"Nah, magagawa ko naman 'yon, matulog ka na."