A/N: I put this song here because it is one of my alltime favorite songs and Changbin wrote it all by himself😍😍😍
Felix' P.O.V
After Changbin's panic attack Chan and I decided it would be better if we toned down the affection in the dorms. Our plan was still in action though, and I was beginning to wonder if Changbin ever cared about me how I care about him.
Hyunjin and Seungmin had been spending a lot of time together and it was cute to see. The whole group had always shipped them. Minho and Jisung were, as always, behind closed doors a lot. When they were missing no one even questioned it.
Jeongin had been having an especially hard time seeing Chan give me so much affection. Of course Chris had always been more affectionate to me than some members, as we were like brothers, but I.N had always gotten the most love from our leader. Because of how Jeongin had been feeling, Chan spent a lot of time in our room.
Changbin assumed Chan and I were doing stuff, but typically I played video games and the other two made out or cuddled. I had also been wearing Chan's clothes any time there was a possibility of being photographed.
We had all been very busy lately, mostly doing things on our own. Me, Seungmin and Hyunjin had been MCing, 3RACHA had been working on songs, and Jeongin had been doing a lot of practice. This meant that the only time we had at the dorm was to sleep, which we definitely needed to do.
I haven't been able to spend any time with Binnie, and I missed his touch. Even when we had interviews and Lives I wasn't supposed to go to him, because of the company rules for us and the plan. I had been next to Bang Chan for almost all appearances, bit I wasn't being quite as clingy to him, because I didn't want Bin to have another panic attack.
I wanted more than anything to run and jump on him. I didn't though, because I needed to stick to the plan. The yearning to be in his embrace was overwhelming at times, and Chan had to hold me back from going to him.
I was making up for the missing affection by being extremely clingy to I.N and Chan, because I wanted to make sure I.N got enough affection. Despite the fact that he acts like he hates affection, it's mostly just an act. The thing he really hates is being treated like a baby.
Of course Chris can't help but baby the adorable human sometimes, but he definitely treats I.Nnie as an equal. There are obviously times when he has to act more in charge and can't give Jeongin specal treatment, as the other members don't know that they are official, and it wouldn't be fair.
I was snapped out of my web of thoughts when someone crashed into me, causing me instinctively catch them. My quick action resulted in me holding Changbin in your classic, cliche, romance movie dip. He started to blush profusely, and I lifted him up, making sure he was stable before I took my hands off of him.
The other members, who were in the practice room with us, stared at our awkward interaction, none of them saying a word. I cleared my throat awkwardly, signaling for them to stop. Our practicing continued normally after that, except for the obvious tension between me and Binnie.
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Hyunjin's P.O.V
The tension between Changbin and Felix had been so crazy that the whole group was on edge. Everyone knew that they loved each other, but both of them were to stubborn and oblivious to see. I could see how angry Felix got when Changbin and I flirted, but Changbin was blind.
That stupid slice of pizza wad being so hypocritical. He kept complaining to me about how Felix had moved on, and how Felix only cared about Chan now. I swear the only thing that was holding me back from slapping them was Seungmin.
He didn't wanted anyone fighting, so he always tried to calm me down. Felix was obviously not over Changbin. The way Felix looked at him when he wasn't looking was so intense, that you wanted to look away. Those two could be such a cute couple if they just would confess!
We all had been teasing them about their feelings since their kiss. Even before that, though, they were both quietly admiring eachother from afar. Changbin was whipped since he laid eyes on Felix, and same goes for Felix.
They were both so stubborn. It's not like anyone in the group would have negative thoughts about it. Minho and Jisung have been officially dating for like 2 years. Plus Seungmin and I gotten a lot "closer" recently, if you know what I mean.
I looked up and was met with an adorable puppy pointing at Felix, who was snuggling Chan and I.N. I smiled, but then my eyes landed on Changbin who was on the verge of tears. I gave Minnie a smile and he nodded, knowing exactly what I was asking to do.
I stood and rushed to Changbin, wrapping my arms around him. He relaxed into me, leaning on me heavily. I held him tighter, supporting him. I felt him exhale shakily, about to break down. I sensed how close he was to crying and yelled to Chan that we were going out for a minute.
I walked him into an empty studio, not letting go of him. I sat down, pulling him with me so we were sitting on the couch facing eachother. I held him close to me, pulling away after a minute.
He looked so sad that looking in his eyes made me wanna cry. He looked so hopeless. "Changbin, why haven't you told him how you feel?" I asked him, trying to keep my voice soft.
"I can't Hyunjin." He said, his voice cracking. "What if he doesn't love me like I love him? What if he says he wants Chan and not me? What if it ruins the group? Woojin already left. What if Lixie leaves, too? I can't be without him!"
"Oh, Bin!" I said, pulling the now sobbing boy into my embrace. "I'm almost certain that none of that will happen. That boy has been infatuated with you since he laid eyes on your gnome-like self." I said, making Binnie glare at me.
"Seriously, though." I continued, "You need to tell him. I can see how hurt he gets when you flirt with other people, especially me. He loves you. And we all know that Chan and Felix are basically brothers. If they were together it would be creepy." I finished, shuddering dramatically at the end, and making a tiny smile form on Bin's mouth.
"I just don't know. I don't want to mess things up. I feel like we need each other, and if we get together and then end up breaking up..." he trailed off at the end, looking very stressed.
"I don't think that would happen. And if it did it would probably be your fault, no offense." I said playfully, trying to bring a smile to his gloomy face. "Seriously though, if you want him to know that you want him and only him, you need to tone down your affection toward me."
"I can see how upset it makes him, even if your blind ass can't." I said, making him jokingly narrow his eyes at me. "That boy cares so much about you and he only wants you, Changbin. I don't know why he does, since he could get anyone, but you should feel honored."
Changbin blushed and hit me. "I only want him, too. And you don't even know how honestly amazed I am that he likes me. I adore him, but I just don't show affection the same way as he does. When I actually have genuine romantic feelings toward someone, it's hard for me to put myself out there and so something I can't take back. It's easy for me to do skinship with you, because I know we're just friends and that you have Seungminnie."
"I want Felix to be happy, and if I can't make him as happy as Chris makes him, then maybe he should stay with him." Changbin said, tears beginning to fall down his face. "He deserves so much better than me! I let him down so many times. I wasn't there when he needed me, and he is always there for me. He is so inncoent and lovely, and I want him to always be able to smile."
Bin was sobbing by the end, loud enough that I'm sure the boys, who were next door, heard him. I pulled him into my chest, holding him close as he cried. He was shaking and I was trying to calm him down, but it wasn't working.
I heard a commotion from the other room and the door banged open, making me and Changbin turn to see a distressed Felix, and a knowing Chan trying, but not that hard, to hold Felix back. Changbin's eyes darted between the two and Felix shook off Chan's hand, moving swiftly to Changbin, who immediately moved from me and held his arms out for Felix.
I got up, going to Chan so they could be alone. Felix moved to sit against the end of the couch, holding Changbin on his lap, facing the same way as him. He leaned his head on Bin's shoulder, and Bin leaned his head on Felix'. As I watched them I could see how perfect they were for each other, like they were handcrafted just for the other.
Changbin had calmed down almost as soon as Felix touched him, and Felix did too. Me and Chan watched for a while, the other two boys too immersed in one another to notice. We exchanged a glance, both with huge smiles on our faces, and then we left, quietly shutting the door behind us.
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