A LOST SON
08/31/2001
I will be strong in the love of my Goddess,
I will be strong in the arms of my God.
I have loved and lost a son,
Who will never be dead in my heart.
Can love be what give Mothers the strength of Elephants,
Can caring show them how to move mountains?
I have loved and lost a child,
Whom I feel I was not strong enough for.
Michael was my angel and son,
Michael was not really mine at all.
For his life was just a wish and a dream to me,
For I was called unfit as a Mother.
When taken by court's rule; he was four,
The second time his father would not let him stay; he was twelve.
The third time was by his own hand; he was twenty-three.
And so I died a little each time, and still feel I have failed him.
So today is the day he died four years ago,
And I must find the strength each and every day to go on.
In the loving arms of my Goddess and God,
I find him there saying; Life must continue, so I must be strong.
MORE OF A LOST SON
08/31/2011
It has been ten years since I wrote those word,
And it still brings tears to my eyes when those words are read.
I have survived with the strength of my beliefs,
And I have been strong to continue on.
He was so proud of my accomplishments,
He showed me his pride when I returned for my High School diploma.
I dreamed he would be at my graduation,
But this was not meant to be.
So I will continue to believe he is in the arms of Love,
And I will continue to write, and not feel I have failed him.
Michael Ian Russell was my son;
Born March 13, 1974 and Died August 31, 1997.