"He's here mommy Jhene, congratulations!"
Smiling as the doctor lifted my son up placing him on Jhene's chest, she weakly smiled placing kisses on his forehead attempting to calm his cries down while the nurses quickly cleaned him off.
Leaning down staring at Jhene running my hand over her hair, she stared back up at me smiling as I leaned down kissing her.
"You did it mamas, I love you for real. He got ya nose and everything." I said lowly wiping the tears running down my face placing my hand over his, as he quickly wrapped his fragile little hand around my finger continuing to cry.
"I love you too husband, we...did it. Come hold your son baby." Nervously lifting him from her chest placing his against mine, I smiled down at him as his loud screams gradually went silent as soon as his head touched my chest. "He so handsome Jeremiah, can't for Jade to meet him."
My Momma always raised Jason, Ella and I that no matter what, we needa have each other's back regardless. Even though we don't always get along, if any of them called me I'm on my way. And I want my kids to have that same mentality.
"Yo on some real shit, we make some cute ass babes. I mean I'm down to go for at least three mo-..." Freezing as Jhene's smile turned into a stale face, I busted out laughing placing a kiss on my son's forehead smiling down at him while Jhene watched us smiling. "Already got them long basketball legs lil man."
"Jeremiah can my son learn to walk first."
"You ready to meet ya lil bro princess?" Smiling down at Jade as she struggled to walk beside me, I took my time allowing her to walk by herself because if we don't force her spoiled self to, we'll be carrying her for the rest of our lives. "She behave herself Momma?"
While Jhene and I been in the hospital, Jade's been staying with my Mom until Jhene was secure enough to have visitors.
"Tuh...that little girl right there does not sit down just like her daddy. But I love her, that's my boo. How's my daughter in law?" My Momma asked following beside us as we made our way through the hospital heading to Jhene's room.
"She good you already know, took it like a champ. My ass was the one crying like a bitch, he just everything I thought he would be. Never gonna do him wrong by him on God."
"Awww my baby was crying over his baby, man I'm getting old. I got four grandchildren, ooouuu I'm excited." Opening the door allowing my Mom and Jade to go in, I walked in watching as my Mom waved to everyone rushing over to Jhene giving her a hug immediately making her way over to the crib smiling down at him. "Oh my goodness... he's perfect."
"Well shit, she said fuck us where my grandson at. Hello to you too momma." Ella laughed looking up from her cards as her and Antonio sat at a table playing Uno, while Lyric and Blessing laid on the couch playing with their barbies.
"Ella change the color to green." Briana whispered as she sat on Jhene's hospital bed helping her put her hair in a low ponytail, causing Antonio to whip his head around chucking the Uno box at her head.
"Briana keep playing, chuck ya daughters barbies right out the fucking window."
I know the hospital was ready for us to get our asses outta here, cause since Jhene gave birth the whole gang been in and out this bitch nonstop.
Exactly why I made sure Jhene had a suite cause my loud ass family needa be away from everyone.
"Jadey girl, come see mommy." Jhene smiled as Jade excitedly wobbled over to her hospital bed, reaching her hands up being lifted on the bed. Walking over to Jhene's hospital bed sitting beside Jade as my Momma walked over with him in her arms, I smiled as Jade began clapping excited looking over at her brother. "That's your brother baby. Jonah Tariq Neverson."
Tapping Jade's shoulder waving my hand towards Jonah, she began mirroring me waving her hand over at her brother laughing not really sure what was going on.
"I'm gonna tell you exactly what I told your father when he meant his sister, auntie Ella." My Momma began as she slowly placed Jonah in Jade's arms holding him up. "You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. You got his back and he got your back, never let nothing or no one come between yall. And grandma will forever and will always love yall."
Smiling as my Momma leaned down kissing them both of them, I looked over at Jhene rubbing her arm as she watched the interaction with tears in her eyes.
"Ayo Nurse?" I hollard looking towards the door as the nurse assigned to Jhene's room quickly made her way in. "You mind taking a picture, everyone ain't here but it's good."
I wasn't surprised at the fact Jason has yet to come to the hospital, he's always been a dickhead and he will forever be one. Despite our on going beef, there's never been a time i wasn't there for him. But this relationship ain't 50/50.
Grabbing Jonah from my Mom's hands sitting beside Jhene as Jade moved into her lap, we waited as everyone got the kids together on Jhene's hospital bed pointing for all of them to look towards the camera and smile.
"On three say family...1...2...3...FAMILYYY!"
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You know I fuck with you the long way
I could put this pussy on you all day
I let him beat it while the song play
I could put this pussy on you all day
"Talk to me while you in it I need feedback, like a Meek diss track busting back to back." Nodding my head to the beat as Alyssa vibed out in the booth, I looked towards Ella sitting beside me laughing as she nodded her head with a stank face clearly feeling it.
Since I signed Alyssa she's been doing her thang since, the drive she had to make it was the typa artist I needed on my label. Not to mention she had a nigga, strictly about the paper.
"I don't knowww brother, you might done did somethin with this one. Had to zoom outta Megan's apartment this morning to keep her from coming with me, she love her some Mulatto." Ella laughed as she stood up from her chair grabbing two bags of hot Cheetos from the coffee table returning to her seat.
"Speaking of. Since when you uh...you know...start fucking wit females? Like...so you eat...like...you-..."
"Jeremiah we are not about to sit here and have this conversation. Enough of me, have you spoken to dickhead?" Stale facing her as she busted out laughing, I relight my blunt slouching in my chair already knowing she was boutta put on her Mom hat.
Along with my Momma, Ella has always the glue that held her, Jason and I together while growing up. If it wasn't for her, I woulda been stopped fucking with his ass a while ago.
Judges everything I do, but be the first one leaching off my success. Yea Jason makes a good living I'll give him that, but managing his money...nigga lacking. Can't even name the amount of times I helped with bills, mortgage, even gave him loans. But I'd never throw it back up in his face.
"Fuck that nigga. Been moving dirty wit Briana for years, but want motherfuckers to feel sorry for his ass when shawty start giving his a taste of his own medicine. Then not gonna show up for my son's birth, he can suck my dick all disrespect." I said lowly looking towards Alyssa seeing she was still recording the chorus for the track with one of my mastering engineer, while Ella shook her head fed up with Jason and I's everlasting issues.
"Jeremiah now you know I try to stay out of it, but yall really need to get yall shit together. Yall don't get along okay fine...but yall at least need to respect each other on some real shit. It's getting old and irritating as fuck. Yall needa sit down and get all the bullshit out before I beat both of yall ass."
Shutting my eyes breathing aloud irritated feeling my phone began vibrating in my pocket, I pulled out my phone seeing my receptionist sent me a emergency code meaning I needed to get up there.
Scrunching my face standing up from my chair, I told Ella hold on as I made my way to the front looking around trying to figure out what the issue was.
"Wassup J, we got a little issue. I added Dani to the no entry list as instructed but she's uh...outside and refusing to leave." Walking around the receptionist desk looking towards the security camera films, I rubbed the side of my head watching as Dani sat in front of the gate staring into space. "Should I contact the police or-..."
"Nah...lemme handle it."
"Jeremiah what's the emergency?" Turning towards Ella as she came out of the studio walking towards me immediatly looking towards the security camera, she slowly shook her head pulling her hair tie from off her wrist beginning to tie her hair up. "Shoulda let Briana tap that ass when we had the chance, be right back."
"Ella. Ella. Ella. Stay ya ass right here...let me handle it." Holding onto Ella's shoulders as she stared up at me with her chest heaving up and down, she rolled her eyes pushing away from me leaning against the desk. "You got six minutes, then I'm handling shawty."
Waving her off zipping up my jacket, I opened the door walking out the studio heading towards the gate watching Dani as she turned towards me quickly standing up. Looking through the gate as Dani stared back at me, I ran my eyes past her puffy red eyes looking towards her stomach not seeing any growth yet.
"Can you come out here J, we need to talk?" Dani asked slowly placing her hand on the gate bar stepping closer as I looked away from her watching as some locals walked by.
"I can see and hear you perfectly clear from here, you got five minutes."
"Okay...I'm not here to beg for a second chance or third because...you already gave them to me. I just wanna apologize for everything, I'm just not used to people doing good things for me...that's why I always fuck it up as you can see. I don't know why I fucked him, I guess...I guess I was just tryna get under your skin. And I know this doesn't concern you but for the record... I'm not keeping the baby. I know what it's like to fail an innocent child and I don't want to fail another."
Watching Dani as she quickly wiped the tears flowing down her cheek, she placed her hands in her pockets swaying back and forth.
"I never could quite pin point why we vibed so easily and I finally figure it out...you...you remind me of my brother. And like my brother, I want to continue to see you do good. You can keep walking around like you cool as a cucumber all you want, but you still needa have a conversation with him Jeremiah."
Looking towards Dani as she stared up at me twisting her head to the side, I looked down as she stepped forwards reaching her hand through the gate grabbing my chain running her finger slowly over the picture of Brandon analyzing it.
"You be safe Dani aight...keep moving forward."
"J LET THAT BITCH IN! LET HER IN!" Quickly stepping back turning around shaking my head as Ella made her way towards up pulling her hood over her head tieing it tightly covering her hair, I looked back towards Dani as she began stepping back away from the gate looking back towards me.
"Make sure they all know I'm truly sorry, but go see him Jeremiah...for real." Dani said as she began walking down the street turning back looking at me once before disappearing.
"Where the fuck she gooo I was ready for her?" Turning towards Ella as she stood beside me looking towards the direction Dani went sucking her teeth, I shoved her pulling up my sweatpants lifting my fist. "Ohhh you tryna fight big bro?"
"Hell yea talking all dat hot shit, show me whatchu' workin wit?"
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Looking down at Brandon's grave as I felt a wave of coldness come over my body, I slowly bent down placing white roses on it running my fingers over his name shaking my head still in disbelief.
"I can't do this shit." I mumbled as I stood up going to turn around but quickly stopped confused as to why my black timbs felt like they had bricks in them, it was almost if I couldn't walk away.
I've never been the type to show emotion which is exactly why I told Jhene I was going to my Momma's crib after the studio but now that I'm standing here alone...I'm lowkey feeling regretting it.
"I blame myself bro. I just wish I was there on the real. That's just who I am, I've always protected everybody all my life...and the one day you needed me, I wasn't there for ya. I should have known or picked up on the shit in time to handle it, but a nigga was busy wit the wedding, the studio, I just had so much going on. And now...now you ain't here." Kneeling down leaning into my arm as I began balling, I quickly looked up scrunching my face hearing noise coming from behind me.
"Nigga you lucky ya ass looked up in time, I was finna deck you in ya shit for leaning on my niggas grave on the real. You good though, shouldn't ya ass be at the crib wit my nephew?" Turning away from Antonio as he stood beside me placing some black roses beside mine, he bent down beside me staring down at the grave with a cold expression on his face. "First time you been back?"
Nodding my head wiping off my face as Antonio turned towards me throwing his arm over my shoulder, I took a deep breath shaking my head never imagining in a million years we'd be here.
"Shit crazy man...shit will never see real. Just wish I had another opportunity to do things differently ya know?"
"We all wish we can have a second shot at things, but life don't work that way. All we can do is move forward, and he would want us to do that as well. Goofy ass probably looking down at us calling us pussies right now." Busting out laughing having flashes of Brandon's contagious smile, knowing Antonio was right I nodded my head looking up towards the sky. "Aye you remember when this nigga tried to break into that car back in Atlanta and there were three cane corso's in that bitch."
"Now you know damn well you was wrong for not letting him in the crib, had his ass standing on the railing scared as shit."
"Nobody told his ass to break into that fucking whip, dumbass." Shaking my head as Antonio and I laughed thinking back to that day, we began reminiscing on all the crazy shit we used to get into with Brandon.
Never would have thought of all people Antonio would be the one to make a nigga look at shit differently...but he did. I had way more good memories with Brandon than bad, so I just gotta keep fighting every day to focus on those.
My bro lived a happy ass life, and gifted us with his son to continue his legacy.
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Baby shark, doo doo doo doo doo doo
Baby shark, doo doo doo doo doo doo
Baby shark, doo doo doo doo doo doo
Baby shark!
"Baby boy do you see them? Zero home training." Ignoring Jhene as I danced beside Jade on Jhene and I's bed while Baby Shark blasted throughout our bed room, Jhene watched us laughing as she sat in the chair in the corner of our room breastfeeding Jonah before she put him to sleep. "This boy sure can eat jesus, oh that was funny...you giggling little man?"
Seeing how different Jonah was as an infant compared to how Jade was, is the craziest thing. While Jade on her serious shit from the moment she came out the womb, Jonah been smiling and giggling since he was born...just a happy ass baby. Definitely got that from his Momma.
"No for real man, those dada's and you hogging them on some real shit." I mumbled laying down pulling Jade beside me as she cooled off beginning to fall asleep beside me while I ran my hand through her hair, reaching to mute the TV volume. "He sleep?"
Looking towards Jhene as she pulled her bralette down nodding, I slowly stood off the bed picking Jade up quietly making my way into her room placing her into her crib.
Smiling down at her as she immediately grabbed the pillow in her crib with my face of it, I placed the pink blanket over her body leaning down to kiss her cheek as I made my way to her door turning back around looking around her new room impressed.
I gave Jhene full control with decorating our new crib, and I must say my baby outdid herself. I just wanted a spot we could raise our family, and this spot is just that.
I can't want to be shooting hoops outside in the front with my son, while Jade and Jhene are in the back swimming just cooling out.
"Love you princess." Turning off her room light leaving the door cracked, I made my way back into our bedroom walking behind Jade throwing my arm around her neck, as she smiled down into the crib beside our bed slowly looking up at me. "We really got a son yo, shit crazy."
"Jonah Tariq Neverson. J.T.N....same initials as his daddy." Looking towards Jhene as she smiled down at our son, I couldn't help but see their similarities. She was always lowkey mad Jade got all my genes, but this boy definitely look like his momma.
Kissing Jhene's cheek, I moved beside her leaning down kissing his forhead as I turned around hopping onto our bed getting under the cover. Watching Jhene as kissed him once more walking over to our dresser beginning to tie up her hair, I couldn't help but keep my eyes glued to her ass.
To have popped out two kids, Jhene look good as hell no cap. Jade definitely blessed her Momma but my son...he was definitely looking out for his daddy.
Jhene's ass so big she sent me out the other day to get her underwear cause all her old ones are so tight them bitches were thongs at this point...which a nigga had zero problem with.
"Jeremiah." Quickly looking up as Jhene stale faced me catching me looking at her ass, I busted out laughing turning away as she grabbed one of my big t shirts putting it on before she slid into bed.
Jhene has always been confident with her body, even after having Jade...but this go round her body hasn't dropped the wait as quickly as it did with Jade, and I could tell it was getting to her.
She keeps pointing out the fact her face is chubby and a little tummy but I honestly didn't give a fuck. She just brought my child into world, fuck I look like judging? At the end of the day she will always be beautiful in my eyes, and I want her her to see and know that.
"Fuck you got that shirt on for?" I question picking at the shirt as she slapped my hand away irritated, huffing loudly I shook my head turning over reaching in my nightstand grabbing a little gift I picked up for her placing it in her lap. "Open it."
Watching as Jhene shyly opened the gift, I smiled as she slowly widened her mouth lifting the necklace in the air with her bottom lip tucked in her mouth becoming emotional.
"It's beautiful baby, thank you. Come here." Leaning up as Jhene put the box on her nightstand, she leaned towards me pressing her lips upon mine smiling between the kisses, as I slowly began moving my hand up her shirt causing her to quickly move my hand moving back. "Stay tryna feel up on my back fat."
"Jhene stop with that, you look good baby. This fire ass body the reason my son sleeping a few feet away from us, I love this body." Watching Jhene intensively as she smiled lightly nodding her head, I could tell she was hearing me but she wasn't believing my words. "Ya skin glowing mamas."
Smiling down at Jhene running my hand down the side of her face, we stared at each other failing to say anything as I studied her face just appreciating how pretty my wife was.
"Would you ever stop loving me Jeremiah?" Scrunching my face at her question seeing the curiosity in her eyes, I leaned forward pressing my lips against hers movingon top of her as I forced my tongue into her mouth kissing her aggressively.
Kissing her once more I slowly made my way down lifting her t shirt kissing her neck, then chest, then her stomach. Slowly moving back up holding myself over her as she placed her hands over her stomach covering it, I looked into her eyes making sure she saw the seriousness in what I was saying.
"Never. No such thing. I told you the day we got married our love was unconditional and I meant it. Don't you ever question that...you hear me?" I said as Jhene stared up at me holding onto ever word, almost as if she needed reassurance. "I love you girl."
"I love you too."