Jimin opened his eyes and immediately panicked when he saw the unfamiliar room. Then he remembered the night before.
This was one is Kai's room.
Did he get so fucked up that he completely blacked out for who knows how long? As soon as he sat up a sharp pain hit the back of his eyelids.
His stomach was so nauseous and his mouth was dry. The aching headache was almost intolerable.
When he turned his head to the right he felt himself spin around the room. That's when he saw Yoongi sitting on a couch at the very end of the room.
"Hey," Yoongi said casually.
Jimin held his stomach looking down at his lap. For some reason having him here triggered his upset stomach more.
He knew he had been mean the night before. He knew how heartless he could be when being hurt. And that was a lot to stomach down.
"I left some Advil and water next to you. You can shower if you want. Kai doesn't mind."
Jimin nodded reaching over to grab the pills and putting them in his mouth. He gulped down the water within seconds.
This is how he knew he was really hung over because he almost never drunk water like that. "Thanks." He mumbled quietly when he was finished.
"Sure."
Jimin waited a few minutes until he didn't feel so unsettling anymore and then he finally got up.
He was still only in his jeans with no shirt. Weird how the night before he was extremely confident, but now here he was blushing uncontrollably.
Yoongi noted how flustered he was so he avoided looking at him. Jimin finally made it to the bathroom and he shakily locked the door.
He couldn't find a new toothbrush so he simply squirted toothpaste and mouthwash in his mouth get rid of the bad breath.
After doing that he jumped in the shower. His head was still throbbing. Would Yoongi he gone when he got out?
A part of him wanted to hurry up to stop him from leaving. The other part of him was extremely scared to face him.
Fifteen minutes later he was out the shower. When he was out he realized that he didn't have any clean clothes.
Yoongi knocked on the door like he was reading his mind. "I've got clean clothes here." He told.
"O-okay," he said opening the door slightly. Yoongi handed him the clothes and he immediately took them closing the door behind.
When he was done, he walked out feeling the nervous gut feeling at the center of his stomach.
Yoongi wasn't in the couch anymore. Jimin's heart suddenly sunk. It wasn't until he heard Yoongi clear his throat from the balcony that he sighed relieved.
He grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around his body before going outside. He quietly approached him and took a seat next to him.
Yoongi looked at him and slowly smiled. It was refreshing to see Jimin without his flashy outfits and eye catching hairstyles.
Here he was wrapped around a blanket like a baby with his eyes big and lips plumped. He looked so beautiful.
Jimin looked down with his eyes full of tears. He swallowed down the lump on his throat and that didn't stop the tears from streaming down his face.
"What's wrong?" Yoongi whispered.
"Nothing. I'm just really happy you're here."
He admitted sadly.
Yoongi bit the inside of his lip his chest throbbing. "Hey, it's okay. Don't cry." He cooed.
"I'm just really sorry for being mean to you."
He weeped.
"It's okay. I know you were drunk and alcohol makes you say things you don't mean."
Jimin shook his head, "No, no, not just last night. I'm sorry for hurting you even before that. I'm pretty messed up. All I've ever done is hurt those who care about me when I'm feeling sad. It's a cruel thing to do I know. I'm reckless."
Yoongi took a shaky breath. "I'm not going to lie. You hurt me in ways I can't describe, but I know you do it because you're also hurting. I've never met someone who has had a past like yours. So, I try to understand you. Actually, I do understand you. And I know that...I know that we weren't anything. I know we never were official...but I want you to know that you were and you are the most important person in my life. You always will be."
Jimin weeped harder burying his face into the blanket. That's all he ever wanted to be. Important in someone's life.
Yoongi scooted closer blinking the tears away. He knew he had to be stronger for Jimin. And although he knew they couldn't be lovers at the moment he still wanted to be there for him.
Not as lover. As a friend.
"We don't have to be in a relationship right now, Jimin. I also apologize for pushing you to be in a relationship with me. I know you aren't in the mindset for that. Instead of pressuring you to be my lover I should've been your friend first."
Jimin uncovered his face and rested his face against his arm. Yoongi looked down at his puffy teary eyes and red nose. He wrapped his arms around his tinier frame.
"I have to tell you what has made me this way. You already know my childhood wasn't the best. I haven't told you this yet, but Taehyung use to be my best friend. I encountered him again when he started hanging out with, Jungkook. Taehyung betrayed me by sleeping with my ex boyfriend years ago. I'm still hurt about that, but now I know that I wasn't in love. I think talking to Taehyung gave me a sense of peace. I'm not angry about it anymore. Just hurt."
"Oh, that explains so much." Yoongi said remembering the whole situation with Jungkook.
"Yeah, and that was the last thing I needed you know? That day I not only lost my best friend I lost myself too in a way. I lost my way and started being a person I always told myself I wouldn't be. I truly apologize for dragging you into my mess."
Yoongi rested his head against his and rubbed his hand up and down Jimin's shaky body. "You need time for yourself. Give yourself time to heal. Don't be so hard on you. Nobody is forcing you to be happy right now. Happiness takes time to achieve, okay? You need to heal first."
"I want to be with you," Jimin softly whispered. He reached over to wrap his hand on top of, Yoongi's.
"And I love you,"
Yoongi held his breath. He couldn't believe that after all this time he finally got to hear those words come out of Jimin's mouth.
"But, I can't be with you right now. Not when I'm constantly hurting you. Like you said I need time. I'm not asking you to wait for me because that's a selfish thing to do. You need to move on with your life too." He added.
Yoongi held him tighter. He wished Jimin would've ask him to wait, but he was right. They couldn't keep doing this. Not right now anyways.
Maybe their timing just wasn't right.
"I get it. Maybe one day we will be right for each other." Yoongi whispered.
Jimin nodded his eyes flooding with tears. "Maybe."
"You have my phone number, right? You can unblock it and contact me when you need me." He laughed.
Jimin straighten up and nodded a bit excited. Yoongi smiled and wiped his tears with his thumbs.
He leaned over and rested his forehead against Jimin's. He took a sniff of his scent because he didn't know when he would be able to again.
"Hey, maybe don't listen to your voicemail from last night. I was drunk and being stupid." Jimin quickly said turning bright red.
Yoongi laughed again, "I forget my voicemail password half of the time. I have to go reset it. I will delete your last voicemail. I promise."
"Okay good." He said eagerly wrapping his arms around his neck. They hugged for a while. Until Jimin's arms went numb.
Yoongi was looking at him and smiling and for the first time in a while Jimin felt alive. Then he held his hand and Jimin couldn't put into words the warmness spreading throughout his chest.
He never thought holding someone's hand could put his fears to rest within seconds. Yoongi smiled once again pushing through his heartache.
He looked up at the sky and blinked his tears away. In his mind he told the sky, the clouds, and the heaven above how much he loved, Jimin.
And for a split second the sky felt so small compared to his love.