Jason messed up and he knew it the moment he saw her eyes getting wide and wet. He shouldn't bring up things that happened in the past and not the subject that makes her heartbreak into pieces and her world crushing down to her feet
A few hours back Jason came back from work, angry and frustrated because of his job, things weren't all so great so he yelled at his teammates and he came home all angry and ready to start a fight with his girlfriend
Why didn't she wet the plans, why the windows aren't open, why didn't she finished the dinner when she knew he will be like at eight PM sharp snd why on earth is so warm in their house. And why was she wearing a hoodie when we're so many degrees in the kitchen and she was seating next to the stove
Things didn't bother her because she knew he had to release all the anger and frustration on something, so she let him take it out on her. Sometimes it would be more than yelling. Most of the time times he would come home and grab her by her waist and push her into the wall or whatever she had behind her
She didn't mind that either, she never minded him being a little rough and demanding but what really upset her is when he brings up things that happened in her life. Things that she isn't very fond of and she wants to forget but he simply won't let her
She shouldn't be embarrassed by those things because she didn't want to do all of those things and it's not like she had a choice. When he saw her for the first time she was in her knees snd she had chains wrapped around her wrists and ankles
She hated her father for everything he's done to her, for everything he forced her to do and mostly he hates that he is her father and she has his blood running through her veins
So it's no wonder that when Jason brought up this subject her eyes widened and tears we're already running down her small face, he promised he won't bring that subject up no matter what, he promised he won't ever mention her father or his name.
She didn't even let him apologize, she turned around and took her keys next to the door and climbed into the car driving God knows where. All she knew was hurt snd she didn't want to see or hear Jason for a while.
She drove around the city and stopped somewhere next to a bridge and gazed into nothing less, mind wandering and drifting back to the times his father was still alive and all the hell he put her through.
How he made her learn and learn and learn so she could defend him one day in the court in front of the judges and many other people who would have wanted him locked in a cold empty cell with nothing but him and the rats
But at the end of the day, it wasn't that bad if she thinks about it. If her father wasn't that bad Gangster with a lot of enemies she wouldn't have met Jason and she wouldn't have knows how it feels to be loved by someone, how it feels to live in harmony
Yes, they had a dark time in their relationship at the beginning, they weren't even a couple, Jason saved her and bring her to his home, giving he a roof to live under and just be safe in his warm house. He didn't look at her or talked with her for months, but she didn't mind. He saved her so she was ( is ) thankful for him no matter what
Months later they were getting closer and she leaned more things about him day by day and she started to love the man she was living with. She discovered how soft and funny he can be when he is all comfortable with someone's presence
He loves her too, so so much that he can't even describe it or tell it to the world. Fighting with her makes his heartbreak in a half, makes him hate himself, but tonight he might hate himself a little more because of what he said
He didn't know where she saw, was she safe, was she followed by someone, was she warm. Where was she? She doesn't have friends because she isn't allowed to have friends who might be his enemies.
He sighs as he took his phone out and typed on her name and send her a message in the hope she will text him back
Text messages
Jason: where are you?!
Y/n: Out
Jason: I get it, I was a dick and I shouldn't have yelled at you but youre not supposed to run every time we get into a fight Y/n. Come back and let's discuss this
Y/n: I'm not coming back only because you want me too, I'll come when I feel like it. Go to sleep or go do stuff without my knowledge, you're so good at it
Jason: Youre very stubborn but I'll let you have your way today, mostly because I'm sorry for what I said. Please tell me you're safe and youre coming back home. I love you so much, please come home to me.
Y/n Goodnight Jason
It was past midnight when he went upstairs getting ready for bed even though he knew he won't be able to close an eye. He was too worried to try and get some sleep. He called his team and made them search for her and keep an eye on her if they find her
He didn't get any answer so it was obvious that they didn't found her yet or they stop because there was no use. If someone goes away it's because they want to be alone.
He doesn't know when he fell asleep but he woke with a loud sound coming from downstairs so he knew Y/n was the one who comes inside. She was the only one who had access to the gate code and the only one who had a key, so it should be her.
He got up and run downstairs, searching for her and he sighs in relief when he sees her in the kitchen with a cup of coffee in her hands, getting all warmed up. He wants to grab and hug and kiss her and just be happy that she's at home and safe and sound
'Where have you been ?' He asks crossing his arms on his chest looking at her not doing what he wanted to do. He pushed those soft thoughts aside. He wanted to know where she was the whole night
'Like I said, outside ' she mumbled turning her back toward him and look out the window, the back yard on full display in front of her eyes, the grass and the tall trees blocking the other houses 'Dont turn your back to me Y/n ' he said raising his voice making her sigh
'Why are you yelling?' She asked again turning around to face him, watching his cheeks turn a deep shade of red, eyes wide and red. She notices the bags under his eyes, but she also notices how glossy his eyes became and how his lower lip is taken between his front teeth
'Because I was scared, alright? I fucked up last night, I know how much it hurts you when someone brings up your father and all the things he's done to you but that's not a reason for you to walk out on me' he said raising his voice again wiping his eyes in frustration
'You coming home from work all angry and frustrated isn't a reason to raise your voice at me and telling me off for everything I do and I don't do' she yelled back making him look at her and sigh. She was never the one to yell back at him
'You come home every single day, yelling at me for everything that you don't like. Why it's so warm in here? Why aren't this clothed folded as they should? Why are you drinking coffee! I'm so tired of all of this Jason. I'm so full of your shit' she yelled grabbing at her hair
'Watch your mouth !' He said but this time it came out more like a warning and she shook her head 'You come home, yelling at me then you fuck me until I can't even walk and then you leave like nothing happened Jason. This isn't right.
' I don't push things that hurt you in your face every time you do something I don't like' she said this time more calmly looking at her feet not wanting this fight to keep ongoing. She was tired
'Could you at least look at me?' He asked walking closer to her standing tall in front of her 'I know it's not right for me to do and say something that it hurts and I'm truly sorry my love ' he said taking her hands in his wrapping them around his waist
'You don't get to do this ' she whispered pushing her head on his chest making him smile and kiss the top of her head 'I'm sorry baby, for everything ' he said again wrapping his arms around her shoulders
'I promise I'll leave my problems at work and focus just on you when I walk through that door ' he said and put his thumb under her jaw making her look at him 'Forgive me ?' He asks and she sighs 'I'm sorry I walked out on you. We promised we won't do that no matter what ' she said and smiled
'That's ok. I'll forget you leaving in the middle of a fight if you forgive me ' he said making a small smile tag on the corner of her lips 'And I promise I won't bring him in a conversation no matter how heated it gets ' he said and she nods smile
'Ok ?' He asks placing a peak on the corner of her lips 'Ok' she giggled as he placed more peaks on her jaw and farther down on her neck 'I think I should make up to you for all the times I shoved you in that wall or counter, huh?' He said and sucked on the sweet spot on her neck making her close her eyes
'Think you should ' she whispered placing her palms on his chest pushing him away gently 'But as good and inviting that sounds, Im hungry and dirty ' she said making him laugh and peaked her lips a few times
'Then go and shower, I'll get something done for you to eat in the meantime' he said and she nodded running upstairs getting cleaned up
They are both wrong, they will make more mistakes, they will fight some more and yell at each other but they will always love one another at the end of the day. Because their love is stronger than any fight and misunderstandings
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I can't go out in the following weeks at all. Please stay safe wherever you live, stay at home, and be patient. All love