"GOTCHA!"
Two strong arms slung around my waist and lifted me from the moving ground, a sharp and deep gasp from pure shock pumping up my lungs in a matter of seconds. My heartbeat was rivaling a jackhammer in speed and intensity alike as I was put down on the stable floor again, joyful, loud laughter accompanying me as I turned around to look the culprit in the eye.
Of course, it's Erwin...
With a strong punch with the flat of my hand against his hard chest, I pushed him away from me, angry and still so deep in shock that I had to lean against the treadmill behind me, my hand above my heart as I tried to catch my breath.
"Goddammit, Erwin! Don't you dare to scare me like that ever again!" I bargained, his laughter still not dying as he's supporting himself against another sports machine but from laughter.
"I'm...I'm sorry, sweetheart. I just saw you in your world and I couldn't resist." He apologized, wiping a few tears from his eyes before he inhaled deeply after his laughter finally subsided. My heart still hasn't calmed down fully, but at least I don't have to convince it that there's no danger around.
"Fuck, Eyebrows...You know damn well that I'm a scaredy-cat and easily startled. Why would you do that to me?" I whined overdramatically, stemming my hands into my hips to give him the "Scolding Mom" look, but instead of a beaten or defeated man, he came up to me and this time, he wrapped his arms around my back tenderly, pressing me against his chest while resting his face on top of my head, where I heard him taking a deep sniff of my hair. I could tell by the change of temperature that I was blushing. Hard.
A few people around stopped their workout to give us their curious gazes, somewhere filled with adoration, and of course, those of the females who thought that they looked better than me, game me glares that rivaled Mikasas. All green from envy.
"Again: I'm sorry, sweetness. I didn't mean to scare or hurt you. You looked so deep in your thoughts, and I'm sure you were brooding about Friday again, and I came to think you needed a distraction. My bad if I guessed wrong here."
"No...no. You're right about that." I sighed in defeat, leaning into him as I returned his hug when my arms laced around his back. I closed my eyes for a moment and inhaled deeply, and my senses were tickled by Erwin's unique masculine scent, mixed with his usual aftershave. His calm aura and caring nature, together with that intoxicating smell were always able to calm me down. I felt his warm breath on top of my head as he breathed a few kisses into my hair, his hand stroking up and down my back soothingly.
"You think you're ready for what's coming, sweetness? I would understand if you want to quit our arrangement."
"No. I'm not, but we can't go on like this. Stealing kisses in the shadows, holding each other like this as if we're a couple and so on. We can't, and you know that. Sooner or later, Levi will find out on his own, and then it would be even worse for all of us." I reasoned, trying to sound mature and logical, but Erwin has no idea how tempting the suggestion was to simply forget about all this and pretend to continue living as if nothing happened between us, but it will destroy us if we do this. I'm not made for lies like this. It wouldn't take long for me to crumble into pieces at Levi's feet, begging for forgiveness and then it would be already too late. I don't want that, and I'm sure no one else would want to see that.
Erwin nodded with a reassuring hum, squeezing me tighter against his chest, resulting in another sigh from me as if he was pushing out the air from my lungs.
"I know. I knew it from the very beginning that this is wrong, that we 're doing something forbidden by betraying Levi like this, but somehow, my sanity snapped and I wasn't able to think straight anymore when you're around. Can you understand that?"
"I think I can. It's like seeing the world through pink glasses when you're in love, and even if you don't want it, you act out of character, ignoring or tolerating things from which you never thought would bother you. I guess you can put this on the long list."
"Yep. At least you understand. I'm glad. Bear with me for a few more days, then we will finally know how our future will look like and we can move on with a plan. Can you do that?" He asked in his warm, comforting voice, taking my shoulders to look me directly in the eyes.
"Do I have a choice?" I deadpanned, dropping my head and Erwin huffed a burst of slight laughter through his nose.
"No. I guess not. Come, we gathered enough curious gazes. Let's start our workout. Shall we?" He let go of me and offered me his arm instead. I don't know how he does it, but Erwin has the ability to turn my mood upside down with just a few words. With him, I feel as if I can do everything.
For the first time on this day, I smiled honestly, and with that simple action, I also felt a heavy load being removed from my shoulders. Hooking under Erwin's arm, we strolled to our usual training space.
***
Erwin made sure that the remaining time till Friday will be extra hard for me. If on purpose or not, I couldn't tell, but all scolding, avoiding and containing was in vain.
The hours we spent in the gym were equally strenuous for my mind and body. Not that I wasn't already struggling with the heavy weights I tried to lift and keep my arms and posture stable, Erwin had ALWAYS his hands on me. Always...
Every touch of him felt like a little shock as if small and quick lightning bolts jolted through me. I could barely focus on my workout, for as soon as we moved to the weight bench, he sat down behind me, chest pressed against my back.
While I was fighting to ignore his small, but so damn affectionate and loving touches, I was close to dropping the barrels more than once.
During the lifting process for the barrels, my arms shook and trembled while he let his hands wander along my skin, giving me exactly that special treatment I love to receive the most....in bed. Soft and slight strokes for a tickling sensation. He knew all too well that this was my weakness since his birthday, yet, he kept going, and I swear I could sense that bastard smirking!
I tried more than once to ignore it, to lower and angle my arms in hope that he'll remove his hands to focus on our workout...Useless.
Furthermore, I felt that his hands even became more curious instead, gliding along my sides, down to the waistband of my leggings, where his eager fingertips slipped beneath my shirt to draw circles above my hips and waist, in the middle of my back and my sides...It was torture...amazing, sweet and addicting torture.
All my fighting, all my tries to stay concentrated and to listen to his sweetly whispered instructions instead, even though they just poured oil to the fire, was an even harder training than anything he'd put me through by now, and it continued for hours until I couldnt fight anymore. The moment when his hands reached the insides of my thighs, I dropped the barrels in both hands with a moan.
Shocked over my reaction, I shoved his hands away and jumped up from my seat.
I didn't need a mirror to know that my look would've killed him instantly if that was possible.
"Sorry. I went too far." He murmured in excuse, scratching the back of his head with a flustered look. All the teasing was nothing different than goddamn foreplay for sex! In public! With Erwin!
How much I wished to yell the shit out of him right now, but I was too embarrassed to fit together any words. Instead, I tried to fight the heat that swirled inside my guts, causing my loins and pussy to burn from need and that had soaked my panty by now.
Let's be honest: I was horny as fuck right now, and that Erwin was the responsible one for this made it not easier to handle. As I stood there silently, ignoring all the others around us, who shot us curious looks, without doubt, I examined Erwin all over for any sign of regret, but all my eyes wanted to see was the damn bulge between his legs.
Pictures of dragging him away from here, locking us up in a toilet cabin to devour each other like starving animals flooded my overheated brain, how I would suck this swollen cock dry and lick the last drop of cum from his shaft before I make him pumped again to pin me against the wall, fucking me senseless.
My face burned up, even more, heat spreading up to the tips of my ears as I forced myself to shush my horny brain. I had to turn away from Erwin, or he might see my miserable state and take advantage of it.
"Let's end this here for today, Erwin. I'm exhausted" I hoped he will get the hint and come after my wish...
"We're not fully done, sweetness. You sure? Or is something wrong with you?" I believed to hear a slight teasing undertone in his voice, when he stood up to observe me closer, bending forward to me to make eye contact, but I turned away even more. I can't look at him right now...not in this state.
"Yes. I'm sure. Don't ask any further, please." I didn't want to sound that desperate to get away from here, from him, but the urge to run away to bring me relieve burned on my skin.
"Uhm...darling? Are you sure you're truly okay? I'm sorry. I went too far with my teasing and got carried away. I'm very sorry. Are you mad at me?" His voice changed from teasing to worried and sweet so fast, that it shot me right into the heart, skipping a beat and robbing me from all air for a moment, and when his hands landed on my shoulders pleadingly, in hope to make me turn around and look at him, I slapped both his hands away.
"Wow...." The words just escaped Erwin's mouth as he stared at me with eyes blown wide from amazement when he got a very brief sight of my probably beet-colored face as I slapped his hands away.
"SorrybutIreallyhavetogonnow. SeeyouBye!" The breathless words fell so quickly from my lips, that the sentence was merely a very long word, but I never wanted to get away from here faster than now.
I stormed away from Erwin, out of the weight training area, directly into the women changing room, where I just unlocked my locker to stuff all my belongings into my bag.
Still dressed in my gym wear, almost tripping over my own feet as I shoved the door open again, I almost ran into Erwin again, but I elegantly avoided to bump into his chest with a quick spin and a skip.
"Hey! Please wait, Nina!"
"Can't! SeeyouonFriday!" It was pathetic to run away from him like that, avoiding instead of talking it out, but I couldn't help it. This has always been my way of dealing with fights, arguments or difficult situations, so its no surprise that I can't get rid of this habit after years of practicing it. Not even for Erwin, not even for Levi.
I didn't care about me reeking from my workout, nor did I care about the speed I used to drive home as quickly as possible. All I wanted and could think about was to get home and rip my and Levi's damn clothes off!
Within just ten minutes, I had my car parked on my usual spot behind my apartment building. Running up the stairs was harder than I thought in my half-exhausted, half horny state, and once I reached the top floor, I dropped my keys at the try to unlock my door, but a wave of relief cascaded over me when I finally made it inside, locking me and Levi up twice.
The noise alerted Levi instantly and he peeked from the kitchen into the corridor, wearing that black apron and a confused expression. Damn, he looks so fucking hot.
"Already home darling? I was expecting you in an hour. Did something happen?" He asked, his deep, rumbling voice jolting through my system and awaking my hunger for him even more. Gooseflesh prickled all over my skin and I could feel the hair in my neck standing upright. I was so ready for him, ready to get fucked right here and now, but instead, I threw my sports bag into the corner, skipped out of my shoes and tore my clothes off of me before even entering the bathroom. The look on Levi's face was priceless...
"If you don't want me to masturbate alone in the shower, you better turn off the stove and join me before I'm losing my fucking mind." No further words needed. Levi worked so quick and precise, that my clouded eyes had difficulties to follow his movements.
The next that I felt was the cold tiles in my back when Levi had maneuvered us in the shower, lips crashing against each other and tongues battling in fierce excitement as he tried to turn on the warm water with one hand. When finally the warmth poured above us, washing away the results of my today's workout and guilt, I jumped in Levi's arms, wrapped my arms and legs around his strong and chiseled body, his throbbing and hot member impaling me with one sharp thrust. I cried out in pleasure at the feeling of being filled, urging him on to take me harder, faster, and with a loud growl, Levi willingly obliged.
Only the sound of us fucking hard and the raining of the water resonated from the tiles, we both not able to talk. There was no need to. Levi hit my g-spot with his amazing and perfect curved cock with every thrust, and I realized that I wasn't going to last long, and judging from Levi's labored and ragged breathing, his sluggish movements, he wasn't far from his end either. I didn't care... All I wanted was relief, the need to cum and blow off the tension so big, that I didn't care about foreplay, romance or other things. This was all about fucking each other's brains out, and I was absolutely fine with that.
I clung to my lover for dear life, Levi picking up in pace and force to push us to our limit, his groans rising in pitch so as my mewls. My fingers raked over the skin of his back as my head dropped onto his shoulder, unable to carry the weight anymore. I was so close...so damn close, just a little more was all it needed, when suddenly something unexpected happened. Something I never believed or hoped to happen.
When I clenched down around the strong girth inside of me, twitching, throbbing as I was filled with my lovers seed, pictures of Erwin showed up before my inner eye, that he was the one doing this to me, pinning me against the wall, impaling me over and over again with his thick, massive cock while he brought me my desired relief, brought me to orgasm. I could see the soaked blond hair, could feel the tall, build posture against me, could hear his groans, so close, that I almost tasted it.
A euphoric cry filled the air, along with the deep, loud roar of my lover as he filled me up with his semen, thrusts going slower and slower to ride us through our height, and when I came back to earth, my thoughts clear again, deep regret and guilt were poured over me like an ice-cold shower, strong enough to make me numb for the warm water from above.
Shocked and paralyzed, I stared to the ground, panting for air while I tried to fetch a clear thought when a hand on my head caused me to look up, only to meet the soft eyes of my beloved. Levi.
"Well, that was an unexpected, but very welcome ride. I never thought that you could be this hungry for me, baby." He leaned forward and kissed my forehead, and it felt as if he was closing his fist around my heart to rip it out of my chest.
"Hurry up with showering. I'll finish dinner and then we can enjoy the rest of the day. Together." With a wink, he stepped out of the shower, wrapped a towel around his waist and left me alone.
As soon as Levi was gone, the door closed, my guilt overwhelmed me mercilessly. I sat down on the ground, pulled my legs close to my body and hugged them close, a dangerous and vicious mix of sadness, guilt, and disgust taking over me as I cried and sobbed into my legs, curled up like a fetus on the ground as the pouring water made sure to erase all evidence from my face. Not only that I was pathetic and weak, but now I also have become a traitor...a cheater.
The kisses I shared with Erwin...I don't know if they can be seen as cheating, but what happened today surely was.
I felt so ashamed, so filthy and dirty, unworthy of everyone's love, and no matter how hard I tried to wash the filth from my skin, no matter how hard I scrubbed, the dirt won't come off.
Thirty minutes passed without me leaving the shower, doing all I could while sitting until I heard Levi knocking on the door.
"Get your soaked ass out of there. Now! Dinner is ready and I'm sure you're more than clean for me by now. Hurry!"
I had no other choice...
As Levi and I sat in the living room on the small dining table, silence and the cutlery on the plates were all that could be heard. My eyes were red from all the crying, and Levi asked what was wrong, but I lied that I got soap into my eyes and he believed it. Or so I hoped.
Because after we finished and all was put into the sink, Levi took my hand in his and guided me back to the couch, where we sat down side by side, but he turned towards me, taking my other hand as well so I can't turn away anymore. He knew that something isn't right with me, and now, I was forced to face the music.
"Darling, Nina, I can't stand seeing you like this anymore. I sensed that something was wrong with you since the day I came back here, but I ignored it and said to myself that you will get back on your feet, back to your old, cheery self, but now, I can't ignore it anymore. So, please...Tell me what's wrong. Vent a little for me, rant, swear, I don't care, but tell me what makes you so sad. I want to help you somehow, but I can't if you don't tell me."
Levi had not even finished his plead when already warm tears poured down on our folded hands.