y/n's pov
-we all agreed on going back to kais house to hang out. when we got there we all went to his room. i could feel mattias eyes on me the whole time, i looked up and when our eyes contacted he quickly looked down at his phone-
y/n: take a picture polibio, it'll last longer
tia: maybe i will
-everyone started laughing and mattias face turned red-
ale: damn bro, i can't believe tomorrow's the last day of junior year
tay: i know, i'm lowkey gonna miss it
y/n: same
kai: yea but summers gonna be lit tho
tia: very
ale: oh yea, guys there's a party tomorrow night, we are going, i don't care what any of you have to say about it
y/n: where at
ale: it's an open house, it's around your neighborhood
y/n: ok sounds good
tay: i'm down, we just gotta get vic in on it
kai: bet
tia: i'm in
tay: welp looks like mattias gonna get some tomorrow night
tia: only if it's y/n
y/n: nope
kai: mattia just give up bro
tia: never
-he looked at me and winked, i smiled but i rolled my eyes. a little while later i caught mattia staring at me again, when we made eye contact he pointed at his phone
DING
why is he texting me right now
i know i'm going to regret this but, here goes nothing. he gets up first and a few minutes later i go after him. he pulled me into the bathroom by my wrist-
tia: you came
y/n: what do you want
tia: you
y/n: mattia no, how many times do i have to tell you,
no
tia: please just give me a chance
y/n: is that what you tell all of your bitches
tia: no, they usually just go with it without me even asking
y/n: you sicken me
-i turned to walk away but he grabbed my wrist once again and pulled me close to him. he wrapped his arms around my waist, not gonna lie it was hot-
tia: please just let me try to change your mind
y/n: i can't, i've been heart broken way too many times for me to just let you do it to me too. i can't do it mattia
tia: what if i don't want to hurt you
y/n: you getting what you want and leaving, hurts
tia: what if i want more than you think
y/n: you're staying what if too much. i can't trust it, i just can't do it
tia: maybe this'll change your mind
-he gently placed his hand on my cheek and moved his lips closer to mine, until they finally came together. i only let him get one peck before i pulled away and walked away-
tia: y/n wait!
-i just pretended i didn't hear him and i kept walking back to kais bedroom. he kissed me. fuck he kissed me. what did i just do, i said i wouldn't let it happen. fuck. i went back to kais room and a little while after, mattia followed. he kept staring at me and i just couldn't be there anymore, i was too uncomfortable-
y/n: guys i'm gonna go home
ale: why
y/n: just tired
tay: want me to drive you
y/n: no i'll walk
kai: you sure y/n?
y/n: yea
tia: *yawn* you know what i'm kinda tired too, i'll go too so you don't have to walk alone
y/n: no funny business polibio
-he threw his hands up in the air and looked offended but i couldn't care less, i had my reasons-
tia: hey, just trying to make sure you get home safe
kai: mattia cares about her saftey? ale this might just be the one
ale: i know this shits crazy
y/n: it's not happen- you know what never mind, i'll see you guys tomorrow
ale: see ya
kai: but y/n, bye mattia
tia: peace
tay: byee, don't be late again tomorrow
y/n: i'll try!!
-me and mattia walked out of kais house with a good amount of distance separating us. it was quiet for most of the time before, but of course he had to break the silence and get closer to me-
tia: you can't tell me that kiss meant nothing to you
y/n: i know it meant nothing to you, so yea it did mean nothing.
tia: what if it did mean something
y/n: there you go with the what if's again. i told you i didn't want to do it anyways
tia: but you're glad we did
y/n: nope.
tbc
authors note: thank y'all for all of the love on this story. i really appreciate it💕