irresistible | mattia polibio

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y/n pov

-after kai and tia made up, we all just hung out for a while. they played fifa for a bit and then they asked me to make some tiktoks with them.

their followers know that i'm friends with them because they've seen me on their live streams and sometimes in the back of their tiktoks but i don't let the boys post videos with me because i don't want none of their clout or hate.

me and mattia made a tiktok and he kept watching it over and over again-

y/n: how many times you gonna watch it?

tia: its cute

y/n: it's just a tiktok

tia: yea but you're in it

y/n: aw how cute

kai: ale! mattias bein soft again!

ale: shit i missed it!

tia: shut up both of you, y/n lemme post it

y/n: no

tia: why not you look cute!

y/n: no mattia, your 11 year old supporters are psycho paths

kai: she's right

tia: hey chill, it's not my fault i'm sexy

y/n: don't flatter yourself polibio

ale: for real, self conceded ass

kai: i'm sexier

y/n: oh god another one

tia: my supporters say different kai

ale: both of you stfu

tia: listen i'm posting it, hate gets ignored. period

y/n: no mat-

tia: i said i'm posting it

y/n: ugh whatever

-he let out a smile while i rolled my eyes. he posted it anyways and it pissed me off because i made it clear to all of them that i didn't want to be in any of their videos because all of their supporters hate when they see them with any girls. i just shook it off and went back to hanging out with the them.

while they were playing fifa i was on my bed laying down facing the wall while on my phone and i was scrolling through tiktok. eventually i saw the tiktok that me and mattia made on my for you page. i decided to look at the comments, little did i know, that wouldn't be a good decision. i read them...

"ew back off mattia whore"
"this better not be his new girl"
"looks like mattia got another video game"
"^ahaha i get it, bc he's gonna play her"
"puking"
"he could do SOOOOO much better"
"her body isn't even it"
"whole fandom is punching the air rn"
"what's this bitch @, we gotta let her know wassup"
"back off my man hoe"
"he's gonna play her like he does every girl"
"dude she's not even pretty"

i feel my eyes fill with tears as i read through the thousands of comments, the majority of the being insanely negative and mean. i felt the tears roll down the side of my face and fall onto my pillow. i tried my hardest to stay quiet while crying so that the boys wouldn't hear me.

i continued to scroll through the comments while silently crying when i let out a little sniffle. a few moments later i feel weight join me on the other side of my bed. a pair of arms wrap around my waist and i feel plump warm lips on my cheek. i turn my head and see that ale and kai are still playing fifa and that mattia joined me on my bed-

tia: what's wrong mamas

y/n: ...

-i look back at my phone making him look too. he looked and realized that i was reading the hate comments and he then took my phone from my hands and placed it on my nightstand before planting a kiss on my forehead. he wiped the tears off of the sides of my face and then spoke up-

tia: you know their opinions don't matter y/n, right?

y/n: doesn't mean it doesn't still hurt

tia: they are a bunch of 10 year olds who are obsessed with me and are mad that you're the only one that gotta chance with me

y/n: i'm sure i'm not the only one

tia: but you are y/n

y/n: even you're supporters think that you're gonna use me. i look and feel like an idiot

-i looked down and he picked my chin up and cupped my face in his hands, making eye contact with me-

tia: y/n, what is it gonna take for you to understand that i know i've fucked up. and i know that my reputation is t the best. but i want to change, and i've told you this so many times. and i'm gonna do everything i possibly can to prove that to you. you're a beautiful loving and caring person, and over the years of us being friends i've obviously grown love and care for you. and ever since we came to high school there's been something about you that i just really really love, and it drove me insane since then. but then jenna came along and i just decided to stay friends with you. and yea i had my "player" stage but y/n, i want you. i don't care what anyone has to say about it.

-i listened to him speak on with tears rolling down my face. there was a second of silence when mattia finished speaking before it was broken by kairi-

kai: simp

ale: emphasize message

tia: will you guys shut the fuck up for once, you jus had to ruin the moment.

kai: my bad

-kai and ale went back to playing fifa and i finally spoke up to mattia, crying uncontrollably the whole time-

y/n: mattia, i love and care about you too. but you have to understand why i feel this way. i've been so hurt and taken advantage of in my past, mentally emotionally and physically. how do you expect me to react when a known player comes my way saying that he wants me. and not only do i have to deal with my trust issues, but i have to deal with the hate from your fucking supporters too. it's so much to take in at once. i don't know how to take it, it's just so stressful. i don't feel the same way about myself, i have no confidence, and i have trust issues. i think i'm never good enough because everytime i try anything, i get fucked over. i'm not good enough for anyone because everyone i've tried with, always finds better. i don't know how to trust you and it's not only you it's everyone. i don't know how i'm supposed to change my mind abou-

-the whole time i was speaking i was sobbing. i was cut off from my sentence with a pair of familiar lips on mine, mattias. i kissed him back and he held my face in his hands. the kiss was so passionate and soft.

after a few seconds mattia pulled away and looked at me, he was breathing heavily with sorry in his eyes. he wiped my tears away and put his forehead against mine-

tia: did that change your mind?

tbc

authors note: i'm so sorry for not posting for a few days. i've jus been really busy with school so i hope y'all understand. and i hope you're all staying safe with all of this coronavirus shit.

leave ideas in the comments bc i don't wanna end up with writers block again bc i actually like this book but once i run out of ideas i'm gonna want to give up. so comment. pls and ty.

lena and mattia are cute tho🥺👉🏻👈🏻

anyways thanks so much for all of the support and being patient. ily all so much❤️❤️