Diya pov
I don't know how many hours I am sitting here like a dead person.
It's a temple with very little crowded which I found yesterday morning after I left him taking his memories and hurtful words which is killing me each and every second.
I can't cry.
I can't laugh.
I can't be sad.
How can a dead person have any feelings?
He killed me.
Killed me alive.
Along with my heart.
Every part of me is screaming in anger on me for loving such a person without knowing his intention behind it.
'Just die'
A part of me keeps on yelling at me.
But I don't want to be a coward dying for the person who used me for his revenge.
I left everything behind to be with him.
Even my father.
How I am going to face him now?
What will he think about me?
I am not the one who once gave pride to my father. He will hate me.
"Why is she sitting here like this?" I heard a soft voice very close to me.
I saw many of the women giving me a pitiful look, looking at my state now.
"Don't know, I tried to talk with her but she is not uttering a single word. Poor girl, not even left this place from yesterday" pandit told to something behind my back.
Yes, I am a poor girl. Having nothing with me even I have much on my name.
A poor girl with nothing inside me.
Hollow and empty.
I closed my eyes.
"Diya where are you now?" He asked me happily over the phone.
"It's 12 Arju where will I be? Sleeping in my room" I said sleepily hugging my teddy closely to my chest wanting to get it's warmness to me.
"Who will sleep at this time? Can we go out?"
"You definitely got hit somewhere on your head. I feel sleepy Arju" I said opening slightly my eyes which is not letting me open them.
"Okay you sleep," he said disappointed.
Is my sleep more important than him?
Definitely no.
I don't want to hurt him.
I dialed his number again, "I feel sleepy" he said before I speak.
I laughed at his childishness.
"I am getting ready. Come and pick me up" I said moving my duvet from my body.
"Is it? Then come this second" he said enthusiastically.
Now?
"Arju are you here?"
"Yes my queen" a smile automatically formed on my lips.
"Will be right there my king," I said grabbing a jacket and wore it above my pajamas.
Once I got down I saw him standing there with his hands folded below his chest leaning on his bike looking at my way with a beautiful smile.
Love is in the air.
"Can we?" He asked pointing at his bike. I nodded cheerfully and got on back wearing the helmet he gave me.
I don't care whether it's a walk or bike until I am with him.
He stopped in front of the large bridge where I can feel the cold breeze touching my cheeks making a shiver ran through my body.
"Arju why did you take me here?"
"For this," he said showing me his folded palm.
"Open it," I said looking at his hand.
"You can do it Diya," he said showing his eyes at his hand.
Okay, I murmured and tried to free his fingers from his tight hold.
I hit his hand "open it, you idiot"
He laughed hard seeing me struggling with his hands.
"Arju pleaseee" I pleaded him.
"Okay," he said losing his fingers.
I opened it quickly and found it empty.
I looked at him sadly, "okay okay" he took something from his pocket not showing it to me.
"Close your eyes" I did without asking why.
"Happy valentine day my snow" he kissed my head moving close to me as I can feel his manly perfume filling my nostrils
I smiled wide controlling myself from opening my eyes to hug him right not letting him go for this life.
"Happy Valentine's day Arju," I said.
I felt something cold on my neck, not waiting for the next second I opened my eyes and saw him wearing a simple plain chain on my neck.
Tears automatically filled on my eyes seeing him wearing it carefully on my neck.
It's a gold chain with small linked circles in it.
"We are linked just like this"
"Tq Arju" I hugged him right to let my tears fall.
For a minute he kept silent and then hugged me slowly.
"Shhhh. Don't cry. I want you to smile always" I nodded my head still not controlling my tears.
"Arju, will you take care of me like a mother?" I asked breaking our hug looking into his eyes.
"More than a mother," he said in a serious tone looking deep into my eyes without breaking our eye contact.
I want nothing other than this.....
Just his arms.
Just his hug and his eyes filled with love.
I removed the chain from my neck and removed the ring I wore with it.
"It's the ring, my maa told my father to give it to me when I meet my man" I took his hand and wore it in his finger not looking at his face. I know I will break down when I see him.
"I am keeping it for 4 years as I got it as my 18th birthday gift from my dad. Love you Arjun"
"Thanks, Diya," he mumbled.
I nodded my head still looking at his fingers where i wore the ring.
He hugged me and whispered, "I won't ever leave you"
I pulled it off my neck and throw it on the floor harshly not caring about the surroundings.
I thought I am your wife the second you wore it on my neck Arjun.
But for you..... It's all one night thing huh? How blind I was?
Tears started to flow down my cheeks uncontrollably. I covered my mouth with my hands to control my sobs but failed miserably due to the pain inside me.
I felt a hand on my shoulder gently.
Quickly I stopped crying wiping my cheeks and sat straight.
A lady came and sat beside me and handed me a water bottle.
She is smiling sadly at me looking at my face.
I want to cry again. I don't want anyone to pity me. What I had made myself?
"Thanks" I gave the bottle back to her not in a mood to have anything for now.
Even death is better than this pain.
"Not every problem has a solution as death," she said smiling at me placing her hand on my head.
I shook my head not trusting my words.
"You can tell me," she said.
How can I trust a person I just meet when the person we know for years leave us hurting us like it never happened?
"Sorry" I managed to say.
"Not every stranger are strangers" what does it mean?
"Love failure?" She asked.
I shook my head standing up from the floor, "life failure" I mumbled slowly with a heavy heart.
She stopped me by placing her hand on my shoulder. Even her gestures of handling me make me want to hug her.
I turned to her, "you can cry if you want" she said.
I don't what she is doing, I felt like I am talking with my mother. I haven't seen my mother. I have always longed for my mother's touch and care.
I hugged her placing my head on her shoulder letting my tears fall on its own.
Why do hugs always feel so good?
"He left me.
He told me he would never leave me.
He cheated me. I loved him more than anything.
I left my father to be with him.
He faked his love.
His care is fake. His hugs, forehead kisses, his gifts, his eyes that shone with happiness... Everything... everything is fake.
Everything. And I fall for it.
He left me after having his revenge.
All those days are just revenge for him.
He left me.
He left me after taking my life.
What did I do to him?
Why did he leave me?
Please ask him to come back to me. I want him. Still a stupid side of me wants him...
I want him" I cried my heart out on a stranger's shoulder.
She rubbed my back soothing me.
"I want to hate him but I can't. Please ask him to come back. Please I won't ask anything from him except love. Please...." I broke down and fall on the floor closing my eyes right not able to bear the pain inside me.
She kneeled down beside me and dragged me off the temple and asked me to sit in her car.
I don't know what I am doing, I did what she said.
She keeps on telling me soothing words but none reached my ears or heart. At least I want them to hear her words and let me live in peace.
"Take rest today, we will talk about these later"
"I don't have any place for me," I said controlling my tears thinking about my father.
"Don't worry. I will take you to my home" she side hugged me gently.
I nodded looking out of the window.
Once we got parked out of a large house no it looks like a castle.
"Seems like my son came to see me. You would definitely like him if you see him," she said happily seeing a car out of the house which is parked outside.
Lucky man.
I got down and saw the driver taking my luggage with him.
"Maa... I am very happy today" I stopped in my track hearing that happy voice.
"I achieved what I have been waiting for these years" my tears formed in my eyes seeing him happy after destroying my life.
When his eyes fall on me he stopped for a second looking puzzled at me, "who is she mom?"