Nothing To Lose

By xoxoharuhiko

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Beam was broken and in more ways than one so was Forth. Can love triumph against pain this time? BOOK 3 - NOT... More

PROLOGUE
1 - we breakdown a little
2 - death by a thousand cuts
3 - when the feeling sinks in
4 - and all the pieces fall
5 - this is me letting go
TEASER
6 - it hurts like hell
7 - soon you'll get better
8 - hang up and give up
9 - you're a full on rainstorm
10 - dreams and warm conversation
11 - remember us this way
12 - wish I was good enough
13 - hold me while you wait
14 - if our love is wrong
15 - im a little unsteady
16 - lights will guide you home
17 - all of the stars
18 - these are hard feelings
19 - dance with the truth
20 - call it what you want
TEASER - Chapter 22 - heavenly way to die
22 - heavenly way to die
23 - you love me most
24 - darling everything is on fire
25 - we got lost in translation
26 - running through rose thorns
TEASER - FINALE
27 - somewhere only we know
FINALE
EPILOGUE
AUTHOR
+ bonus chapter

21 - give me all of you

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By xoxoharuhiko

The water from the shower felt like rainfall against Beam's skin. The heat created a mist on the glass that surrounded the shower are. He felt a hand on his waist coming from behind him.

"Forth. Don't. Even. Think about it." Beam warned.

"Tsk." Forth retracted his hand like a kid being scolded. It made Beam silently snicker.

"Baby? Let me touch you." Forth whined.

"No. We're here to take a bath because we both got soaked from the rain. Nothing more. Okay?" Beam responded.

"But I want to touch you."

Beam almost jumped when he felt Forth's hand squeezed his behind.

"I touch." Forth said before his hand got swatted away by Beam.

"Forth. Stop it." Beam playfully slap Forth in the chest.

The rest of the time they spent on the shower was just Forth finding excuses to touch Beam. And Beam would just slap his hands away. Forth even dropped the soap intentionaly and asked Beam to pick it up but he was completely ignored.

"You're already done?" Forth asked, somewhat annoyed and disappointed. Beam nodded with an innocent look on his face.

"Why?" He asked Forth.

"What about me?" Forth whined.

Beam took a long look at Forth from his head down to his groin. Forth looked down where Beam was staring.

"I'm pretty sure a big boy like you can handle taking a bath alone." Beam winked before stepping out.

Beam was on his way out of the bathroom when he remembered something.

"Baby?" He called. Forth immediately turned to him like a puppy hoping that Beam had a change of heart.

"Thank you. You made me so happy tonight." Beam flashed him his smile before proceeding to head towards the closet, naked. Forth couldn't help but focus on Beam's behind as he walks away.

"Damn." Forth said to himself.

Despite the fact that Forth wasn't able to score, he was elated to hear from Beam that he made him happy. Now all he want is to do things that would make him say all those things all over again.

When he got out of the shower Beam was already on the bed wearing nothing but boxer shorts while scrolling on his phone. The thighs and chest he so wanted to touch is now being served in front of him. The sight made Forth scatched the back of his head.

"Not again." Forth whispered as he continue to stare at Beam.

Beam looked up from his phone.

"Why are you standing there naked?" He asked.

Forth got startled by the sudden interruption from his imagination. He went towards the closet.

"Baby, come here." Beam called out.

"Wait babe. I'll just put on a boxer and then I'll join you in bed." Forth answered while he rummaged through his underwears.

"Forth.. Come here.." Beam's voice sounded husky and low this time. Forth instantly whipped his head towards Beam. He was now confused. But even then he couldn't pass up the invitation if it really was one.

He walked in great stride to their bed, uncovered with his calvin kleins in his hands.

Beam kneeled on the cushion so he could face Forth who was now standing at the edge of their bed.

Forth licked his lips.

"You're messing with me aren't you?" Forth scratched his head helplessly.

"No." Beam answered. He bit his lips and wiggled his eyebrows.

"Baby.." Forth says with a defeated chuckle. He wasn't sure if it's a 'go' signal or not. He felt Beam's hands on his waist. He became fully awakened at his touch.

Forth leaned down to kiss Beam but the other was too quick to move away.

"Baby.." He attempted once more but Beam
"Why won't you kiss me?" Forth said with frustration, his patience running thin.

Beam moved closer and when Forth tried to kiss him Beam avoided his lips and Forth ended up on kissing him on the cheek. Something snapped inside Forth. It was as if a swicth has been flicked and everything went red.

Beam was about to laugh when Forth suddenly pinned him back down on the bed. Forth had a burning rage and anger in his eyes. Beam could see how fast it was consuming Forth. The grip around Beam's wrist was starting to hurt and the way Forth was towering over him sent a chill on his spine that made his heart race.

"F-forth? You're scaring me."

It took a few seconds before Forth shook his head and shut his eyes trying to snap out of his impulsive temper. When he saw how he's pinning down Beam on the bed he quickly moved away.

"I'm sorry.. I.." Forth apologizes clutching on his forehead.

"No. It was my fault." Beam approached Forth's naked figure. He moved closer until he was straddling Forth. Beam kissed him on the forehead, on the cheek and on the neck.

"It's okay. You didn't hurt me. I'm fine. Look.." Beam cupped both of Forth's cheek.
"See? I'm fine, baby." He gave Forth a smile of assurance.

Forth took both of wrist and gently examined it if he caused any bruises. He saw some redness from the way he pinned Beam down earlier. He brought it to his lips and softly kissed it. It warmed Beam when he felt his husband's lips touch his pulse. He shifted on Forth's lap intentionally, teasing him with a little friction.

Forth looked at him as if he was asking Beam for permission. And Beam nodded to allow whatever it is that he wanted. Slowly and gently, Forth reached out to touch Beam's chest. He wanted to caress every part of him that he was seeing. Then his lips soom followed where his hand had touched Beam.

Beam let Forth had his way. He could only breathe shakily and bit his lips to supress his moans. He leaned closer to Forth, asking for a taste of his lips. Forth ravaged his lips. Beam knew it will leave a bruise when morning comes. But the will to resist his Forth had long been gone. His heart pounded away. He could feel Forth on top of him, slowly losing control. Beam looked him in the eyes. He could see how Forth was struggling to remain gentle. He caressed his cheek.

"Forth.. You can do what you want with me. I am yours." Beam whispered, tensed. His arms locked around Forth in between his thighs.

As soon as the words left his lips Forth had dove in on the crook of his neck and plunged his teeth as hard as he could. Before Beam could even react he felt Forth upon his entrance, intruding unannounced. Forth took him like never before. He was harsh and violent yet Beam could feel Forth was after his release and not his own. He was watching him as he writhe from both pain and pleasure. Forth took him to a new high he never thought he'd reach.

With a sigh Forth continued to stroke Beam's back. After the fourth round, Forth eventually cave in on Beam's request to stop.

"Why? What's wrong?" Beam looked at Forth, wondering what the sigh was for.

"I hurt you again."

Aside from the bitemark on his neck, Beam's chest and thighs were filled with countless love marks. Some of it was painful.

"But I do like these ones." Forth pointed the marks he made on Beam's abdomen.

Beam chuckled.

"I kinda like it too." He smiled at Forth.

The following morning, Forth took him again under the shower. It was one of his fantasies that Beam willingly granted him.

He was still sore and he could feel it whenever he stood or sit inside his office. He tried to focus on working but all he could think of was how iressistably hot his husband was. Thinking about what transpired the night before and just this morning makes him stiff. The knock on the door had startled Beam and he pretended to work as he allowed his assistant to enter.
"This came in the mail for you Sir." She handed her a yellow envelope and left.

The address indicated at the back was Forth's company building. It made Beam smiled even though he had not yet seen the contents. This must be one of Forth's surprises again. He opened it and took out the papers inside. A silent gasp escaped from him. His hand covered his mouth when he saw the signature at the bottom. For a moment Beam could have sworn his heart stopped beating.

Confusion was swiftly drowning him as he reads the font written in bold.

"D-divorce Applica-"

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