If there is a word that could describe Mean's feelings right now he won't be able to think of anything at all. Why because right in front of him sat the person he's been looking for 3 years. The person he devoted his heart and life, the very person that he's been dreaming for 3 years. He wanted to hug him, kiss him, claim him and lock him somewhere no one could reach him or even escape from. Somewhere only he could know but he knows he can't do that. He turned to the person beside Plan and narrowed his eyes, his mind going back to the happenings earlier.
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Flashback:
"Plan?"
The guy looked up and was frozen on the spot.
"Mean."
Mean stared at Plan and noticed how different he looked now. He seems more mature and even more beautiful. He can't believe his eyes. He can't believe that the person he's been looking is right in front of him. He wants to say a lot of things to Plan but the only thing he blurted out was.
"I miss you"'
He saw how Plan flushes with those words despite the stiffening of his shoulders. The flush made his heart beat faster with hope. He was about to walk up to him when he heard another voice.
"Plan, did you find Perth? Tonnam won't stop cryi..ng" The person who called Plan stopped in his words abruptly. "Mean? What are you-?" Then he turned to Plan who looked away.
Mean blinked in confusion. "What is going on?" He asked.
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And that brought them in this moment where they sat in a fast-food restaurant with a playpen for the kids. Mean stared at the people in front of him and breathe.
"Earth." He called out. "Do you have something to tell me?" He asks.
Earth bit his lower lip and sneaked a glance at Plan's direction before turning to Mean. "I understand how you're feeling right now Mean but..." He stopped in his words.
Mean raised a brow. "But what?" Then he turned to Plan. "They knew all along where you were but you never bothered to tell me? What am I to you Plan?" He asked. Plan remained silent. "Why aren't you saying anything?" He ask, voice slightly getting higher. "Why did you leave?"
Due to Mean's voice, they are starting to gather some attention. That includes the attention of the twins. They tilted their heads and run towards their Papa.
"Papa?" They both said as they hugged Plan's legs. "Papa? Cry?"
Plan stared the twins and forced a smile. "No, Papa is not crying. He's just tired. How about you play over there again and Papa will call you when it's time to go."
The twins frowned and shook their head. "Papa tired? Tonnam tired." The little kid with a smaller build said.
The chubby one nodded his head. "Perth too. Perth go home. Papa sleep."
Plan smiled and pinched both his son's cheeks. "Okay. We'll go home then. But you will need to change clothes first before we go home. C'mon I will dress the two of you." The twins smiled then turned to Mean. "Excuse me."
Mean watched him leave with the kids before turning to Earth. "Those kids, who is the mother?" He asked.
Earth sighed. "I'm not the person who can tell you that." He said. "I know you wanted to talk. I know you wanted to know everything but as you can see, today is not the right time."
Mean frowned. "Not the right time? I've been looking for him for over three years, don't you think I deserve an explanation? You've been hiding him from me for three years. I've been asking you practically every day but you never told me anything. And you're saying this is not the right time? When is the right time?" He asked. "You know how much I love him."
Earth closed his eyes as he sighs. "I know Mean but please understand that because the kids are here, he won't talk to you. He wouldn't want you to cause any trouble that might stress the twins." He said. "I will arrange the day and time so that the both of you could talk but please not now. Please, give Plan more time."
Mean grit his teeth before glaring at Earth. "I will give him time. But I want to know everything." Earth nodded at the same time that Plan came out of the restroom with the twins. He stood in front of Mean but still not looking at him.
"I will need to go." He said and Mean was about to say something but Plan stopped him. "But I will talk to you. I will tell you everything you want to know."
Mean smiled in relief at that. "I-I would be happy to-"
"I can't see the point in hiding anymore since you already know where I am." Plan said as he left.
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The talk did not happen until 2 weeks later. Earth did manage to set a date for them to have the talk. They decided to meet in one of the cafe they frequent to. They asked for a room and settled there as they wait for Plan to arrive. Mean almost smiled when he sees Plan arrive but it dropped when he saw how pained he is.
Plan sat in front of Mean and nodded as Earth bid them goodbye so they could talk. "I'm sorry I'm late. I need to wait for Gun and Mark so that they could care for the twins." Plan said.
Mean shook his head. "That's fine. I'm glad you made it." He replied.
Plan closed his eyes and swallowed. "You want answers" He looked at Mean for the first time since they met. "I.. I will answer anything you want to ask me. You want to know why I left you, right?"
Mean nodded. "I want to know why. I-I know what my mom said but I want to hear it from you. Did you really leave me because my mom paid you? Did you really just love me because of my money?" He asks. "I want to know because I don't want to misunderstand everything. Please tell me the truth." He begged.
Plan bit his lower lip as he nodded. "Before I tell you anything, I want you to promise me that you won't hold anything to your mom. Promise me that you won't storm out of this place just so you could blame your mother because I understand where she is coming from." He said. "Please, promise me."
Mean nodded. "I promise." I will do everything you want me to do is left unsaid.
Plan smiled weakly. "That night, the night after Gun, Earth and I met up to hang out I found your mom waiting right outside of our door. I thought she came to visit but she refused my invitation to come inside our house. We talked that night." He said. "Wh-what did your mother told you?"
Mean frowned. "She told me that she paid you because she wanted you to break up with me. Then you accepted the money. She said that you're only staying with me because of my money, is that true?"
"It is true that you're mom tried to pay me but I did not accept it." He said. "I understand that you're their only son Mean and understand how they want you to have a normal life. Chaining you with me will just depriving you the chance to love someone you truly deserve." Plan said then smiled at Mean. The loneliness in Plan's eyes hurt Mean so hard he wanted to wipe them away. "I really love you Mean and not just because of your money. I don't need your money. I love you that I am willing to give and do everything to you, just so that you could achieve all your dreams. I don't want to burden you. Being with me will make people doubt you." Then he reached out and touched Mean's hands. Plan's own is shaking and Mean could feel that. "And I know you Mean, I know how amazing you are and if being with me will have people overlook that, I don't want it Mean. That is why I stayed away. It's for the best."
Mean frowned and tightened his grip when Plan was about let go. "For the best? Burden? Chained?" Then he chuckled monotonously. "Did none of you ever ask what I want? Did none of you ever ask what I feel?" Then he stood up and went to sit beside Plan. "Did you know how I felt when you left all of a sudden not even telling me why? Did you know how miserable I was thinking I did something that made you hate me? Did you know how much I love you that I want to lock you up never let you out so that no one could take you? You don't know how much I want to mark you so that everyone would know you're mine." Mean inhaled and caressed Plan's face. "I love you Plan. I still love you and I will love only you." A tear fell from Mean's eyes with how much feelings he suppressed for 3 years. "I want you. Just you."
Plan smiled tearfully. "I do too." He said. "More than anything but Mean, everything is different now. I'm different now."
Mean shook his head. "No. You're still the same. My beautiful and wonderful Plan."
"You saw them Mean. I have a family now." Plan argued. "You don't want to be home wrecker right?"
"No." Mean said as he stared at Plan with full determination. "No, I don't want to be a homewrecker and I will never be a home wrecker." Wiping his eyes, he smirked at Plan. "Don't think I did not do my research. I did Plan, I searched if Perth and Tonnam have a mother. And you know what I found? " Plan paled, Mean ignored that. "I found that they don't have any mother on the record. I don't know how you got them but that is not important. All I know is that they don't have a mother." Then he grabbed Plan hands and held it tight. "So, tell me. How can I be a home wrecker if I don't have a family to ruin but be a part of?"
Plan just stared at Mean slack-jawed. "What? But Mean-"
Mean hushed Plan by putting a finger on his lips. "I know this must be too much right now but Plan, I lost you once. I lost you for a long time, don’t even think that I will let that happen now that I found you." He said getting closer to Plan. "I will die if I ever lose you again. I will pursue you P'Plan. I don't care if you have children with someone else. I will keep them under my wings, I will love them as my own and I will have you again and when I do, I will never... let you go."
And as to further prove his words, Mean leaned in and claims Plan's lips in a kiss that stole Plan's breath. A kiss that contains all of his desire for the past 3 years. Mean poured all his feelings into that kiss and he made sure that Plan will know how serious he is whenever he set his mind on something.
He will have Plan whether he like it or not. He will have him and when he have him, he'll make sure that he will never escape Mean's grasp.
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A/N: I'm not sure if I am the only one seeinf it but it's showing 11 chapters when its just supposed to be 6. I don't know why some chapters are duplicating and I don't know how to fix it. Oh well~ 🤓