After That Amazing Night Me And August Had We Kissed Goodbye And He Went On To Miami And I Came Back Home
And Its Been Three Whole Day And I Ain't Even Got A Text From August
Now Im Feeling Like Thats All He Ever Wanted From Me Was Some Pussy
I Thought I Actually Meant Something To Him
But If He Really Cared About Me He Would Of At Least Called Me Three Days Ago
Been Sitting By The Phone Waiting For Him To Call For Three Whole Days Straight
I Won't Call Him First Cause I Don't Wanna Seem Thirsty
I Wanted Him To Call Me First
As I Was Laying Around Thinkin About August I Got A Knocked On My Door
I Opened The Door Hopin That's Its My Baby
When I Got Up And Opened The Door
It Wasnt August It Was Elijah
"Welcome Back" He Said As He Hugged Me
"I Been Back For Three Days Now I Been Calling You Yo Phone Off" I Said
"I Know…I Know Money Is Real Tight You Know I Been Tryna Get This Money So I Can Pay This Nigga Back His Money" He Said As He Released Me From His Arms
"You Cook Im Hungry Ass Hell" He Said As He Went Straight To My Refrigerator
"No Im On A Diet" I Said As I Closed My Door Back And Walked To The Kitchen Where My Brother Was Going Through My Refrigerator
I Sat At The Table
"Diet" He Questioned Me
"Yes" I Replied
"You Don't Need To Diet You Look Good Sis" He Said
"Yeah But You Should Have Seen All Those Skinny Ass Model In New York I Was The Biggest Bitch There" I Said
"You Far From Big Jordyn And Even If You Was I Bet You Still Would Have Been The Prettiest Girl There" He Said As He Grabbed An Apple
"Whats Wrong" He Asked
"Nothing" I Lied
"Na You Know That I Know Better Than That …Jay What's Up Tell Me" He Said
"Im Okay.... E Im Really Am Im Just In My Feelings A Little" I Said
"Its About A Nigga Huh??.. Sis You Too Damn Amazing To Be Layin Around Being Sad Over A Nigga Its Plenty Of Fish In Sea Baby" He Said
I Half Smiled At Him
"Enough About Me..So How Much More Money You Need" I Asked
"Like About Two Thousand More" He Said
"I Got That In Cash Right Now You Know" I Stated
"Good Go Put It In The Bank With The Rest" He Said
"Just Take It Elijah Please" I Begged
"No Im Not Touchin Yo Modeling School Money" He Said
"Actually I Been Talking To This Guy Who Wants To Manage Me And He Said I Don't Need Modeling School At All" I Said
"Yeah Right You Just Sayin That" He Said
"No Im Serious Matter Of Fact He's On His Way Over Now I'll Let You Meet Him" I Said
"Okay" He Said
"Well Help Your Self To Some Fruit And Rice Cakes Im Bout Showered And Get Dress" I Said
"Thanks But No Thanks Ima Order Some Pizza" He Said
I Headed To The Bathroom And Showered
Chase Was Sexy And All But All I Wanted Was August
Plus Chase Wanted To Help My Career And I Don't Know Much About Business But I Know That You Dont Mix Business With Pleasure
I Was Gon Be Professional And Handle This Business
After I Showered I Placed On Some Blue Denim Jeans With A
A White Half Top Top Which Showed Off My My Perfectly Flat Stomach
I Brushed My Hair Up In A Ponytail And Put Only A Little Of Lip Gloss On
I Heard My Brother Yelled From The Other Room "Jay Yo Company Here"
I Opened My Bathroom Door And Walked Out And Saw Chase Standing By Door
He Was In A White Button Up Shirt And Black Dress Pants
"Hey" I Said As I Smiled
He Smiled Back At Me And Said "Hey" Back To Me
"So You Really Serious About Managing My Sister" My Brother Said To Chase
"Im Very Serious She's Amazing I Just Wanna Show The World What I See In Here" He Said While Admiring Me
"I Like Em Already Ight Take Care Of Her For Me Ima Leave You Two Alone So You Two Can Get To Work" Elijah Said
"Hold Up" I Said As I Went To My Bedroom
I Went Under My Mattress And And Grabbed Some Money
Than I Went Back Out In The Front
I Placed The Money In Elijah Hand "Sis Im Not Bouta Take The Money You Work Hard For"
"E Its More Where This Came From If You Love Me You'll Take It " I Said
Than He Looked Me In My Eyes And Said "…Okay But Its A Loan Ima Pay You Back I Promise" He Said As He Finally Took The Money
I Smiled And Said "Okay…I Love You Be Safe"
And I Hugged Him
"Love You Too" He Said
Than I Released Him From My Arms
Than He Opened The Door And Walked Out
I Closed The Door Back
Than I Turned Around And Said To Chase "You Can Sit Down"
I Said As I Sat On The Couch
He Slowly Sat Next To Me
"This Is Really A Nice Place" He Said
"Its Ight" I Said
"You Don't Like It" He Asked
"Na Not Really When I Make It Big Ima Buy Me A Huge House With A Pool Out Back" I Said
"What Do You Do Now" He Asked
"Im A Stripper" I Said With No Hesitations
He Laughed And Said "Stripper"
"Yes Is Something Wrong With That" I Said With A Serious Face
"No No... No Its Just Hard To Believe That You Dance On A Pole Naked" He Said
"Well I Do…Its Not My Dream Job But Its How I Pay Bills " I Said
"You Seem So Innocent" He Said
"Innocent" I Said
"Yea I Mean Your So Sweet" He Said
"Im Just Nice To You" I Said
"I Just Seen You Give Your Brother Money A Bunch Of Money" He Said
"Yeah So What" I Said
"So I Know That Your A Nice Person To Everyone In Your Life" He Said
"Well Since You Know So Much About Me Tell Me Something Interesting About You" I Asked
"Interesting?? Like What" He Asked
"Like Anything" I Said While Smiling
"Umm...I Can Play Basketball Like LeBron James" Chase Said
I Giggled And Said " I Don't Believe You"
"Its True What You Think Cause Im White I Can't…" He Said
I Laughed And Said " I Didn't Say That"
"But You Are Thinkin It…You Ever Been With A Guy Like Me" He Asked
"What You Mean ? Have I Ever Been With A White Dude Nah Never" I Said
"You Should Date One" He Said
"Maybe I'll Think About It Have You Ever Been With A Black Girl" I Said
"I Been With All Kinds Of Girls I Love Black Girls Especially Ones That Can Cook" He Said
I Smiled And Said "I Can't Picture You With A Black Girl"
"You Can't Well I Can Definitely Imagine You With A White Guy" He Said
Then I Just Stared At Him
As He Said "I Really Wanna Work With You"
"Thats Good Cause Im Looking Forward To Working With You" I Said
He Smiled And Said "You Mean It "
I Nodded My Head
He Claps His Hand And Said "You Won't Be Disappointed"
"Shake On It" I Said As I Held My Hand Out
He Shook My Hand And As We Were Smiling At Each Other I Heard A Knocked At My Door
"Excuse Me" I Said As I Stood
Up
I Went To The Door And Opened It
It Was August
"August" I Said
"Sup" He Said As He Smiled
He Walked In And Saw Chase Sitting On The Couch
"Who That" He Asked Rudely
"Chase Im Jodyrn New Manger" Chase Said As He Stood Up And Held His Hand Out To Shake Hands With August
"Manger" August Said Very Rudely While Not Shaking Hands With Chase
"Okay Im Going To Go Jordyn Call You Later" Chase Said
"Okay" I Said Smiling At Chase
Chase Walked Out And Closed The Door Behind Him
"Why You Ain't Call Me Before You Came Over" I Asked
"Since When I Gotta Call I Been Popping Up Ova Here…What Yall Was Doin" He Askef
"Talkin" I Said
"Talkin?" He Questioned Me
"We Was Just Talkin" I Answered As I Sat On The Couch
"Yeah Fuckin Right…If Yall Was Just Talkin Than Why You Walking Around With Ya Stomach Out In Front Of This Nigga For Than" He Asked Me
"Are You Serious Right Now" I Asked
"Nigga Im Dead Ass Serious" He Said
I Shook My Head And Said "You Got Some Nerve Coming In Here Trippin On Me When Yo Ass Been M.I.A On Me For Three Whole Days"
"I Had Already Told You I Was In Miami You Knew That And Ain't See You Callin My Shit" He Said
"Nigga The Phone Works Both Ways…Its Funny How Right After I Give You Some Pussy You Start Acting Different" I Stated
"Na I Always Stay The Same I Just Been Busy…" He Said
"Busy ?? To Busy To Send Me A Text To Busy To Pick Up The Phone!" I Asked
"Nigga I Was Working…You Coulda Of Hit My Line If You Really Wanted To Talk…But Shit I Guess You Was Too Busy Fuckin With Another Nigga…A White Nigga At That" August Said
"Oh Please Stop It August.." I Said As I Rolled My Eyes
"Im Just Sayin" August Said
"It Wasn't Even Like That We Just Talkin Thats All" I Said
He Calmed Down Than He Sat Next To Me On The Couch
He Laid His Head On My Lap
I Look Down At Him In His Eyes
"I Ain't Neva Layed Up With A Female After Sex…Usually I Fuck Em And Throw The Deuces Up... But After We Finished I Was Right Ther Next To Ya Holdin You In My Arms.. So Don't Eva Think Im Just Usin You For Pussy" He Explained
"Thats How I Was Feelin" I Said
"Well Im Tellin Ya Thats Not What It Is..Its More Than That" He Said
…"Can I Ask You Something August " I Asked
"Anything" He Replied
"What Exactly Are We" I Asked
"We Friends You Already Know That Friends That Fuck Around From Time To Time" He Said
"So Friends With Benefits" I Asked
"Basically" He Said
"But What If One Of Us Catch Feelings" I Asked
"You Catchin Feelings" He Asked Me
"A Little" I Replied
"Don't Do That…Cause Ima Just End Up Hurting You Lets Not Make This Complicated" He Said
"Im Not Tryna To But Than Again I Can't Help The Way That I Feel" I Said
"Well Don't Feel That Way I Already Told Ya I Don't Do Relationships Im Not A Relationship Ass Nigga You Know What Kind Of Lifestyle I Live Jay..So Don't Fall In Love With Me..We Just Havinn A Good Time" He Said
"A Good Time" I Repeated
"Yeah.. You Ain't Havin A Good Time" He Asked
"I Am...Im Having An Great Time So I Can Date Other Niggas" I Asked
"Man You Can Date Whoever You Please…Just As Long As You Not Givin Up My Pussy We Good" He Said
I Smiled And Said "This Is Complicated "
"Well Lemme Put Like This…Just Hold Me Down And Accept Me For Who I Am" He Said
"Done And Done I Told Ya I Got Ya" I Replied As I Smiled
"That Smile Tho" He Said As He Started To Smile
I Notice As He Smiled That He Had Bags Under His Eyes
"You Been Sleeping Lately" I Asked
"Nah" He Replied
"Why Not" I Asked
"Been Workin" He Replied As He Lick His Lips Slightly
"You Work Too Much" I Said
"I Ain't Got No Other Choice I Always Been A Hard Worker Even In My Broke Days… I Gotta Grind I Got To Take Care Of My Peoples" He Said
"And Who Gon Take Care Of August" He Said
"God…And Myself" He Said
Me And August Had That In Common Just Like Him I Also Have A Bad Habit Of Taking Care Of Everyone In My Life
My Brother,My Sister,I Was Taking Care Of Dre, Hell I Still Be Taking Care Of Grown Ass Father
I Feel Like Its My Job Too Make Sure Everyone Around Me Is Good They Depend On Me They Need Me
Since August Ain't Been Sleeping I Know For Sure He Aint Been Eating
So I Made August Go Get Some Sleep And Took My Ass To The Kitchen And Made Some Meatloaf And Home Made Mashed Potatoes
I Even Made A Huge Pitcher Of Cherry Kool Aid
I Made August A Plate
Than I Headed In My Bed Room Where He Was Sleeping On His Back
I Sat On The Edge Of The Bed Placed The Glass Of Kool Aid On My Night Stand
"August" I Softly Said As I Gently Tapped Him On His Shoulder
He Opened His Eyes And Sat Up Slowly On The Bed And Said "You Order Out"
I Smiled And Said "You Funny"
He Smiled Back At Me And Said "You Know Most Pretty Girls Cant Cook"
"Well This Pretty Girl Can Cook Her Ass Off" I Said As I Handed Him The Plate
"You Ain't Eating With Me" He Asked
"Im Dieting" I Said
"For What... You Got The Perfect Body" He Said
"I Got A Flat Stomach And A Fat Ass…I Got The Perfect Stripper Body Not The Perfect Model Body" I Said
"Models Come In All Shapes And Sizes You Good Bae... Believe That" He Said As He Began To Eat
I Love Way He Made Me Feel Like I Was Perfect To Him
I Love The Way He Made Me Feel Period
He Started Feeding Me Some Food
I Opened My Mouth As He Placed The Food In My Mouth
As Im Eatin August Stops Eatin And Just Stares At Me Lust In His Beautiful Eyes
He Placed The Food On My Nightstand
And Pulls Me On Top Of Him
And He Kissed Me
After He Kissed Me I Said "Freak"
He Pulled My Hair And Said "You Betta Believe That"
And French Kissed Me In My Mouth
We Ended Up Fuckin
We Had To Stop Early Cause August Had To Get To Sound Check Cause He Was Doin A Show Tonight
He Was Putting His Clothes On
And I Was Staring At Him While Wearing A White Short Silk Robe
My Hair Was No Longer In A Neat Ponytail It Was Messy
Even Though We Was Fuckin For About 40 Minutes I Still Came About Two Times
And He Still Put It Down
After He Finished Putting His Clothes On I Walked Him To The Door
"Ima Be Back Tonight…Soon As The Show Over With" He Said
"I'll Be Waiting Up" I Said
"Betta Be" He Said As He Leaned In And Kissed Me
"Have A Good Show" I Said
"Ight Be Good" He Said As He Grabbed My Ass
"Im Always A Good Girl" I Said
"Yeah Untill I Make Ya Misbehave" He Said
I Smiled And Said "You The Only Nigga That Can"
He Opened The Door While Smiling "See You Later"
Than He Left I Closed The Door Back
And Sat On The Couch Reminiscing About The Sex We Just Had
I Didn't Even Want Him To Leave
Damm Daddy Puts All The Way Down Every Time
While I Was Sitting On The Couch Biting My Lips Thinkin About August
My Phone Rang
I Picked My Phone Up And It Was My Mother Calling
I Answered It
"Hello" I Said
"Is C'amarya With You" She Asked
"No….Why What Happened" I Said As My Heart Began To Beat Faster
"She Didn't Come Home Last Night" My Mother Said
"What" I Said As I Started To Panic
"I Don't Know Where She Could I Been Callin And Callin Her No Answer I Called The Police They Said I Had To Wait For 48 Hours To Make A Missing Person Report…" She Said
I Immediately Stood Up
"Since Last Night?? Ma Why Am I Just Now Hearing About This" I Asked
"Jordyn Please Don't Make This About You Your Sister Could Be Somewhere Dead For All We Know" My Mother Said
"She's Not Dead Why Would You Even Say Something Like That" I Asked Her
I Shook My Head And Just Hung Up On Her I Ain't Have Time To Sit And Waste Time Arguing With My Mama I Had To Go Find My Baby Sister
I Quickly Threw On Some Black Stretch Pants And A T-shirt
I Grabbed My Keys And In My Head I Was Praying To God To Safely Bring My Sister Back To Me
I Was Panicking But Im Tryna Stay Positive
I Didn't Wanna Think The Worst
When I Opened My Front Door To Leave
C'amarya Was Standing At My Door
"Oh C'amarya Thank God.. Girl I Was Just About To Search The Entire Atlanta For You" I Said Feeling Relived
I Grabbed Her And Held Her In My Arms And Hugged Her
"Whats Wrong" I Asked Cause I Could Just Feel That Something Was Wrong With Her From Her Presence
"I Hate Her" She Cried
"Who" I Asked
"Mama I Just Hate Her So Much Jordyn" She Said As She Continued To Cry
I Remember Feeling That Exact Way
My Mother Was Cruel And She Had A Way Of Making Us Feel So Unloved
She Wasn't Never Affectionate With Us She Never Told Us She Love Us….She Never Cared About Us
"Come In" I Said As I Released Her From My Arms
C'amarya Walked In As She Wiped Her Wet Eyes
I Closed The Door Back
And Sat Down On The Couch With C'amarya
"What Happened" I Asked
"Its Mama That Happen….Yesterday I Came Home From School And Her And Ray Were Arguing Really Bad Than Ray Left And Mama Started Taking Her Frustrations Out Me Sayin All Kinds Of Things..She Said She Wish I Wasnt Never I Was Born And How I'll Never Been Anything In Life She Even Talked About The Baby Sayin That Baby Gon Be Bored With All Types Of Health Problems" She Cried Out
She Put Her Head In My Chest And Cried Harder
"Thats Not True C'amarya…" I Said Tryin To Comfort Her
I Hated Seeing C'amarya So Hurt I Hated That My Mother Was The One Who Made Her Feel Like She Wasn't Nothing
"What Did I Ever Do To Her... Why Doesn't She Love Me…Can You Please Tell Me What Did I Ever Do To Her To Deserve This" She Continued To Cry
"I Don't Know C'amarya…But Its Not Your Fault Its Not" I Said As I Held Her In My Arms
I Really Don't Know Why My Mother Was So Mean To Us I Don't Know Why She Always Downed Us I Don't Know Why I Still Feed Off The Negative Energy That My Mother Brings In My Life
I Don't Know Why I Still Try To Impressed Her…When I Know That Nothings Is Ever Good Enough For My Mother
No What I Say Or Do In This Life I Will Never Be Good Enough For My Mother
But She Was Still My Mother And After All That She Put Me Through And Even Though Some Times I Hate Her Deep Down Inside I Love My Mother Unconditional
And All I Wanted Was For Her To Just Say "I Love You"
But In Reality I Knew That My Mother Wasn't That Type To Kiss Me,Be There For, Support Me, Love Me,Or Never Do Motherly Things
As I Finally Calmed Down C'amarya There Was A Knock On My Door
C'amarya Was Laying On The Couch With Puffy Eyes Looking So Depressed
I Got Up To Opened The Door
It Was My Mother
"Come In" I Said
She Walked In And C'amarya Sat All The Way On The Couch
"I Knew When You Hung Up On Me That She Was Here" My Mother Said
As I Closed The Door Back
"She Just Got Her" I Said
"Jordyn Jordyn Jordyn... Your Getting To Old For This…Theres Absolutely No Reason To Tells Lies" She Said
"Mother She's Not Lyin" C'amarya Said
"Who Asked You...??…You Get Your Little Self Up And Lets Go Home Now" My Mother Said
"No" C'amarya Said
My Mother Paused For A Second And Said "Girl What Did You Just Say To Me"
"No Im Not Going Home With You I Don't Wanna Live There Anymore" C'amarya Said
My Mother Turned And Looked At Me And Said "You... You This…You Sat Here And Brainwashed Her…Filling Her Head Up With All Kinds Of Awful Things About Me"
"Brainwashed??... She Is 16 She Has A Mind Of Her…Why Would I Brainwashed Her" I Asked
"To Make Her Hate Me Because You Hate Me" She Said
"Ma If Shes Hates You Its Because Of The Things You Do And Say To Her" I Said
"Oh Jordyn Please Let You Tell It Im The Worst Person In The World" She Said
"Because You Are" I Said
"I Do Not Have Time To Listen To This Non Sense…C'amarya Lets Go" My Mother Said
"Im Not Goin" C'amarya Said
"You Rather Live With An Stripper Than To Be With Your Mother" My Mother Said
"Here We Go" I Said While Shaking My Head
"Ma I Rather Live With And Serial Killer Than To Live Another Day Living Under The Same Roof As You" C'amarya
Than My Mother Angrily Said "Fine....Stay Here…Just Don't Come Crawling Back To Me When You Need Something" To C'amarya
Than She Looked At Me And Said "I Hope Your Happy Now... Lord Knows That's I Wish I Would've Fell Down A Flight Of Stairs Well I Was Carrying You…My Biggest Regret In Life Is Having You"
"You And Me Both" I Said Tryin My Hardest Not To Cry
As She Walked Out The Door
I Stood There With My Feelings Crushed
Knowing That Yo Own Mama Didn't Want Ya I Was Hurtful
C'amarya Stood Up And Said "Im Sorry For Putting You In My Drama..."
I Closed The Door Back And Said "Its Okay"
"Not Its Not Okay... She Shouldn't Say Things Like That To Us We Are Her Children" C'amarya Said
"Ima Let God Handle It He Does It Better" I Said
"So...Can I Stay Here" She Asked
"Of Course" I Replied
Than She Placed Her Hand On Her Pregnant Belly
"Oh.." She Said
"What" I Asked
"Its Moving..It Just Kick Me" She Said
I Smiled And Said "Lemme Feel"
I Put My Hand On Her Stomach
And You Could Feel The Baby Movement
"It Feels So Weird" C'amarya Said
"I Can Only Imagine" I Said
Never Been Pregnant Before But I Always Wanted A Baby Of My Own
And Whenever That Day Come Just Know That I Will Be A Better Mother To My Child Than My Mother Was Too Me
A Couple Of Hours Later C'amarya Was Fast Asleep On The Couch
It Was About 12 At Night And I Was Just Got Out Of The Shower
I Put On Some Little Pink Boyshorts With A V-cut Pink Shirt And I Brushed My Hair
I Was Hoping That August Was Come By
I Went In My Bedroom Sat On My Huge King Size Bed
My Phone Was Layin Infront Of Me
When August Facetime Me
I Put The Phone Up To Me And Answer It
I Saw August Cute Ass Looking Like He Was Layin Down In His Room
"Hey Daddy" I Said While Smiling
"Wassup..What You Doing" He Asked
"Nothing I Was Waiting For You To Come Over" I Said
"I About To Get Ready To Fly To Houston Tonight I Got Do Some Promo Ther" He Said
Im Looking Like Really Nigga
"Stop Looking Like That You Know How This Shit Be" He Said As He Smiled At Me
"When I Get Back…Ima Take You Out Tho…Ima Get You Some Steak And Lobster" He Said
I Smiled And Said "And You Gotta Eat It"
"Eat What" He Asked
I Giggled And Said "My Cake"
"You Talking Bout Ya Pussy" He Asked
I Nodded My Head
"Na.. I Don't Do That" He Said With A Seriously Face
"Why Not" I Asked
"I Just Don't" He Replied
"Woww...My Nigga Ima Have To Change That For You" I Said
He Laughed And Said "How"
"Since You Ain't Tryna Lick Me I Ain't Go Suck You" I Said
"You Gon Suck All This Dick" He Said
"Nah... The Only Way Im Suckin Is If You Eat My Kitten Good As Fuck" I Said
"Fuckin Around With Me You Ain't Neva Gon Get Cha Kitten At" He Said
"Anyways…How Was The Show" I Asked
"Great As Always.." He Said
"Thats Good... Getting Ready For That Tour" I Asked
"Yea Its About That Time... You Gone Fly Out And Come See Me On Tour" He Asked
"You Already Know I Am..I Got Cha Daddy" I Said As I Smiled
He Smiled At Me
"So What Ya So Called Manger Talking Bout" He Said
"Actually We Gone Met Up Tomorrow And Go Over This Contract And Right After That We Start Working" I Said
"Don't Change Up On A Nigga When You Start Getting Fame And Money" He Said
"Nah I Promise To Always Be The Same Bitch..I Won't Eva Forget Where I Came From" I Said
"Thats Why I Fucks With You..You A Real Nigga Just Like Me" August Said
I Smiled At Him
"Im Bouta Get Ready To Go To The Airport..So You Go Ahead Get Some Sleep Beautiful Ima Hit You Up Tomorrow" He Said
"Okay Babe Talk To You Later Have A Safe Trip And Hurry Back So You Can Treat Me To Lobster And Steak" I Said As I Smiled
He Smiled And Said "GoodNight Love"
"Goodnight" I Said As I Blew Him A Kiss
Than I Put My Phone On The Charger And Laid Down Thinking Of Him
Have You Ever Liked Someone So Damn Bad To The Point That All You Is Think About That Person
And All You Wanna Do Is Be With That Person All The Time
When Im Asleep At Night I Even Dream Of August
In The Words Of Usher I Got It Bad For The Nigga
And I Could Help It Its Like The More We Talk And The More I Get To Know Him..I Start To Like Him More And More
That Next Afternoon I Had Met Up With A Chase At A Sushi Restaurant
We Were Sitting Across From Each Other And We Had Just Order Our Food
"You Would Bring Me To A Sushi Restaurant" I Said
"What That's Supposed To Mean You Don't Like Sushi" He Asked
"I Never Had It I Already Know I Ain't Gon Like It" I Replied
And Just Grinned At Me
Than He Said "You Never Told Me Why You Wanna Be A Model So Bad"
"Its Glamorous,You Get To Travel This Whole World And See So Many Things…I Just Always Love Taking Pictures And I Always Been Into Fashion And I Know That I Can Make It I Was Made For It" I Explain
"I Was Raised In The Ghetto Where People Don't Dream They Just Go From Job To Job To Make Minimum Wage And Live Miserable Lives... I Don't Wanna Live An Miserable Life.. I Wanna Be Happy And Explore This Whole Wide World" I Said
"I Can Tell By Those Beautiful Eyes That You Mean Every Word Your Saying I Need You... Need You More Than You Need Me.."
"Well Where Do I Sign" I Said
He Chuckled A Little Bit
And Pull Out A Package Of Papers
"Where The X Is" He Said
As He Handed Me An Pen
And As Soon As I Was About To Sign My Signature
He Stopped Me And Said "Wait Aren't You Gonna Read It"
I Smiled Slightly At Him And Said "Don't Have To I Trust You"
Than I Signed My Full Name Jordyn Renae Skyee
I Handed Him The Pen Back As He Picked The Papers Up And Folded Them Back Up And Placed Them In His Back Pocket
"So Whats Next" I Asked
"Next We Start Working Our Asses Off But First You Have To Quit Strippin" He Said
"If I Stop Strippin Than How Ima Eat Or Pay My Bills" I Asked Him
"Don't Worry About That I'll Keep You Working Doing Shows And Photo Shoots Even Hosting Party You'll Eat…Thought You Trusted Me" He Said
"I Do" I Said As I Smiled At Him
The Waitress Brought Us Our Food
I Ordered Only A Plain Salad With Just Tomatos And Lettuce
"I Can't Believe You Really Ordered That" Chase Said
"Its Was The Only Normal Thing" I Said
Than He Picked Up Some Sushi With His Hands And Said "Taste This"
I Hesitated
"Trust Me" He Said.
I Leaned In And Took A Bite
And Slowly Chewed It In My Mouth
It Was Surprisingly Okay Its Wasn't That Bad
"See You Never Know Untill To Try It" He Said
He Was Right I Gotta Be Opened Up To New Things How Else Ima Explore This World?
Me And Chase Talked And Talked For About Two Hours
Than I Headed To The Strip Club To See My Soon To Be Ex Boss
Its Was Kinda Strange Walking In The Stripp Club Without Having To Get On Stage And Get Naked
I Walked In To Mr Barry Noles Office
He Was At His Desk Counting Money
He Looked Up At Me And Said "Come Right On In Stranger"
I Sat Down In His Office
"Haven't Seen You In Years Where You Been At Kid" He Asked
"I Been Busy Caught Up... Following My Dreams" I Said
"Kid Please Don't Tell Me You're Quit On Me" He Said
"I Have To Move On To Other Things I Can't Strip For My Whole Life..I Have Other Goals And Purpose In Life" I Said
"You Know When I First Met You You Was Sleeping On The Streets With Holes In Your Clothes You Had No Where To Go I Took You Off Them Streets I Gave You A Job And This Is How You Repay Me" Barry Said
"Its Not Person…I Am Thankful For Everything That You've Done For Me... To Be Real Barry I Probably Wouldn't Be Nothing Without You…Im Just Reaching For The Stars Its More To Life Than Strippin" I Explained
"You're One Of My Best Girls Kid You Bring A Lot Of Money Into This Place" He Said
"Please Don't Make This Hard" I Said
He Stood Up And Said "Me And You We Got History We Made Alot Of Money And We Had Some Good Times I Treat You Like Family Kid"
"And I Appreciate That…And I Will Never Forget All You Done For Me" I Said As I Stood Up
"Next Time I See You Kid Your Name Better Be In Lights" He Said
I Smiled And Said "It Will Be"
"Come Back And See Me Sometimes Huh" He Said
"I Promise I Will" I Said
He Hugged Me And Said "Youre Really Growing Up Kid"
Than He Let Me Goo And Said "Go On Before You Make Me Tear Up"
I Laughed And Said "Okay"
And As I Walked Out Of His Office He Said "Goodbye Kid"
"Goodbye Boss" I Said As I Walked Out
I Remember When I Didn't Have A Dollar To My Name Living On The Streets Barry Came And Got Me Off The Streets He Gave Me A Job And Took Care Of Me And He Didnt Have Too
People Like That Are Blessings
And I Am And Always Be Grateful For All That He Done
It Was Official I Was No Longer An Stripper
I Felt Freed..I Felt Like…Chasing My Dreams Was More Important Than Ever
When I Was Walkin To My Car
I Saw Two Familiar Faces Kissing In The Parking Lot
Dre And Meghan
I Walked Up Too Them
Dre Immediately Noticed Me And Said "Jordyn"
Meghan Just Started Looking Scary As Hell But I Wasn't Even Gon Beat Her Ass Just Because I Was Feeling Nice Today
"Whats Up" I Said
"Not Much What You Doing Just Getting Off Work" Dre Asked
"Nah I Just Quit Actually" I Said
"I See You Two...Up Here Booed Up" I Said
Meghan Rolled Her Eyes At Me And Said "I Got Get In There Ima Be Late" As She Walked Her Scary Ass On Into The Club
"Downgraded" I Said
"Nigga You Left Me Remember" Dre Said
"Yeah I Remember Everything" I Said
"You Looking Good Real Good" Dre Said
I Smiled Politely And Said "Thank You"
"So You Finally Quit Dancin..I Ain't Neva Thought I'd See This Day" He Said
"Whatever I Told Ya I Wasn't Gon Be Strippin Forever" I Said
"Yea You Told Me…" He Said
"Hows Kam" I Asked
"He Good He Bee Asking About You All The Time" Dre Said As He Started Smilin
"I Miss Him So Much You Gotta Let Me Come And See Him Sometimes" I Said
"Fasho" Dre Replied
"Well See You Later" I Said
"Yea See You Later" He Said
"You Know I Still Love You" He Said As I Was Walking Away
I Stopped Walking And Turn Around And Said "Yea I Know"
Than I Continue Walking To My Car
Someone Once Told Me That When Your Holding On To Grudges You Hands Are Too Full To Catch Blessings
Dre Did Me Wrong He Hurted And I Was Mad…Really Mad At Him
But Its A Let Go And Let God Situation
Can't Be Mad At Him For Ever
When I Got In My Car I Got Text From August Reading "Pull Up On A Nigga"
It Was Like 9 At Night
And I Texted Him Back "Be Ther In 10 Minutes"
I Really Wanted To See My Baby Tonight
So I Quickly Drove Over His Crib
When I Got There His Big Ass Security Opened The Door
And August Was Sitting On The Couch Talkin To His Bestfriend And His Brother
When He Saw Me Walk In He Said "Took You Long Enough"
He Stood Up And Hugged Me And Kissed Me
Than He Took Me To His Bedroom
He Locked The Door Back
I Sat On His Bed
"I Missed You" I Said As He Laid Down On The Bed Next To Me
"Nigga I Wasn't Even Gone For That Long" He Said As He Smiled
"It Was Long Enough" I Said
As I Placed My Hand Under His Shirt And Started Feelin On His Incredible Abs
"You Skinny Ass Fuck" I Said
"I Don't See How Im Always Smashing" He Said
"Well It Ain't Showing" I Said
"Nigga Im Skinny But My Dick Is Fat Tho" He Said
"Okay August You Gotta Big Dick We Know That" I Said
"Say You Luv It Gurl" He Songed To Me
I Giggled And Said "I Can't Deal With You"
He Smiled And Asked "Where You Was Coming From"
"The Stripp Club... " I Said
"You Worked Today" He Asked
"Nopee Im Done Strippin" I Replied
"Wow…Just Like That" He Asked
"Just Like That...Imaa Still Be On My Grind Just In A Different Way Thats All" I Explained
"I Love The Ambitious Hustler In Ya" He Said
"And I Just Love The Hustler In You" I Replied
Than I Kissed Him
"Come On We Gotta Celebrate This Shit…Where You Tryna Go Dinner Is On Daddy Tonight" He Said As He Stood
"I Want That Lobster And Steak And When We Get Back Dessert Is On Mama" I Said As I Smiled
As I Stood Up And And Wrapped My Arms Around His Neck And Look In His Eyes
"Im Proud Of Ya..." He Said
Than He Leaned In And Kissed Me
I Love Being With Him And I Love The Way He Makes Me Feel
And As We Were Kissin
Someone Began Knockin On August Bedroom Door
He Went And Opened The Door
And It Was A Female She Was Short,Carmel,With Short Wavy Hair
"I Think I Left My Necklace" She Said
"Yea You Did…Its On The Table I Was Gon Call You Later" He Said
"Well You Still Can" She Said
"Ight Ima Call You" He Said
As I Walked Over Closer
"Oh Shit... Jay This Is Paris" He Said Introducing Me To Her
I Folded My Arms And Took One Look At The Bitch
She Smiled At Me And Said "Nice To Meet You" To Me
I Rudely Ignored Her And Rolled My Eyes And Said "You Want Me To Leave You Too Alone" To August
"Nah.. Paris Ima Get At You Later" He Said
"Okay I Had A Great Time With You Too By The Way Can't Wait To Do It Again" She Said
"Do It Again?" I Said As The Hoe Walked Away And August Closed The Door Back
I Immediately Caught A Attitude Quick Ass Fuck
"Who Was That" I Asked
"I Already Told Ya Her Name Is Paris" He Said
"Don't Be Cute…Nigga Who Was That" I Asked
"A Bitch That I Be Fuckin" He Said With No Hesitation
Than He Sat On His Bed
While Im Just Looking Like "Foreal Nigga"
"Don't Ask Questions You Don't Wanna Hear The Answers Of Cause Ima Always Be A Real Nigga And Be Real With Ya" He Said
"And Im Supposed To Be Okay With That" I Said
"Man I Thought We Had A Understandin" He Said
And Im Still Standing Up With A Attitude
He Stood Up And Said "Dont Get Emotional On Me Right Na…Ya Know We Just Havin A Good Time"
"Right" I Said But Inside I Was Upset
"Lets Go" He Said
I Started Walking To The Door And August Was Walking Behind Me
He Stopped Me From Walking And Said "Hol Up"
I Rolled My Eyes
He Stood Infront Of Me And French Kissed Me
Than He Asked "You Good"
I Shook My Head Yes
But I Was Irritated And I Was So Caught Up In My Feelings