3 months later...
"Amir" I called as I held what was in front of me
"Yes baby" he replied walking into the washroom
He looked at the three pregnancy test and he just stared at them.
"Hello!" I said flashing my hand in his face
"Yeah?" He asked as he looked at me
"12 weeks" I said as I looked at him
"I could read" he replied
I sucked my teeth. He just stared blankly at the test and I was confused on his reaction.
"What?" I asked as I looked at him
"Nun" he replied back "congrats" he spoke as he looked at me
I just dropped the test and walked into my room.
"Fucks your problem?" He asked as he followed behind me after picking up the test
"If you don't want the baby that's all you gotta say" I said as I looked at him with anger
He sucked his teeth. "Shut up, you sound dumb. I put that shit in you so what makes you think I don't want it?" He asked as he looked at me
"Because that was so dry, you didn't even smile or nothing" I said as I looked at him crazy
"This my third child, I'm use to this shit. I'm suppose to jump in the air and off the balcony?" He asked as he looked at me
I just rolled my eyes.
"I'm happy baby, chill out. That ain't good for my baby" he said as he rubbed my stomach
I just mugged him. I soon laid down and he laid on top of me and I just sighed.
"We not even together, and I'm pregnant" I sighed as I put my hand on my head
"What you talking bout? Once again you sound dumb" he said as he mushed my head
"Save me daddy!" Mariah yelled as she ran in the room jumping on him
In came Jace behind her punching her repeatedly.
"Ahh!" She screamed and laughed
Jace soon ran out and she chased him.
"Calm down with all that noise!" I yelled as I laid down
"You a grandma" he said as he slapped my ass and laid with me
I shrugged. Well he laid on me I just thought about my crazy ass life. When shit was rough it was rough as hell but now stuffs going so smooth and I hope it lasts forever.
"Kamari" Amir said as he rubbed my booty
"Hmm" I mumbled
"You know I love you right, you and my kids mean the world to me. If I gotta go, I got enough money saved up for you guys to be safe and wealthy for the rest of y'all life's. That's all I want is for my kids to live a good life, better then mine. Even if I'm not here to see" he said as he laid his head on my back
I turned around mugging him. "Don't say that shit" I said feeling the urge to cry
"I'm being honest, stuff starting to get rough. I got so much shit on my mind, I'm tryna play father and Ace and it's hard" he said as he looked at me
"Okay but you can't play father if your not here. If you have to work for two weeks do it, as long as your here. You don't have to be around 24/7 as long as your safe" I said as I looked at him
God knows what I would do if I lost Amir. Even after all he's put me through I wouldn't trade him for the world. I pecked his lips as he kissed me right back.
"I love you" I said as I hugged him tightly
"I love you to mamas" he replied as he gently rubbed his hand on my belly well I hugged him
After that it was slightly time for me to go shower then drop the kids off to daycare. I got up and made my way to the washroom running the shower and Amir had already gotten dress.
"Baby, I'm going out. Ima see you when I get home, aight?" He confirmed as he looked at me
I nodded. "Stay safe" I said as I kissed him
He nodded. "Always"
For some reason I had a weird feeling in my gut.
"Amir!" I said quickly before he left the room
"Yeah?" He asked as he looked at me
"Can you just stay home, please?" I asked as I looked at him
"I can't, this shits important" he said as he looked at me
He then pecked my forehead and walked out. I sighed.
•
"My god son so swaggy!" Daisha yelled as she took pictures of Jace
I chuckled. "Girl, I can't wait for you to pop. Was Ace happy?" She asked as she looked at me
I shrugged. "It's our third pregnancy so it was really a regular reaction" I said as I shrugged
She nodded. "I get you" she said as she kissed her baby
She was by my house and we were just having a little play date for the kids. Laila and Lashawn looked so much like there dad and Lamar the baby she just had some months ago resembled more of her.
"Here, lemme get a pick of you" I said taking the baby from her
I took a quick off guard photo of her and then posted it to my snap.
She was so pretty and I don't know how Shamar could do her wrong all those times. I don't even really know what's going on with Nay and Shamar ever sense she's been talking to him it's like I'm a ghost.
"My nigga, any how she said no I woulda choked her" Shamar said as he came through the door
Ace chuckled looking at him. I watched as they both walked into the house.
"Sup sis" Shamar said as he hugged me
He then looked at Daisha barely noticing her. He nodded his head at her and she just waved at him still on her phone. Me and Amir stared at each other awkwardly Shamar couldn't take his eyes off of Daisha. When she was with him she never really showed her nice body or her pretty face. She was just a house wife and now that she's single she has branched off into who she really is and I love seeing my girl like this.
"Daddy!" Laila came running downstairs along with the rest of the kids
She jumped on Shamar squeezing him and so did Lashawn.
"You guys good?" He asked as he kissed the both
They both nodded. He took out a stack of money out his pocket and count two hundred dollars giving them both money along with Mariah and Jace. The kids ran off putting on there shoes and going to the backyard and Amir had signified for me to come upstairs for a sec so I did just that.
Shamar POV
I stared at Daisha it was silent and I couldn't stop looking at her. She looked beautiful as fuck I ain't never seen her in no weave or in a two piece outfit. I watched as she laid my son down on the couch and then she just looked up at the TV.
"How you been?" I asked as I looked at her
"Fine" she replied as she looked at me
I nodded. She stood up and made her way down the hall and into the washroom and I got up and followed her. I walked in before she closed the door and I closed the door behind me.
"Get the hell out Shamar!" She said as she looked at me like I was crazy
"Nah" I replied as I looked at her
I picked her up sitting her on the washroom counter.
"What are you doing?" She asked as she pushed my chest lightly
"I miss you" I said as I looked at her
She just stared at me blankly.
"I'm serious, I miss being with you and our kids. I'm trying to keep girls round me to distract me but you the main thing on my mind right now. You and my kids, I'm tryna make shit right with you. I'm sorry about everything I put you through, I'm tryna change. I don't want my sons to grow up thinking it's okay for them to treat a girl the way I treated you, or my daughter to grow up thinking a man is suppose to treat her how I treated you. Because I'll kill him, but my point is I miss you and I'm ready to play my position if you'll allow me to" I said as I looked at her
I meant that shit with my heart. You never know what you have tell it's gone and I realized that shit with Daisha.
"I don't know Shamar" she said as she looked at me "I've heard that so much times-.."
I cut her off "but this time I mean it, I'm stressed right now. I've been with other bitches tryna keep my mind off you. But honestly you the one I wanna be with" I said as I looked down
She just stared at me blankly. She then washed her hands and opened the door leaving. I chuckled I instantly grew anger I felt disrespected cause I just sat there and poured out my feelings and the bitch walking away from me like she ain't heard me. Then she wonders why ion like communicating with her that's some disrespectful shit. I walked out and I noticed she was getting the kids ready.
"Bye daddy" my daughter said as she looked at me with a pout
"I love you princess, daddy's gonna see you tomorrow alright" I said as I planted a kiss on cheek
"Love you to" she said as she laid her head on my shoulder
"Okay Laila, lets go" Daisha diss as she stood there quietly avoiding eye contact with me
"Daddy can you carry me to the car?" Laila asked me as she looked me in my eyes
I couldn't say no to my baby girl. She was my everything her and my son.
"Laila no, come on" Daisha said as she grabbed me
"I can't walk my daughter to the car?" I asked as I looked at her
She was starting to puss me off. I feel like sometimes she forgets these my kids to. I provide for them just as much as she does so ima do as I please. I walked pass her and out the door I heard her footsteps behind me following me to the car. As I approached the car I opened the back seat door and put my daughter in her car seat and buckled her up I kissed her forehead and my sons before closing the door.
Daisha then opened her car door and I quickly grabbed her arm tugging her away and slamming the door.
"You know I don't like when you disrespect me" I said sternly as I towered over her
She just stood there. "I don't have time for this Shamar" she said in her soft voice
She a baby with a attitude. She sensitive as fuck but she has a smart ass mouth.
"I don't give a fuck what you got. As long as I got the time for it then that's what the fuck your on. I'm there tryna talk to you and you acting up, what you feel nice cause you got your hair done and shit and you looking good? That don't mean shit remember who the fuck you are and your place" I said as I looked at her
I wanted to smack the shit outta her. I was mad and my perc was starting to kick in.
"Go to the passenger side" I said as I looked at her
"No" she mumbled avoiding eye contact with me
"I'm not asking you, I'm telling you" I said as I looked at her "don't make me get physical with you, my kids in this car" I said as I looked at her with a straight face
She slowly walked over and I got in the drivers seat.
Daisha POV
I sighed as I sat in the front seat. Things like this is what made me hate being around Shamar. He was always so demanding and whenever he doesn't get his way it's I'm disrespecting him. I have my reasons why I'm not with Shamar. He never treated me good when I was with his I wasn't aloud to show my body or get cute cause to him I'd be looking for attention. I was never aloud to go out or drink. He use to put his hands on me but he slowed down after I gave birth to Laila.
I hate arguing with him because that's what leads to our physical arguments. We were just reaching my town house and we both got out the car. Lashawn got out and Shamar took out Laila. I then opened the door with my keys and we all walked inside. I took Laila from Shamar and went straight upstairs to wash her down and put her to bed. Lashawn washed his self down and went to bed.
•
I was just finished my night routine and was ready for bed. I walked outta my washroom to see Shamar's eyes red and lower then ever. He heard me walk out and his attention was on me.
"Are you leaving?" I asked quietly as I looked at him
"You want me to leave, what you kicking me out or something?" He asked as he chuckled "You got a nigga coming here?" He asked as he stood up
I instantly tensed up as he walked towards me.
"No, I just wanna know because I'm tired and I don't want you to leave and I don't lock the door" I said as I fiddled with my fingers
He got closer to me and wrapped his arms around my body. He then picked me up wrapping my legs around his waist. He looked me in my eyes and licked his lips.
"Are you high?" I asked as I looked at him
"Off a perc" he said as he looked down
I scrunched up my face. "Why are you taking those?" I asked as I looked at him with a frown
"I'm stressed, it helps me cope" he said as he looked at me
I can see the hurt In his eyes he looked tired skinny and drained. I wanna be with him but he doesn't treat me good and I'm not treating someone good just to get treated like ass.
"Stop taking those, they aren't good for you" I said as I looked at him
He just chuckled.
"You know I love you right?" He said as he looked at me
I just stood there. It was gonna be a long night. Of course I missed Shamar he has been my man since grade 10 and we've spent our whole life together but if he can't treat me right then there's no reason for me to be with him. He then carried me to my room and laid me on the bed. He laid in between my legs putting his whole body on me. He laid his head on my chest and I begun playing with his hair. He then slowly fell asleep and so did I.