She stood there, looking at the stars and finding her parents to console herself, as Arnav left her after calling her as his biggest mistake in his life.
It's the most fateful day in her life, not that she haven't had any fateful days before, after her meeting him, everyday in her life was fateful.
-The day when he humiliated her, misbehaved with her in sheeshmahal.
-The day when she fell down from the first floor, because of him.
-The day when he left her to die in the heavy rain.
-The day when he sent her to Guest House, almost killing her.
-The day when he insulted her in front of lavanya.
-The day when he married her forcefully.
-The day when he threw her out at poolside at night to sleep in the cool winter.
-The day when he accused her of having affair with his brother-in-law.
-The day when he cursed her.
It was good your parents are not alive!
She loves him! That doesn't mean she forgot everything, she just forgave him for the sake of love she has for him! She accepted everything because she loved him, even if it is the pain which come out of love, for him and for them.
She remembers everything.And Still, after all this, she loves him!
What to do! Her heart isn't in control. Everything becomes blind in front of them because of the emotion called love. It is limitless!
But everything, every emotion has its own limit. Isn't it? If not now, at least at some point of time, it becomes limited. It becomes limited when you can no more accept every emotion just because of an emotion called love. Mostly, when that emotion starts affecting her self respect!
Biggest Mistake of his life! It's a sentence of five words which broke her already broken heart! This particular set of word slipped out of his tongue, out of his temper.
She could guess, the words came out from him because of his anger. But when it breaks the last piece of hope in her heart, it becomes unbearable, to bear the pain which come out of love, she doesn't have any strength or any hope left in her to accept this pain - calling her as a biggest mistake. It affected her heart, her self respect and her soul.
She can't and she won't. Even if she wants to forgive him, she can't because she just can't accept him calling her as his biggest mistake. For forgiving someone, you have to accept their mistake first and here, she can't accept his mistake, hence can't forgive him. She accepted his every mistake and forgave him as it didn't broke her hope but today it broke, her hope got broken.
She was able to forgive him, because she knew somewhere he isn't aware of the truth, before accusing her, still it doesn't make his mistake less justifiable. Nobody can judge anyone without a solid proof, without analysing their chara. But he did, always. She forgave him! She was strong enough to fight for herself. She was strong enough to stood against judgement.
But her heart betrayed her by making her fall in love with someone she didn't want to fall in love with.
And now after calling her as a mistake, she can't forgive him because she knew that he knew about her and the truth behind everything. He knew about her character and still he blamed her to be a hindrance between his sisters happiness. He judged her, once again!Out of his anger or anything it may be, it doesn't matter.
Sonetimes,Words affect more than actions does! Same here!
Just because of this, her heart was broken and her soul is lifeless.
She can't forgive him! She is furious, mad, hurt and what not! As if a tsunami of emotions attacked her knowing that the one she loves took her as a mistake.
More tears rolled down her eyes, as the pain in her heart twisted her heart with a knife, blocking the lump formed in her throat as she tried to gulp down the lump.
Only if someone was there to wipe those tears! Alas, none were there!
He entered in his room after almost one hour as he remembered what he uttered in his furious form. He regretted his words as soon as he realised what he uttered. But what done can be undone? Only if it's possible!
But No, it's not possible! Unlucky him!
He looked for Kushi and found her sitting at the poolside. He went there and looked at her silhouette.
Kushi heard the footsteps and knew whose it was. She didn't turn back nor acknowledged his presence. She just sat there as if nothing matters to her.
"Kushi? ", whispered Arnav as he touched her shoulder.
She turned and looked at him, and what he got to see was not he wished to see.
Blankness!
He gulped down the lump formed in his throat!
" Kushi, I.. I am sorry, I was ang-", he was cut off by Kushi.
"You were angry! ", Stated Kushi and Arnav jerked his head towards her not because she uttered those words but because he sensed pain behind those words.
" I knew about it, you always do that and there is nothing new in it, Arnav ji! I was, am and will be your punching bag whenever you want. After all, when was I considered as a human? ", Said Kushi with blankness in her eyes and pain behind her words.
Arnav Nodded his head as no as few tears rolled down his eyes, realisation dawned upon him.
" I just want to tell you one thing Arnav ji, I loved you and you killed my soul with your love.It was my mistake to jump into a situation where I've my soul dead. ", Said Kushi without any emotion and not a single tear rolled down her eye. As if there is no tear left to roll down her cheeks.
As soon as she said that, she went inside and slept covering herself with a blanket. Arnav stood there as the words rang around his brain again and again. Jesus understood that indirectly she called it as a mistake to love him, and it was enough for him to breakdown not knowing that there is more to come.
He didn't sleep whole night, he just sat there looking at Kushi who is sleeping peacefully without any worries.
It was morning, and still he didn't slept. The word Kushi said to him made him awake whole night, crying!
He looked at her, it was 6: 30 AM and still she didn't get up. He thought to wake her up but left that thought thinking other would never better to let her sleep after all the hurt he gave her.
Hospital
10: 30 AM
"I'm sorry to say Mr. Raizada but she went into coma, in her sleep! It happens sometimes when the person is too much affected by depression and will go into coma! ", Said the doctor as he checked Kushi and had some tests done.
Arnav who was already broken, broke down more!
" We can't say when she will come out of coma, may be after few days, few years and may be it takes forever! ", Said doctor shocking everyone, Raizada's and Gupta's
" Only prayers can show some quick effect! ", Said Doctor and went away.
The day you will stand in front of God, I won't be there standing beside you!
He remembered her words, and broke down.
Karma is a bitch and it bites back with interest.
Kushi was hurt, he hurt her and he is hurt, regretting his actions and she is not there to at least ask apology. What more can a person need to die?
A mistake without any chance of apology?
A mistake which doesn't deserve any apology?
A mistake which can no longer let him live nor can let him die?
A mistake which is worse than death?
He is alive yet dead - May be this is why it called as Karma is a bitch!