"Is this good? You like it?" He asked, and I hummed lowly in return, together with a barely noticeable nod.
When Levi was done and he'd washed the shampoo from my hair, he took the soft sponge I own, soaked it with water and ran it over my entire back, allowing the foamy water to find its way over my skin.
He repeated the same with my sides. First the left, stroking the sponge above the skin one, two, three, four times before he moved to the right, repeating the ritual he'd created.
"Lean back against me, so I can take care of your front" He whispered suddenly and I turned around to look at him.
"But Levi. I will make your shirt wet like this. Are you sure?"
"It's okay. Don't worry about the shirt. It's just water. And you. Now come...lean back." How could I say no to this?
Actually, this was the perfect base for a lewd comment or a sexy move, but he didn't take the bait. That's probably the first time! But I won't complain. I wanted to have such a loving time with him for so damn long, that I won't question anything today, not even his sweet acting. So I just leaned back against his strong chest, let my head fall back on his shoulder, my hair probably soaking the shirt entirely, and closed my eyes in sweet expectation.
Levi's arms snaked underneath mine, slowly traveling to my belly, gentle hands caressing my wet skin as they glide along my sides into the water, the sponge leaving no place untouched as Levi guided it at every place he could reach, his slow and deep breaths echoed deep in my ear.
The hand that kept holding the sponge wandered higher, up to my chest, always making sure to let enough soapy water run down my skin to clean the last bit of stress away from me. He circled around my breasts, drawing a figure eight a few times before his other hand joined to gently cup one of my two mounds, holding it, stroking the soft skin with his whole palm and eliciting relaxed sighs from me.
His touch felt so different now. Not filled with passion and lust, or desire and primal needs. They were soft, relieving as if he was about to explore me for the very first time and is too afraid to go too far. A gentle, innocent touch that seeks nothing but to feel me near to him, not wanting to awake deeper lurking desires without my permission.
I would have never guessed that Levi is the type for body worship. At least not at this high level.
He loves to fondle my chest, kiss, lick and suck on my small nipples as his hands would wander along with the dips and valleys of my curves. I figured pretty early that he's all into my ass.
I always sense his eyes on my backside when I walk away from him, and when his hands can't be on it, his eyes always are.
While my breasts are his pillow at night, my other end will be his favorite toy during our alone time, always giving me small claps or not too hard spanks so he won't hurt me. The rough grab on my cheeks always leave a few bruises behind, but I don't mind.
I always dreamed to be desired like this, but this here...this was something I could get addicted to.
I thought the world couldn't be more perfect right now, but as always: I was wrong.
Levi's arms moved around my chest completely, pressing me against his chest in a loving hug as his lips came down on my shoulder, a trail of soft kisses following, right next to the wound.
"I'm sorry. I hurt you so bad, and I don't know how to make it up to other than this. Can you forgive me?"
Seriously, how could I not forgive him? Neither could I keep in the 'awww' that came from me once he spoke his words. I put my arms above his to hug him back, cuddling my wet hair against his cheek.
"My love, there's nothing to forgive. I was never mad at you. How could I? You came back to me earlier than expected, you gave me the hell of a good time, and now I'm blessed to discover a whole new side of you. It's like Christmas and my birthday fell on the same day." Levi looked at me, his eyes bearing such a warm and soft gaze that I felt myself melting. The usual stormy irises that shined with fierce, predatory power and passion, are now filled with a calmness, that reminded me of the clouded sky after a roaring thunderstorm.
Leaning in, he pecked my lips innocently. With closed eyes, we shared a lazy kiss, lips meeting and parting in short intervals before the kiss grew deeper and deeper by the minute. Soon, we had our tongues stroking, mouths open wide, sensual sighs and gasps filling the room along with the sound of spilling water whenever I leaned into him to feel more.
Breathless, we parted after a long while, our eyes locking again as we panted for air.
"I'm glad, baby. Enjoy the bath a little more. I still have a few things to do and to prepare."
"Wha- What things?" I asked confused as he stood up to leave me. Now I was curious. It's Saturday noon and he already did so many nice things for me. What can else has he planned? But he just put his finger to his lips, gesturing me 'It's a secret'.
Pouting, I leaned back again. "Fine. I still have my training with Erwin anyways. Then you have all the time you need when I'm gone."
"Speaking of the devil: I want to ask you to either postpone today's training or start earlier, so I have more time to spend with you in the evening." My curiosity went into overdrive hearing this. He wants ME to skip training? Or start earlier?
"Um...I skipped training last weekend already. I doubt that Erwin would let slip this one trough without a good reason."
And again, the memories of what happened between Erwin and me had to ruin the moment, just the familiar click of Levi's tongue prevented me from diving further into the dark corner of my mind.
"Tsk. Then start earlier. It's not like you need a good reason for this. Just say you have other stuff to do later. Tell that you want to go out with your parents if you must. It can't be that hard to find a good excuse." And there he was back at his usual self. I already thought he was sick with the "Sweet-Boyfriend-Virus". Good to see that he can switch between these two sides without effort.
"Yeah, whatever. I'm sure I will find something. Leave that to me."
"Good." He answered monotone as he started to unbutton his soaked shirt and my eyes were all glued to his skilled fingers, but when the first hint of pale skin from his chiseled chest peeked from underneath the shirt, my gaze was all over that. He knew how to put up a nice show for me. I never get tired of watching his naked form. Slowly, he stripped down the wet fabric, letting it glide down his arms to show off with that hard and defined biceps before he turned around to throw the shirt into the washing machine. That was the moment when I gasped deeply, but this time, in horror.
It was impossible to ignore the pale, perfect skin of his back tainted in angry, red marks. MY marks!
I remember clawing to him in the middle of the most mind-blowing ride I ever had with him, but I didn't know that I was THAT rough with him!
Levi turned around at my unforeseen sound, surely believing I hurt my shoulder again, but as he saw my undoubtedly shocked expression, he kneeled down to me again, taking my hands in his.
"Oi. What's wrong? Tell me, baby." I can tell he tried to remain calm, his face not mirroring any of my worry and panic I felt right now, but what I saw in his eyes told me the opposite.
"Your poor back, your shoulders...I hurt you!" I whispered, not daring to raise my voice any further. For a moment, I watched Levi tilting his head a little in confusion as he sat there gobsmacked, but suddenly, his face lit up with an amused grin as he chuckled under his nose. Whats the hell is he laughing about?!
He let go of my hands and used his fingers to bring my face closer to his, his eyes twinkling from his amusement.
"You think you've hurt me, darling? You're worried about me, while I should be the one worried about you. You have no idea how much I love you for your innocent and kind nature. I know I'm a rough man, but you did so fucking good last night. I love that you marked me up. Means I did my job right."
I felt heat rising to my cheeks and ears, and not from the hot bath, that's for sure. I tried to look away, to hide my embarrassed face at all costs, but Levi didn't let go of me. Instead, he ran a hand through my hair and kissed my cheek.
"You can mark me up again any time, darling. I'm all yours. But for now, let's allow things to develop slowly. Enjoy your bath, I'll do my own things, alright? And call Erwin in time. I want to...take you as a hostage for later." With a mischievous wink, he stood up again and left me alone, leaving me in the romantic darkness with the candles as my only companions. That man...I'm surprised that I'm still alive: after all the heart-attacks he'd given me by now.
For at least 30 more minutes I sat there in my own little world, enjoying the warm bath and drawing new hot water once when it became too cold for me. Not to mention the sweet white wine Levi had prepared for me.
Combined with the warmth around me, I felt the alcohol taking its toll on me pretty fast. Slightly tipsy, but not drunk.
From time to time, I heard a few noises from outside of the bathroom. Whatever Levi was doing, he was busy with whatever he's doing for me.
My curiosity was killing me, but it wouldn't change a thing if I asked him about it. All I could do is to wait.
When I finished my wine and my skin was wrinkled enough to look like from an 80-year-old granny, I found I sat in here enough. I unplugged the tub and got out, wrapping me up in my favorite towel before I tied a turban around my hair with another one.
As soon as I left the bathroom, Levi came to me from the living room, wearing another one of his shirts, sleeves rolled up and a cleaning cloth was thrown over his shoulder. What is he doing with that?
"There you are. Enjoyed your bath? You lasted longer as I expected." He mused, looking at me rather bored but excited when his gaze switched to his watch to check the time.
"Eyebrows will be here in 30 minutes. Hurry up and get dressed. Your sports bag is packed and ready for your leave. I will stay here and do...what I want to do."
"Uuuuhhhh..." I was completely dumbfounded by all the information he'd thrown at me. "Wait, what? Erwin is here in 30 minutes?! How...I thought you don't want him to know that you're back already."
"Tsk. Of course, I don't want this smartass to know that I'm back. I used your phone and told him a reasonable story. You can thank me later. Move your fine ass and get ready. The more time you waste here staring, the closer he gets to uncover my secret. And then you'll have to share me with him again. You want that?"
I had no idea if I should feel happy or mad. He used my phone to text Erwin...Levi could've found out about what happened like that!! If he'd read the messages between Erwin and me, he could know now! Judging from his calm posture and usual talking he doesn't know but what if...Oh god...
"Y-yeah. Then I better get ready." I have to avoid at all costs to drop my mask in front of Levi, so I turned around hastily and went into my bedroom, closing the door, but as soon as the doorframe clicked, a shaking anxiety attack took over me.
I walked up and down the room like a tiger in his cage, holding both hands before my mouth so Levi won't hurt my panicked breathing or the mumbling to myself. My heart was racing like hell, heat spreading through my body while my limbs were shaking from the cold the intense nervousness brought.
Shitshitshit... What if Levi scrolled up in the messages to read what Erwin wrote? What if he knows what happened and he's just acting? Oh god, what should I do?
Only the gaze towards my clock could convince me to calm down a little. I have to get dressed before Erwin is here. I inhaled deeply into my stomach and let it all out with a sigh before I could finally move normally again. I scratched a regular outfit together in 2 minutes and in another 2 minutes, I was dressed.
With another deep breath, before I left the room to probably face Levi, I reminded myself to stay calm and cool. If he doesn't know, then I can't act like a nervous wreck, and if he knows, then he wouldn't be so...Levi-like. I just prayed that everything was alright and then, I left the room. To my surprise, Levi wasn't waiting for me, but roaming around the living room with the door closed, and when I wanted to enter, it was locked. What the hell is he doing?!
Seconds later, the door opened and out came a rather hectic-looking Levi.
"What...what are you doing in there, Levi?" I asked, trying hard to remain calm.
"You will know later. But for now, take this. Eyebrows must be here at any moment. Have fun and I'll see you later." With that, he thrust the mobile into my hand, pressed a quick kiss on my forehead and lips and with that, he disappeared into the living room again, locking himself up inside.
"Uhm...Bye?" This was awkward, but on the other hand, he wouldn't act like this if he knows about Erwin and me. So I guess, for now, I'm safe. I tossed my phone into the sports bag, quickly brushed my still wet hair and tied it to a knot, so I won't run around with my open hair to catch a cold, and 5 minutes later, I pulled my shoes and jacket on, grabbed my bag and left. I was lucky that none of my neighbors showed up on my way downstairs.
That would be an embarrassing and awkward moment, after all the noise we made last night...
Outside the building, I didn't have to wait long until the familiar roaring of Erwin's Audi droned through the street, and the moment when I spun around, there he was already around the corner, stopping where I was standing.
Without wanting it, I felt happiness building up inside my heart and the resulting smile that shined all across my face made it visible to the entire world.
When my bag was put on the backseat, I hopped onto the passenger side, closing the door and automatically leaning over to kiss Erwin's cheek, what he returned with a wonderful chuckle and also a kiss in the same manner.
"Nice to see you too, honey. I have to admit, you surprised me when you texted you want to start earlier and you want me to pick you up. Is something special going on today or did you just miss me that much?" He half-joked with a wicked wink.
"Uh, yeah. I want to go out with my parents a little later. Going to the cinema and having dinner in a restaurant after that, you know? It's been a while since I did such things with them." I lied, trying to stay calm and friendly. That man has an included lie detector, but I hoped dearly that my acting was enough.
"I see, no wonder you sounded so excited in the message. You must love your parents. It's good that you're so close to them. I...I envy you." He replied, and I might dare to assume that a hint of bitterness saturated his tone. Where does that come from?
"What do you mean? What about your parents? Don't you feel the urge to spend time with them as well?" Erwin pushed the accelerator down to drive off like a maniac, pressing me into the seat with a shocked gasp. Once we were on the main street, he finally slowed down to normal speed.
"Erwin! What the heck-"
"I...don't like to talk about my family. They're dead, and I don't want to bring back old memories. Please don't ask any further, okay?" Erwin's voice was low but serious, hearable even above the droning of the vehicle's motor. I can't remember what he talked to me like this ever before. It's scary, but how can I stop asking? I want to know more about Erwin, his family, how am I supposed to when he's blocking all questions?
"Okay..." I replied a little sad. Maybe I just asked at the wrong questions at the wrong time, maybe I have more luck on another day, once the turmoil from all this shitty emotional stuff is over. No one likes to talk about deceased loved ones, especially not the family, but should I just accept a simple 'They're dead' and that's it?
How did his parents raise him? How were they as persons? Where did they live? All questions I crave to know the answer. The same goes for Levi. At least this is something they both have in common: They both don't want to talk about their past, their childhood. But why? There must be a reason.
Normally, I wouldn't care about such things, if they robbed a bank or a local store, if they were in prison or not, that doesn't matter for me, but since I have feelings for Levi AND Erwin, its only natural to want to know such things, right?
One week more to go, one week where I will have Levi all to myself before hard reality will kick in to show me how my future will look like.
Erwin's hand landed on my thigh, gently stroking it up and down.
"I'm sorry sweetheart. I didn't mean to upset you. I can hear your head's engine working in overdrive. Please understand that I don't want to talk about it. Not yet...Maybe someday, I will be ready, but for now...Please accept my reasons."
I have no choice anyway, so I nodded silently and put my hand above his, squeezing it a bit. For the rest of the route, we stayed like, this, holding hands on my thigh, in silence, until we reached the parking lot of the gym. By then, Erwin had put up his usual 'mask' again, to let no one know about the real man behind. How much I want to rip this thing down...
Inside, we parted to change our clothes. Mikasa wasn't here, since its not her time, but another woman was...Rebecca.
I arrived minutes after she did, it seems, cause she stood in the middle of the room with nothing but her sports bra on. As if she needs this thing. The pair of fake breasts should stand on their own without help, judging by the hard, silicone that's clearly visible underneath the skin. The moment when our eyes met, the air around us cooled down to below zero. If it was possible to kill with glares, then we both would lie on the ground by now, covered in stabbing wounds.
I refused to talk to her, or to react to the harassment she whispered back and forth between her bitchy friends.
Fading all the whispering out, I turned my back on them and changed into my sportswear.
Just minutes later, I was ready and I prepared to meet up with Erwin, but not with my new fan-club in tow, since Rebecca found it necessary to come after me, whispering even louder, commenting my fat ass, thick thighs, and plain look. Such things that I used to fell victim to very easily in the past.
I remembered what Erwin said to me on the day when I first met him: That they envy me, because I'm possessing a thing they won't in their whole life, and this fact made me proud and bold beyond expectation.
I walked out of the changing room with pride-swollen chest, head up and my walk secure and radiating pure self-confidence.
Outside was Erwin waiting for me, pushing my ego even more as he came in my direction, totally ignoring the chicks I had walking behind me as he wrapped his arms around my waist and shoulder to kiss on top of my head.
"Shall we, sweetness?" He asked, and I couldnt help but to shoot Rebecca a side look, seeing nothing but pure horror and jealousy written all over her posture. I couldn't hide my grin when I turned back to Erwin as I raised to my tiptoes to kiss his cheek.
"Yep! Let's go. The air here smells really strange. I guess there's something molding green here."
"Yeah, I get what you mean. Let us go then." So Erwin noticed it too, but that he played along that good let my grin only grew wider.
We had our arms laced around each other's waist, and like this, we strutted into our own space: the weight training area.